Ostracism Pt. 03

Author's note: This story contains some anti-gay slurs. This is not meant to insult anyone, but they are necessary for the telling of this tale. I hope that the reader can see past any offense he might take, and understand why they are integral to the story.

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"Dude, I apologize! I think that I just fucked you over."

"Huh, what happened?" Danny asked his roommate.

"Listen, I'm sorry, but that girlfriend of yours, Mary Margaret, she came up a few hours ago, looking for you, and I blurted out that you'd stayed out all night. I'd slept in, and wasn't thinking straight when she knocked on the door. I'd thought you'd spent the night with her, and then I realized that I just fucked you over royally."

Danny sat down on his bunk, trying to figure things out. His head was still pounding, not as badly as first thing this morning, but still. Shannon had been in just as bad a shape as he had, and he hadn't gotten laid, but Mary Margaret was sure to assume that he had.

Just like he assumed she'd gotten laid when she stayed overnight at her boyfriend's on Friday, and maybe Saturday, too. No, she wasn't 21 yet, but who knows what booze or grass the boyfriend might have had at his place. Danny hadn't gotten laid, despite that being his goal, but surely she had.

"Listen, it's OK, man. She had a date Friday night, and didn't come home, so she's got nothing to bitch about. She's not my girlfriend anyway, she's just a friend."

"You sure? She sure didn't look like 'just a friend' to me. She didn't cry or anything, but just had that look on her face, you know, the look that tells you she's unhappy, when I spilled the beans."

"Well, she sure hasn't said anything about wanting to get closer."

"Dude, lots of girls won't ever say anything. They expect guys to do the asking."

"Yeah, well, how can I ask her to date the fag whore?"

"Look, Danny, I know that you still get called that, but most people have given that up. There's too much other stuff going on, anyway. Besides, how is she going to get it any worse than she did when she started eating with you? She was able to tough that out, wasn't she?"

oo0oo

Sarah looked over as Mary Margaret groaned, when her alarm sounded at 6:00. That was the normal time she had set, for her regular breakfasts with Danny, but, after listening to MM's complaints about Danny having spent the night with some girl, Sarah wasn't sure that her roommate really ought to keep up with their breakfasts.

"You sure you want to do this?" Sarah asked.

"Lord, no, but I don't have any choice, do I? If I bail on Danny this morning, whatever gain he's made will all be gone. I'm just hoping that he doesn't bring up his new girlfriend."

"What can you even say if he does? After all, you spent Friday night with Brandon, and he's sure to think that you got laid."

"I know, I know. And even though it's true, the 'It's not what it looked like' answer sounds lame, weak and lame."

"You know, if you really want to date Danny, maybe you ought to just tell him."

"You know I can't, Sarah, that's not the way I was brought up."

"Well, what about Brandon? Isn't this one of the days you have class with him?"

"Yeah, at 11:00. Can't say I'm looking forward to that, either."

"Well, if he's pissed off that you didn't sleep with him Saturday, then maybe he's just a jerk. I mean, it's not like you somehow owe him sex."

"I know, I know, and it's not like he acted that I owed him sex, and I actually wanted to sleep with him, but that giant box of condoms sitting there, it just made it seem like I'd just be next in a long line of conquests, and I couldn't do it. But anyway, I can't see Brandon in class today without at least having seen Danny this morning for breakfast."

With that, Mary Margaret grabbed her shower caddy and bathrobe, and headed to the floor showers. A long, hot shower, a bit hotter than she usually set it, helped to clear her mind a bit. Oh, she was still dreading seeing Danny this morning, but dread or not, she had to do it.

"Hey, Danny, how's it going?" she asked, setting her tray down caddy-corner from his at the breakfast table; he'd gotten down there before she had, but it couldn't have been long, because he was still just adding a couple packs of sugar to his coffee. Mary Margaret was her usual chipper self, Danny thought, acting like there's nothing different. She knew that he'd spent Saturday night out, and had to assume that he'd gotten laid, and she'd gotten screwed at least Friday night, if not Saturday, too. She sure didn't act like she was upset, the way Randy had said she was.

So, they sat there, eating, just like normal, without either of them bringing up their dates for the weekend. It was mostly meaningless small talk between them, but, with finals coming up just next week, they made sure that their evening 'study dates' were on for this week.

Breakfast hadn't gone so badly, Mary Margaret thought, but worried that Danny didn't ask her about her date. Was he not jealous at all? Then again, why should he be; he'd had his own date on Saturday, and apparently gotten lucky. But the most important part had gone well: they agreed on meeting for their regular evening study sessions, and with exams coming up, those were important for getting good grades as well as whatever they were doing for their relationship.

The weather was on the miserable side, and Mary Margaret hadn't dressed at all sexily. She was wearing a newer pair of jeans, which fit closely if not being 'skinny' jeans, and her nice, warm fuggs - fake Uggs - along with a heavy sweater under her winter jacket. A thick scarf kept her neck warm. Brandon was going to see her all covered up in class this morning, and she wondered what his reaction was going to be. After Friday night, he'd surely have expected her to sleep with him on Saturday, but she had decided against that. She knew that he was disappointed - heck, in some ways, she was disappointed - but this morning's class was going to be a test in one way: would Brandon be his normal, friendly self, or would her turning him down on Saturday reveal a different side of him? After all, he was so good looking and charming, she was sure that he never got turned down before!

This was one of the things she wanted to know, needed to know, and was dreading finding out. In the back of her mind was the thought that, with Christmas break coming up, Danny would be far away, at his parents' home near Paducah, while Brandon's family lived only about twenty miles away. If he was still interested in her, they'd have plenty of opportunities to see each other over the break, but maybe fewer chances to sleep together; they certainly couldn't at her parents' house.

That thought brought a smile to her face, just before walking into class: with exams coming up, they wouldn't have many chances to go to bed together before break, and then three weeks of break in which opportunities would be limited. That would mean she could see Brandon for what would turn out to be a solid six weeks, without having to sleep with him, and if he was still interested in her after that, then maybe she wasn't just another potential piece of pussy for him.

Oh, my gosh, there he was!

oo0oo

Danny wasn't sure if he felt better or worse after breakfast. Neither one of them had brought up their dates over the weekend - could meeting Shannon really be called a 'date?' - but it had certainly been in the back of his mind throughout their time together. Yeah, she wanted to see him for their regular study sessions, and she'd been the one top broach the subject, but they had finals coming up next week, so there was certainly a practical aspect to that. Both of them had been doing better since they'd started studying together, and Mary Margaret had said that she thought she's pull a 4.0 for the semester now.

Boy, he wished that he could swing better grades, but the revelation of the porno tape had really hurt him: two of his midterms had happened right after the exposure, and he'd bombed both of them. Finals counted for more than midterms, but straight As didn't seem possible for him. Yeah, he had pulled out of his funk, and pulled himself together a lot better in class, but in two classes he couldn't do better than a B, and that was if he aced the final.

There'd be no getting back together with Shannon. He knew where she lived, of course, but when he gave her his cell phone number, she never returned the favor. Danny was disappointed, but at least smart enough to recognize a 'don't call me, I'll call you' response. After all, it's not like this was the first time.

Was it time to change his mind about Mary Margaret? He'd promised himself that he wouldn't subject her to the ignominy of being the fag whore's girlfriend, and what did that get him? It got him a girl he wanted as more than a friend - even though he promised himself that he wouldn't do anything with her - to start dating, start sleeping with, another guy.

oo0oo

Mary Margaret had gotten to class before Brandon, just putting her stuff down as she took her seat, as he hobbled in. He must've been feeling better, only using one crutch today, to take the pressure off the injured ankle on which he was now walking. She smiled at him, and he came over, to take the seat next to hers. If he was upset that she had left Saturday evening, it sure hadn't stopped him from smiling at her.

"Looks like your ankle is getting better," she said to him.

"Well, it's still sore and tender, but it's getting better. You bought lunch for me on Friday; my turn today?"

"Sure, someplace close, I'd say." Mary Margaret was smiling inside; it sure seemed like Brandon wasn't put off by her leaving Saturday evening.

"Somewhere really close, actually: I made us tuna salad sandwiches, have 'em in my backpack."

"Well, isn't that sweet of you! Sure, that works fine for me. We can get a couple bottles of water from the vending machines in the basement." Mary Margaret was smiling even more inside at this. Not only had Brandon been interested when he saw her in class, but he'd made an effort at home, this morning, to be ready for her.

There was no particular lunchroom in the Commerce Building, so it was back outside, to that same bench where they'd been sharing lunches before. It was cold outside, with a breeze, though not quite as cutting as it had been before class. There were a few white, puffy clouds in the sky, but it was still mostly sunny, and the sun was on the bench where they are. Being a concrete bench, rather than wood, it was cold on her butt, but Mary Margaret didn't mind. Their visible breath threw wisps in front of Brandon's face, somehow making him look sexier, more desirable than ever.

"Aren't you cold?" she asked him. Brandon was dressed warmly enough, except for one thing: while he had gloves, he wasn't wearing them while eating, and he had the long sleeves of his flannel shirt rolled up to just below his elbows, leaving most of his forearms bare; for a jacket, he had the same insulated vest he had been wearing before. She hadn't thought anything special about his rolled up sleeves before, but that was before it had turned below freezing.

"Huh, why do you ask?"

"The sleeves, silly."

"Oh, that's just the way I always dress in the winter. Well, except for ROTC days, when I don't have a choice."

"Oh, OK." Mary Margaret kept to herself the question of whether he really did that, or if this wasn't some conscious move to make her think he was tough. She'd known guys who would have done just that, for that reason, but somehow Brandon didn't strike her that way. "Of course, I haven't seen you in your uniform yet." That was conscious flirting on her part, and she knew that she was smiling when she said it.

"I've got ROTC on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so if you want to get lunch then, you'll see me in them. Of course, we wear ACUs usually, and that isn't that impressive, but we do have an ASU inspection Thursday, last class day before finals."

"OK, wait, stop! What's with the alphabet soup?"

Brandon laughed. "The ACUs, Army Combat Uniforms, are the camo fatigues, not really all that impressive, but at least they're comfortable. The ASUs, the Army Service Uniforms, are the dress blues, and you might like that better. Of course, my luck, I'll slop something on it just before inspection!"

"OK, so no soup on Thursday?" Mary Margaret teased him.

Brandon laughed at her. "Nahhh, I'll wear civvies in the morning, and change to my ASUs at Buell, the Armory, just before inspection. Safer that way."

"Makes sense. You gonna let me see you in that uniform?"

"Oh, sure. The sergeant already saw you, when you helped me on Saturday. He understands that girlfriends like to see cadets in their uniforms, though he gets all fake gruff about stuff like that."

"Girlfriends? That mean I'm your girlfriend?" Mary Margaret hadn't really thought of that part, not with Danny hanging out in the background.

"Well, I guess we hadn't said anything about that, but yeah, I hope so."

That got Brandon a quick kiss, and then a not-so-quick kiss, before they stood up, getting ready to head for their one o'clock classes. Mary Margaret was pretty happy about the way things were going.

After they went their separate ways, she continued to think about it. Brandon had said that he wanted her as his girlfriend, and she hadn't had to sleep with him for that. Check that, she had actually slept, but only slept, with him, last Friday night. He'd certainly gotten his eyes full, as she'd slept in just her panties, and was naked getting in and out of the shower, but they hadn't had sex, nothing beyond hugs and kisses. This guy just might be a keeper!

If only she could forget that large box of condoms he had on his nightstand, and that Facebook page, and that 'Friends' list full of so many girls, so many really pretty girls.

oo0oo

Alone in a crowd on a bus after working, I'm dreaming

The guy next to me has a girl in his arms, my arms are empty

How does it feel when the girl next to you says she loves you?

Seems so unfair when there's love everywhere but there's none for me

Some guys have all the luck

Some guys have all the pain

Some guys get all the breaks

Some guys do nothing but complain.

Damn, who ever had written that song sure had Danny pegged. Danny had walked into his dorm room, and Randy had his music system going. "Randy, what's that playing?"

"Oh, that's Rod Stewart, Some Guys Have All the Luck."

"When's that from? And who id Rod Stewart?"

"Dude, it's old, mid 80s, I think, but you haven't even heard of Rod Stewart?"

"No, never."

"That song getting to you? I know, you're one of the guys who ain't got all the luck."

"Yeah, kinda."

Someone to take on a walk by the lake Lord, let it be me

Someone who's shy, someone who'd cry at sad movies

I know I would die if I ever found out she was foolin' me

You're just a dream, and as real as it seems, I ain't that lucky

Some guys have all the luck

Some guys have all the pain

Some guys get all the breaks

Some guys do nothing but complain

"Still mooning over that girl?"

"Yeah, and I'm not getting anywhere."

But if you were here with me

I'd feel so happy, I could cry

You are so dear to me

I just can't let you say goodbye.

"So, what have you done about it?"

"That's just it, not one fucking thing!" Danny slammed his fist into the door; the door was not hurt.

"Then it's your own damned fault, ain't it? You said she's seeing some guy, and maybe you don't have a chance, but if you don't let her know how you feel, if you don't try something, you're going to lose for sure. If you're waiting for her to make the first move . . . ."

"Yeah, I have been. I've got to know if she could ever stand to be the girlfriend of the fag whore, and not push her into it."

"Well, dude, you've got that video to live down, and I guess that's hard, but things have calmed down some now, but if you're waiting for her to make the first move, when there's already some guy going after her, you can forget it, it ain't gonna happen."

"Yeah, I know, you're right. Randy, can I have the room tonight?"

Randy smiled, maybe for the first time since his roommate had been exposed in that awful video. "Yeah, buddy, go for it. All night, or just until a certain time?"

"Can you do all night?"

"Yeah, I'll crash somewhere. Just remember: you owe me now."