Seperation of Worlds

Darkness falls around me... lying naked in bed beside you
reaching for you my hands find you asleep
your body warm, breathing evenly
letting my eyes adjust to the total darkness I see movement
your eyes shift under closed lids
so peaceful , dreams that come and go
the images flashing in your mind
you smile softly
comfortable in your dream world
you stir, lying on my back I close my eyes
always wondering why when you wake from sleep you feel as you have been watched
it is me, always beside you yet always so far away
you where aware when we first met that I wasn't like the others
you wonder why I am so different in the way I treat you day to day
one moment warm the other as cold as ice
ignoring you during the day, ah but at nite close, safe in your arms
my head resting on your chest as I now let you touch me
your arms around me, your hand in my hair
always so loving yet knowing when the sun rises I will be distant once more
oh make no mistake I do love you but what does that mean
you want it all. the family, house white picket fence
to me that means nothing
there will always be a place to rest our head
the children I am sure will be beautiful
to be stationary is frightening
we will suffocate and die
having dreams is what makes us who we are
travel was talked about and things we would do before we die
and yes I know we wont die young at least we hope
yes there will be time for it all but I want it while I am young
damn I hear the baby cry
slipping out of bed I leave you sleeping thinking of all the things that we should have done
the rocker creaks as I hold the child in my arms
stroking the baby fine hair, the smell is intoxicating and this small life lays in my arms
mothers milk feeds the hunger
slowly drifting back into sleep I hold this child
soft and sweet and so ready for the world
always learning, ah to be a child again
my place in bed still warm
laying there your arm finds its way around me
curling into your touch I feel sleep over take me readying for yet another day