The Silence is now mine

Hello from the outside, it is so desolate.
Embers of a dying love with a need to berate.
At least I can say that I’ve tried and tried,
To tell you, nine years is worth saving, in my heart.
But it doesn’t matter, it clearly is not worth your time!
Silence is your answer, all wrapped up in betrayal’s slime.

Smiling. Remembering. We had a good time… didn’t we? _ _ _ _
Our Bar & Grill served a great steak, meal and tea.
Doris and Stanley would float and tinkle the bells,
As their ghosts swept through with little signs and tells.
But it doesn’t matter, it clearly is not worth your time!
Silence is your answer, all wrapped in betrayal’s slime.

Hyperion Homestead was filled with love and lust.
Built with loving care, Mr Mouse eating the leftover crust.
Racoons – playful, funny, scuffling around at night,
Thieving and raiding our bins in the moonlight.
But it don’t matter, it clearly is not worth your time!
Silence is your answer, wrapped in betrayal’s slime.

Crystal Lake – serene and tranquil, our boat trip must,
Laughter and tickles, bound in friendship and trust.
The Dwarfs and Gnomes would sneak about, mischievous and fun
Whether it was in the moonlight or blazing sun.
But it don’t matter, it clearly is not worth your time!
Silence is your answer, wrapped up in betrayal’s slime.

Real life’s up and downs, I was always there for you!
But Covid struck … and things needed a new perspective and view
And in MY time of need, YOU gave up. Wanted something new
But you didn’t tell me! Even though I gave you the cue!
Instead you chose lies and deceit.
Weighing us down in a mass of concrete!
But I don’t matter, I’m clearly not worth your time!
Silence is your answer, wrapped in betrayal’s slime.

You chose another over me. That hurts as hurts can be!
And I found out myself… instead of you… explaining it all to me!
And when I caught you red-handed, how thoughtful – out of respect for us you said
You did not use the cabin, it was all locked up dead.
Not to be used again!
Please! Please do not refrain and think of me now!
The damage was done when you fucked the silly cow!

And as for that lady! – well what more can be said... She'd...
bite off the hands of friends... to see how well they bleed.
She only plays it well my Dear…. even denies the friends Dear…
This is just a sex game – it’s fucking crystal clear!
Except if that is so…
Why hide from the exclusive, loving spouses?
Tell them straight,” I’m dropping my pants and trousers!”

Does she think she is the original Jolene?
Nah! She’s just sad, pathetic and very mean
She just gets her sexual kicks from those that are forbidden?
With respect for others gone, dead and forever hidden!
She says she avoids clashes and doesn’t like the drama!
Innocent? No! Her actions cause devastating trauma!

Oh yes, I almost forget, out of respect for me…
She keeps the target there, in her Friends list… see!
So it shows there’s No change to a secret spouse or secret lover
That could hurt or annoy me and hide you undercover
How thoughtful of her now to give me such spousal thought and respect!
When really!
She should have thought of that when, sneakily… to our marital bed, she crept!

Memories of a time, treasured and forever in my heart,
But Silence has a way of demeaning it and is never smart.
Best to face the consequences of your actions… a coward no more!
Talk things over to smooth what is raw and sore
But it don’t matter, it seems not worth your time!
Silence is your answer, wrapped up in betrayal’s slime.

Once we were so close no matter how far, forever trusting who we are.
Which is why the silence is shocking and not who I thought was us.
Layers of truth, peeled back.
So many it seems, to fill a sack.
Now with un-tinted Rose glasses, it’s all so clear to see.
You threw me away with NO THOUGHT of what was happening to ME!
No birthday message, Christmas gift or token for our anniversary!
Yet you gifted the Floosey! And then told me…
Was this to make sure you would be set free?
Could you have possibly been,
More nasty and mean?
It doesn’t matter, I’m not worth a dime… or your time!
Silence is your answer, wrapped up in betrayal’s slime.

So take it on the chin! YOU should have found time!
Another way to find a closure…
Is to scream out in frustration and full exposure!
You should have talked, to show respect, to me… to you… to us,
Instead of being an evading, pathetic, little Wuss!
The Silence has just made me stronger, receiving the message loud and clear
Let’s get deleted!
Fetch the dishcloth and wipe away the smear…
Of each and every year!

Hello from the outside. It’s not so desolate
Embers of a dead love with nothing left to rate.
At least I can say that I HAVE TRIED.
Nine years was worth saving once, was in my heart.
But it don’t matter now, it’s not worth MY time
SILENCE IS NOW MINE.
Claimed back, wrapped with an indifferent prime.

My Stallions wild, free and a breath of fresh air,
Have shown me, I’m not broken, boring or not worth a care.
They have indeed boosted me in my time of need and lockdown.
A Gemstone that’s brilliant and Sparkly!
Dressed in my new heels and gown.

There is always a space for someone,
Not a stallion but just as wild and free!
Magnificent and scary, well… at least to me
Grinning,” I don’t hide and will invite… anytime… blatantly”

Then in your moments of quiet solitude,
Sipping your coffee in an interlude
The Soaring Eagle framed - a reminder of my love
Looking down from your wall above.
Are you deep in thought of us and of what once was?
And while you stare in to space and sit,
Tell me, was she really worth all of it?

Well… With my blessing, be happy. Reap what you sow.
Look around as I applaud and please take a bow.
Be it in public, cabin, bar, boat or new abode… Go!
Enjoy this awesome sex game, as I cheer you yellow!
But don’t you dare talk of me or us from that shared pillow!

Sex is fun, an emotion in motion! Go forth shag-ing-ly!
Toast your muse, your fuck toy and slutty Its_ _ _ _ _ _!
And remember… HOW GOOD I AM… at dancing and Fantasy!
Hot and Sexy and sensuous!
You will have to, ruefully and regretfully... agree!