Mistakes and Errors

Here is sit thinkin of last night, having cheated on her trust in me.
 But how can I have cheated when she called me a nut, loon even crazy,
  she told me just two days ago to never ever contact her again and all
 because I was concerned for her safety.
I sit and think how could what I had done been all that very wrong,
 worrying and sensing something extreme had happened all I needed was
  to know she was safe and sound.
I had no idea she was perfectly fine and just trying to get the space
 that I have not been able to give, when the police showed to check,
  how was I supposed to know she was not behaving.
All I needed was to be sure she had not been hurt, and all I did was
 hurt her and lose her love.
Why am I so unable to just do what everyone says and let her go,
 how come I still feel she trully loves and wants me.
When will I ever let her go, will that day ever really show.
Right now all I want is to get out on that lonely highway,
 driving that rig coast to coast, hoping to find me.
Me that is who I am looking to find, my true self.
What makes me tick, who is that person looking back from my mirror,
 is that really me or just some useless shell of a human.
I so want to send this to her, but know if I do she will not bother to read it.
I may still send it possibly through a friend, I know that would be trickery,
 but maybe then she will know I still care, love and cherish her.
Am I that stupid to think she does to, or is there still a bit of hope,
 all I know is I wont ever forget.
Forgetting her is like forgetting my own name,
 a task I know is never to happen, she may be able to forget me but I wont.
I just hope she understands me sending this to her.
 Please help me understand my mistakes and errors.
Maybe then she will forgive me for loving and caring.