Your Turn

I have decided
Again
To date other men
Because you
Can’t promise me
Anything more
Than secrets
And lies
And us
Cheating
On our wife
With each other

Because
To put it simply
I deserve more
And so does she

But I don’t
know how
to do it

I don’t know how
To not be
Loved
By you

So I will
Still
Love you
Fuck you

But
I want
Someone
Who is just
Mine

Who wants to be
With just
Me

And who
Will wind up being
Just like
Her

Because
Although I would
Care for him
I would
keep him
In the background
Of my life
Waiting for
Me
To come home
When I am done
Loving
And fucking
You

And then you
Will be more like me
Because you will know
What it feels like
Every damn day
To be loved
And fucked
And left
While I go
Home
To someone
Who isn’t
You