My Confusing World of Love

I love you so much & I don't know whats going on inside your head. I
don't know whats going on inside my head. I don't know anything any
more. Sometimes love makes me feel helpless.

I love you so much I need you....but I don't know that I need
you....but I want you. Do you understand?? I want you so bad that I
feel that I need you. I want you beside me. I want you in my arms. I
want in your life. I want in your future. I want in your mind & in your
heart & in your head more than I want anything. I ache for you.
I want you.....but maybe I don't need you.

I know with every fiber of my being I want to be with you. I want to be
with you now,tomorrow, next week, next month,next year..........I want
to be with you forever. I want it to be us.

I know you are already married. I know this. So maybe you don't see me
in your future.
What does that mean??? Does that mean that I can turn off my wants &
desires for you???
Does that mean I can switch this switch in my brain & say, 'Hey he
belongs to someone else....get over it.' There isn't anything like
that. No instead I count the minutes.....the days when I will see you
again.

You see.......even though I don't want to be alone.........I don't want
to be without you either.
Sometimes I'm afraid........afraid you will stop 'us'. I need 'us'. So
I'll sit & wait. Wait for you to make the next move because I'm too
afraid that you might push me away.Each time we are together I'm
grateful.............Grateful this is not the day you say it's over.