I remember

I woke up one morning staring at the stars.
Holding my arms around me wishing it were you.
I had dreamed of us together held tightly in a ball.
I had dreamed of us walking, holding hands and laughing.
As the morning sun shone in I was saddened by the sight.
All my lovely dreams of you were gone for the night.
I stared across the dirty street looking at the beggars.
There loneliness mirrored in my eyes.
There sadness in my heart.
I remembered my dream of walking with you and stepped off the curb.
I crossed the dankness of my mind and touched the beggar's feet.
Looking upon me he smiled awry.
Wind was blowing a change my way.
Beggar's thoughts were mine.
Loneliness was taking me, darkness was my eye.
The sun set again this day, blood was headed my way.
They always came at night for me.
They wanted to tell me something, nothing I wanted to hear.
The only reason they stayed so close, was the rotten smell of my fear.
It seems they loved me why I'll never know.
Maybe the smell of me, or maybe they wanted my beer.
I ran across a darkened alley the dankness of it smothered my thoughts.
I knew they were closer than I cared for them to be.
I could hear a woman screaming.
Had she seen them or me?
Either was cause for fright.
As they wandered in smiling packs, hidden within myself hoping they would not see.
As morning stars drew closer I remembered what it was.
I had dreamed of us together held tightly in a ball.
I had dreamed of us walking, holding hands and laughing.
That was what they wanted, to take away my soul.
To wad it up snuggly and tuck it away for good.
I fought them within myself, feeling there sickly breath.
I knew the only hope for me was to fight them for my death.
Once again I remembered what it was.
You holding my hand, smiling softly in my eyes.
I ran across the street and stumbled over the beggar.
He stared at me with concern his coffee on the ground.
I needed something close, my feet stumbled on.
I remembered what it was.
You laughing at my joke, my heart feeling warm.
I woke up one morning staring at the stars.
I remembered what it was, it was you in my arms.