Throuple Vacation Planning

I booked the hotel
for our vacation.
And she and I
decided
it would be fun
if you came
with us
this time.
There’s plenty of room.
I booked a suite
with two bathrooms and
two bedrooms.
So you would get
ample time
with each of us.
And she and I
would also get
girl time
alone.
I’m nervous about it.
As often as we are
all together
we have never spent
four straight days
and nights
under the same roof.
And although
she would share you
and give us time
to go out
and stay in
by ourselves,
it would be her bed
you would go to
for the night
when we were done.
And I’m not sure
I want to be
laying in a bed
alone
with just a wall
separating me
from you
and her
in a bed
together
without me.
I’m not sure
I want to hear
your hushed
midnight
conversations,
the sound of your
hands
sliding against
her body,
the sounds
from her mouth
when you
touch her.
We all know
there are things
she doesn’t want
to see
when we’re all
together.
But nobody
gives a fuck
about the things
I don’t want to see
or hear
or think about
every minute
that I’m not
with you and
you are
with her.
I’m not stupid.
I know she’s
your primary
love.
I know you
touch her.
Not the same way
you touch me,
but you do
touch her.
I think
sometimes
it was
easier
when I thought
you only loved
her
and only touched
me.