Not Yet

I hear the familiar ding
I look down
Swipe up with my thumb
The text is just six words.

Ever do it in the rain

I feel the familiar pull
My smile is
Instantaneous my
Reply is simple

Not yet

I type the familiar words
The same answer
I have replied
to many of
his questions

Ever done it on the beach
Not yet
Ever been with a girl
Not yet
Ever had a threesome
Not yet
Ever really been bound
Not yet

Random questions
Placed in the middle of
Random conversations
On random days
That always give me pause
Make me think
Make me smile
Make me want

And then
There’s
The question
I’m asked
Most often
Not by him
But by so many
Who
Know him,
Know me,
Know us

Are you fucking him?

I’ve stopped
Saying
No

It’s more
Fun
To say

Not
Yet