Thermogenic Waste

I have a condition called DID so sometimes my "I"s may be written as "We"s. If you see a ".." a new voice has chimed in. Now that we're clear, it's time we begin.

Prologue

"Fucking darth. You're the (..a) reason we keep paying..Fuck you! You did this. Your turn to pay."

"He used you like a stupid piece of shit.."

"Raped your throat, your pussy, Remember..Raped your brain..haha, took a poke in the backdoor too. Remember that?.."

"Yes. I can feel it.."

"That's what we're good for to them..piece of flesh. Remember..just like Craigslist..just like Null..just like SD..just like darth"

"You getting the point yet princess? You don't mean shit. D was just showing you your place..That's how you look to them all."

"..my place. The floor. Sineater."

"I don't fucking deserve this!..They're evil, fucking disgusting!..Fuckin' humans!"

Remember
"I'm not eating your sins again!"
Remember
"I can't see this shit anymore!"
Remember
"I don't CARE what they think..please stop!"
Remember
"They're WRONG! They don't fucking SEE Me!"
Remember
"It Never Ends !..Make it End ..Fuck you! I'll End it. Show you Motherfucker. I'm not the wide-eyed bitch you raped in that apartment."
***

42 day watch
Sentinal set on your lot
Poised for Ignition

Hello there little D. I see you clear, this night and the 41 past I've waited here, on the lot astride your level 2 abode in the trees beside that turn in from the road. The only entrance. You know.

Tucked beneath the grove in the grass where shadows fall about 15 yards distance from your parking stall, I'm ruminating on the way you played me Boo and resultant fate I've got in store for you. Tonight! That's right! So Bright!

Your car turns in the lot towards your space. My staunch and ready heart begins to race. In a low slow run I pass the ground between washing in my wake the parts you made unclean. Haha! It's you who'll flame and writhe and strain in agony so bright, knowing nothing in the world will make it right.

You pull into your spot and kill the beams. Engine off, you start to tapping on your screen so I creep my way behind your car and roll to a perch behind your driver's side window.

Take a second.
Don't forget the stops and steps.
We must End this here.

Scan 360.
Slow your breath.
Lock your heart, We roll with Death.
Gripping bottle, gripping bar.."Duck in close! Here comes a car."
"It's dark. We killed the lamps. We're good. The car is past. We have this hood. Wore the lifts so trajectory shifts. Brought a lighter with a jet. Know the route. Won't forget.

Shouldn't 'a messed with Me Jack. I'm comin' for you.

When it's silent, when it's clear We up 'n rise. Appear outside your door before your eyes. Just noticing the shadow to your left as we flex the bar and revel in its heft, eyes go wide. You recognize it's She. Not the soft and sorry sow from underneath. Watch you calculate; how best to take control?..As I raise the bar and give My wrist a roll.

Shattering into your private space, psycho-baby grin burnt on Our face, we lift our other hand and give a swirl, a molotov salute from Crazy Girl. Then We pull the special lighter from Our breast. Watch the tears of knowing form and hit your chest.

We ignite the tail and hurl it at your dash. See the light ignite your body in a splash. Glaring, "Supplicant Sing your praise to Me in horrid holy scream. Wail your penance to the night and end this dream."

Reciprocity
You burn so bright inside my light
I dream of your screams

To chorus of wails She swims in ecstacy, hearing "I am Yours and being Yours is pure Agony."

"..but the chorus is loud..He'll soon draw a crowd..Need to move the fuck out..Get your head off the cloud.."

"Yeah I fuckin' hear you."

Now I'm leaving this place and your flaming regret behind. Feel your shackles on my brain start to unbind. Race the path inside this haunted hallowed night on the fuel that I have Taken all your Rights,
to Anything.
Ever.

"Who's Fuckin' next?"
***
This poem is a part of a larger work titled Snapshot, hopefully to be posted soon. It's an expression towards the rape we endured 8 months ago. Our rapist fled and escaped justice. This writing is our release.