Old Friends & New Lovers

As I made it to the doorway of my room my heart dropped a little when I saw her sitting on the bed holding the picture that I had been looking at just minutes before. She knows I was staring at her picture, if that doesn't freak her out what will? I thought to myself. I tried to act like I didn't notice and walked over to the bed, twisted the cap off her beer and handed it to her. Our fingers touched as she took the bottle from me and I knew it wasn't the cold of the bottle that had given me the goosebumps I now had. It was her, her touch.

"Thank you," she said as she took a sip from the bottle.

I tried not to stare at her lucious lips wrapped around the bottle. Tried not to think what it would be like to have those same lips against mine. Stop it! I told myself again. Finally she broke the silence.

"Do you remember this day?" she asked while holding the photo up for me to see even though she knew I had been looking at it. Any hint of the joking nature that been in her voice earlier had disappeared and she was back to the soft near whisper voice.

"Yeah," I said looking her right in the eye. My gaze shifted to the floor before I spoke again. It hurt to look at her. "It was one of the best days of my life."

"Mine to Kel." she said and sat the picture back down on the bed. "Is your mom at home?"

"No, she's gone out for the night. She won't be home till after midnight. What's with all the small talk, I thought. I wish she'd just say what she has to say. Lord knows I won't be the one to start a conversation. Surely she knows that. Minutes seemed to pass although I'm sure it was probably no more then 30 seconds before Jewels spoke again.

"Kel..." she started to say.

She stopped and took a big drink from her bottle as if looking for an answer at the bottom of it.

"What is it? Whatever it is just say it ok." I said, again harsher then I intended. My nerves were getting the best of me. "I know you must hate me after what you heard today so why don't you just yell at me and then you can go home. I know that's what you came here to do."

"No it's not. I came for a lot of different reasons. I wanted to see you. I needed to see you. I need to know if what Amy & Stacey said is true." Her voice shook slightly as she spoke now. "Is it? Is it true?" Tears were forming in her eyes now. "Are they right?"

"What do you expect me to say Jewels? Hell your already crying. Do you want me to say that it was all a lie? Do you want me to tell you that they are crazy?" The words were just flowing out of me with an emotion I hadn't expected, but maybe this was all for the best.

Jewels was still sitting on my bed. I slid down the wall I was standing near and sat down on the floor. I wasn't sure if my legs would hold me through the conversation that was about to take place but I couldn't sit on the bed with her. I couldn't be that near to her when I said this. I pulled my knees up towards my chest and buried my head in them so that she could still hear me but couldn't see my face as I talked. She still hadn't said a word. I continued....

"When we were all out on the baseball field eating lunch today and for whatever reason they chose today to say to you what they did, what did you think?" I asked her choking back my own tears now. "You were disgusted weren't you?"

"No, I...," she broke in.

"Julia come on. When they told you that they thought that I was in love with you , you practically freaked. When they said that they saw the way I looked at you and that it was gross you agreed with them didn't you? When they called me a dyke you must have agreed cause you didn't say anything to make them stop. You just let them go on and on. I thought that they were my friends Jewels, I thought you were my friend but I guess that's only if I'm the way you guys want me to be."

"That's not true Kel. I am your friend. I wasn't...I was just a little shocked."

"But you'll never think of me the same way again will you? I could lie and tell you that the are wrong but what would that prove. You would always wonder why I looked at you for a second to long, or why a hug lasted a little longer then it should. Let's face it, our friendship is over cause your never going to trust me again. So what do you want me to say, really?" By now I was crying softly and wiping the tears off my cheek with the sleeve of my sweater, never once looking up to see if she was looking at me. "Do you want me to say it's not true? Is that why you came here so I would tell you it wasn't true? "

"Actually Kel," she said, "I was hoping that when I got you alone that you would be honest with me and tell me the truth, whatever that may be. You can trust me. So what I wanna know is quite simple actually. Are you in love with me?"

"Yeah, I am." was all I could manage to say at first. "Is that what you wanted to hear. Are you happy now?" I expected her to call me a bitch and storm out or something but that didn't happen. She didn't move as far as I could tell. Finally she spoke.

"Yeah, I am." she said.

I could tell she was crying softly still. Confused by her answer I slowly raised my head to look at her. She was looking right at me and she didn't look mad.

"I really am." she repeated again with a hint of relief in her voice and a momentary smile on her lips that allowed me for a second to think that maybe things would be okay between us again at some point. She wiped a few tears from her cheek and set her beer down beside mine on the dresser.

I didn't know what to say. I was still confused so I said nothing. There was silence in the room except for the stereo playing in the background that until now I had tuned out. It didn't seem like a weird silence though, it was just silence. We sat like that for several minutes. I think we where both trying to figure out what to say next. Finally she spoke.

"I know your confused Kel. I'm just trying to think of the right way to say what I want to say. Do you remember on the message I left earlier...I said that there was something I had to do and a song I wanted you to hear. You remember that?"

"Yeah," I said with my head back in my knees again.

"Well you know how sometimes you hear a song and it seems to say everything you want to say but can't?"

"Yeah," I replied again. I simply didn't know what else to say.

"Well there's a song I want you to hear. It says what I want to say better then I ever could. Is it okay of I put it on?"

Again, a simple "yes" was all I would muster. After she stood up I raised my head to look at her as she walked towards the stereo. She had this quality that just lit up any room she was in. She pushed the eject button on my stereo and replaced the Melissa Etheridge disc I had in their with the one she had in her hand. Sensing she was ready to turn around I quickly hid my face again, not wanting her to see me. She grabbed the remote for my stereo from beside it and walked back to the bed where she sat down again.

"Don't say anything ok. Just listen," she pleaded. She pushed the play button on the disc and found the track she wanted and then the song started. The music was actually a nice distraction from the silence that came before it. The song echoed throughout the room....

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Been running from these feelings for so long
Telling my heart I didn't need it
Pretending I was better off alone but
I know that it's just a lie.
So afraid to take a chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside but...

I need to be next to you
Oh I, Oh I... I need to share every breath with you.
Oh I, Oh I... I need to know I can see your smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night, for the rest of my life
Here with you, near with you Oh I...
I need to be next to you
Need to be next to you.

Right here with you is right where I belong
I'll lose my mind if I can't see you
Without you there is nothing in this life that
Would make life worth living for
I can't bear the thought of you not there
I can't fight what I feel anymore cause ...
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What does this mean? I wondered. Is she trying to say what I think she's trying to say? I concentrated on the song again.

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I need to be next to you
Oh I, Oh I...I need to share every breath with you.
Oh I, Oh I... I need to know I can see your smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night, for the rest of my life
Here with you, near with you Oh I...
I need to be next to you

I need to have your heart next to mine for all time
Hold you for all of my life...
I need to be next to you.
I need to be next to you.
Oh I , Oh I... need to be, need to be next to you
Share every breath with you
I Need to feel you in my arms baby. In my arms.
I Need to be next to you.
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The song was over and silence filled the room again as I heard her turn the stereo off completely when the song ended. I was more confused now then I was before. I was searching for the words to ask her what she was trying to say when I heard her approach me. A weird sinking feeling entered my tummy. It was butterflies in my stomach just knowing that she was close. I still didn't look up. I was to unsure of what was happening and my face was stained with tears.

She crouched down infront of me and spoke gently. "Do you understand what I'm trying to say?"

"I don't know," I stammered. "I, I'm so confused right now."

"Maybe I can help with that. I said there was a song I wanted you to hear and there was something I wanted to do. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time now but was afraid to do until now. Please look at me."

After saying that she reached down and placed her hand under my chin and lifted my head so that I was looking at those beautiful brown eyes of hers. There were a few tears in her eyes but there was also smile on her face.

"Don't cry boo." she said.

She had never called me "boo" before. It caught me by surprise and I smiled slightly.

"That's better," she said as she wiped a tear from my cheek and placed her forehead on mine. We both let out a nervous little giggle.

I pressed my face against her hand loving the feeling of her touch. Inside I was praying that she would never take that hand away from my face. The warmth of her soft skin on mine lit a fire inside me that nobody else had ever done. Our eyes were locked on each other and I suddenly realized how close we were. She laid her whole hand on my cheek now gently caressing my cheek.

"I've wanted to do this for so long," she stated with a tone in her voice that I had never heard before. It was a tone that excited me. I felt my nipples harden under my sweater and I was suddenly aware of the fact that I wasn't wearing a bra, but I didn't care. As she stroked my cheek she ran her thumb over my bottom lip and leaned her face closer to mine. I couldn't believe this was happening. Was it the beer? I thought. Am I dreaming? If I am dreaming I don't want to wake up.

It wasn't a dream though, more like a fantasy come true. Her lips met mine for the first time. Our first touch of the lips was a simple closed mouth kiss, a peck really. Then a couple more quick, slightly open mouth kisses, that were soft and warm and filled with love. I was beginning to feel the familiar tingle in my pussy when she pulled back from the kiss to look into my eyes. At first I thought she regretted what she had done and was going to stop but she just looked at me and brushed my cheek again.

"Kel, I love you." she said as she started to sob lightly again. "I'm in love with you. I have been for awhile I just didn't know how to tell you. I only dated guys cause I was afraid of what people would say and most of all I was afraid of how it would affect our friendship. I couldn't stand the thought of losing you..."

I cut her off in mid sentence by placing my index finger on her lips. "Shhhh... it's okay Jewels. I'm not going anywhere. I love you to." The minute I said those words out loud the world seemed right. Like everything in the universe was exactly as it was supposed to be and the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders. This was now the best day of my life.

She gave my finger that was resting upon her lips a quick kiss and then parted her lips taking it into her mouth up to the knuckle. Slowly she sucked it up to the tip of my finger leaving it wet with her saliva. Then Jewels took my hand by the wrist, with the finger still outstretched and ran it along her bottom lip. Our eyes were still locked on each other and I saw something in her eyes that I had never seen before, passion. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to kiss her again, had to feel her lips on mine.

She seemed to want the same thing and together, eyes closed, we leaned in to kiss again. We started light again at first but soon our kisses became more enpassioned. I had never really been kissed before because I avoided all relationships because of the way I felt for Jewels. Even though she didn't know how I felt it, it would have felt like cheating if I had gone out with someone else when I was in love with her. This had left me totally naive to all things sexual. Sure I had knew what sex was and had an idea of what to do but that was about it. Jewels knew I was a virgin and I think she was taking it slow for me because she knew I was nervous.

We kissed like that for ages, well actually probably only a minute, but it seemed like longer to me. Suddenly Jewels began to stand up from the crouching position she had been in and I thought, That's it, she's leaving. Again I was wrong. When she was up she reached her hand out towards me and I took it. She pulled me up towards her and into the hottest kiss I had ever known. With my hand still in hers she pushed me back a few steps and pinned me to the wall I had just been leaning against. Her lips never lost contact with mine, something I was very grateful for. She began to kiss me deeper. Her tongue slipped out of her mouth and traced my upper and lower lip expertly before parting my lips and exploring every inch of my mouth. Whoa, this girl is one hell of a kisser! I thought. My body was on fire now, my desire for her undeniable.

We continued to kiss passionately. She had one hand on my face now as we kissed, she seemed to be trying to comfort me through this whole process because of my inexperience. With her finger tips on the other hand she traced her way from my outer hips inward to my stomach and slipped her hand under my sweater and around to the middle of my back where she rubbed it ever so gently for a moment before pulling out of this kiss. "Mmm no bra," she said with a devilish twinkle in her eyes.

I felt my cheeks get red with embarrassment and began to responded in a shy nature, "Sorry. I didn't have a chance to put one on before you got here..."

"Oh don't worry Kel, I'm not complaining," she said with a grin on her lips. "Just makes it easier when I do this..." She placed both hands on my hips and slowly began to slide my long sweater up my body exposing my naked flesh along the way. She got it as high as my belly button before pausing and looking at me again. "May I?" she asked wanting to make sure I was okay with what was about to happen. I simply raised a hand to her cheek and nodded my head, yes. Her smile brightened even more and there were no signs of tears in either of our eyes now. This just felt right.

She continued to work the sweater up my body, freeing my firm C cup breasts from their prison. I raised my arms so she could lift the sweater off over my head. "We won't be needing that anymore will we," Jewels smirked. "Your breasts are beautiful boo. I've waited so long to touch them, admired them when you weren't looking. Did you know that?"

I shook my head side to side indicating that I hadn't know and leaned in for the lips I already missed touching. Now wasn't the time to talk. I kissed her bottom lip and pulled it into my mouth a little bit and gave it a playful nibble before kissing her fully. I had to have her and be had myself. As we kissed deeply she cupped one of my breasts and rolled the nipple between her thumb and index finger pinching playfully every now and then. I moaned softly in her mouth as we kissed. I had touched my own breasts before but it never really did that much for me. With Jewels doing it , it was a different story. I was in heaven. That's it, I thought, this is what heaven on earth feels like. My passion was growing and I kissed her harder.

Again Jewels was the first one to break the long makeout session of kisses. She placed baby kisses across my cheek to my ear. Her tongue traced the outline of my ear and finally settled on the lobe, she sucked it into her mouth, flicking it with her tongue a few times. I was growing very wet now and could feel the juices from my naked pussy running out onto my jeans where a wet patch would soon form I'm sure. She continued with her trail of kisses, working her way around my neck to my throat and straight down my body...kissing all the way. Between my breasts, down my stomach and to my belly button. My whole body was on fire, everywhere she touched brought me pleasure. Her tongue circled my belly button then dove in, where she circled the inside with her wet tongue. All this time she had been very careful not to touch my tits with her mouth, she was teasing me and I loved it but I couldn't take it anymore.

I placed my hand on the back of her head, feeling her silky smooth hair between my fingers and guided her up my body to my left breast. She caressed the outside of my breast extremely slowly with her finger tips sending goosebumps through me. That was the most sensitive spot for me, I was slightly ticklish there. She then looked up at me with her big brown eyes and finally I pleaded with her... "Please..." That was all I had to say, she knew what I wanted. With my hand still running through her hair she laid her tongue flat and licked it straight across my nipple, just once. Then she licked around my very large areola with the tip of her tongue. I pushed her face against me more and she got the picture. She instantly attacked my hardened nipple, sucking it and every once in awhile biting at it. I couldn't believe she had never done this before. She definitely had a talent for it.

"What do you say we move this to someplace more comfortable Jewels?" I said in a teasing voice. "You're making me a little weak in the knees here." We both giggled and walked to my bed hand in hand.

Jewels shocked me by pulling the covers off my bed and throwing them to the floor at the foot of the bed. This left just the pillow and the bottom sheet. She must have noticed the look of surprise on my face because she said, "We'd just get them dirty and mess them up anyway so I just thought I'd get them out of the way."

"Good point," I said with a half smile and a light laugh then got serious. "I've fantasized about this moment so much but your different then I thought you would be. Your more...aggressive. I think I like it."

"You ain't seen nothing yet boo," Jewels replied as she used both arms to push me back onto the bed surprising me again. I was in a sitting position now with my legs over the side of the bed. I reached my hands out for hers and she grasped them. It was my turn to surprise her. I pulled her onto the bed with me in one sudden motion.

"See, 2 can play at that game." I said. I hadn't planned my attack to well though cause she landed on top of me knocking me side ways and catching me on the side of my forehead with one of her rings. I let out a little "Owwww" while laughing at the same time.