Discovery Blog Pt. 01

DISCOVERY BLOG 1

DREAMING OF CUM

I've always wanted somewhere to keep my thoughts. Somewhere, maybe, I can share my deepest desires without the possibility of them being discovered.

I've had diaries of course. I have one now, but I can't put what I really feel in it for fear of it being discovered by my parents. You would think at eighteen it wouldn't matter, but my parents are, let's just say, a little controlling. If they knew what really went on in my head I'd probably be sent off with a suitcase, or at least off to the nearest shrink.

I don't think I'm any different to anyone else, I'm not a raving pervert. I dont think, but i do seem to be getting worse. My parents are just a bit reserved. I'm not sure they would approve of my new cravings.

As I write this I don't know if I'll post it, I probably won't. I don't really know how this site works. I don't know if it needs approval, or if this will be classed as something worth adding to some of the great stories on here. Guess we'll find out if I try. I should probably apologise for my writing skills now, just in case you are reading this, it was never my strong point.

I'll try and and give it an interesting title at least, one that might gain someone's interest.

I can't add any personal interesting experiences, because I haven't had any. With my parents constant need to know what I'm up to I've never had the chance to be alone with a guy, let alone do anything that might be classed as exciting.

Thank god for the internet, and now, thank god for Literotica. I like porn, sorry that's a lie, I love porn. It's the only thing that saves my sanity and humping my pillow to an early grave. It gets enough action as it is.

Discovering exotic stories though has just changed my life. I've always been an imagination kind of girl, more stimulated by my thoughts than what I see. I remember someone saying that's how people work, one or the other. I'm definitely the written description type.

My only issue now is trying not to pleasure myself to death whilst reading some filthy cum smut every second I get to myself.

Cum is definitely my kink. I've tried lots of random stuff, but it always comes back to the same thing. Not that I've ever come across it, but I can imagine. To wonder about what it feels like on me, or on my skin, even more exciting to wonder what it feels like inside me. Tricking out of my recently punished pussy.

Oh god, not here.

This is not a good place to get horny. I work for my dad, my little corner desk offers some privacy when we're quiet, but not quite enough to secretly touch myself. Though I get more and more tempted everyday. Maybe that's something I could try to make my blogs more interesting. Mental note made.

I'll come back to my kink later. My lunch hours nearly over and my dad's like a hawk when it comes to using phones during work hours.

I hate it here, doing boring admin for his delivery business at weekends, and during my holidays from college. He doesn't even need me, just another excuse to keep an eye on me. I'm sure he'd come to college with me if he could. Making sure I'm not letting boys finger me in my lunch hour. I'd be so lucky. At least the work let's me save money. Money I'll use as soon as possible to get my own place.

I'll waste the last few minutes of my break describing myself. Better paint a picture I suppose, but I'll be vague. Better you have your own image I guess. My name is Abigail. I'm guessing there are enough Abby's out there to not be caught out by this. I'm Eighteen. Long blond, annoyingly curly, hair. 5'5". Slim but not skinny. I'm a 32C for those interested. I think I'm quite pretty, but I guess that's a matter of opinion. I get some signs of interest from boys, but it's never going to go anywhere with my parents looking over my shoulder every five minutes, so I tend to try and shrug it off.

I still live with my parents, obviously, and an annoying brother who's one year older then me. Less said about him the better.

I need to go now. Not that'll you notice.

See, I'm back. I'm home now. In my sanctuary that is my bedroom. An audible sigh of relief always burst from me when I enter here. Another evening of dinner with my parents and some attempt at pretending happy families has been completed. Now I can have some me time. Which, after finishing this, will involve some time on my playstation and then watching some anime. Maybe some erotic stories, depending how the night takes me. Who am I kidding, there will be some.

Back to my kink from earlier. It doesn't matter now how turned on I'll get now. As much as I've moaned about my parents already they are getting better as I get older. Gone are the days of wondering if they'll burst into my room. I think my dad would die of embarrassment now if he caught me in any state of undress.

My kink. It kind of snuck up on me. I had always got some kind of reaction from anime. My thoughts often occupied with a handsome hero from my favourite films seducing me, showing me how to make love, but it was never anything too seedy.

Its different now. I read a story this morning about a woman who accidentally came across a club that had a gloryhole. That got my attention right away. I loved how it made me feel. How I began to imagine it was me in the starring role, my own eyes feasting on the first hard cock appearing through one of the holes.

My fingers shyly reaching out to touch it, to feel how warm and hard it is. Taking it in my hand and stroking it.

My head bobbing up and down as it hits the back of my throat, fighting the gag and wanting it deeper each time.

I'd be so desperate to make it cum, to fill my throat with its big load.

It makes me so wet just thinking about it. My pussy so moist at the thought of it unloading down my neck.

In real life I can't help sneaking my hand between my thighs, pushing my cotton shorts aside and touching myself, easing fingers between my warm swollen lips.

Oh god. I'm so turned on it aches, the fingers on my left hand exploring just inside me as I lie on my belly, writing this with my right.

I think of a boy I like at college lying on top of me, guiding himself inside me. His fit body pressed against mine as he enters me. His hips starting to move against me. Banging his pelvis down into me, his cock so deep I can feel the tip far inside my body.

I want his cum. I want him losing himself within me.

Shit, I'm moaning. I have to stay quiet or my parents will hear me, but I'm cumming, it feels too good.

Oh god please.

Oh fuck please. I want it. Cum flooding my tight wet pussy.

God yes. I'm cumming. I'm cumming. Oh fuck I'm cumming.