Reckless

I’ve been reckless
Taking chances
With my life
My body

I’ve been hurt
By these risks
But
I can’t stop

There’s something
Wrong
With me
Inside of me

I can’t explain
Why
The danger
Excites me

I’m damaged
Beyond repair
Dysfunctional
A disaster

You should
Stop trying
To understand
To help

I’ll take you
Down
With me
Deeper

Until we are both
Lost
Depraved
Destroyed

We’ll never surface
From the depths
Drowning
Without water

I want
The bite of pain
The bruises
The blood

Bring it to
The front
Tear it
From me

Free me
Of the guilt
The suffering
Renew me

I am
The Before
Make me
The After