Imagine my sense of accomplishment and subsequent disappointment at having waded through the monster thread in its entirety, only to discover that now BDSM has its own entire forum here! However, since I've been waiting to introduce myself for the past three weeks, I don't want to wait any longer. Please forgive me if I ask questions that are answered in other threads.
I suddenly find myself in my first relationship with a submissive man, and I have been slowly exploring my dominant tendencies (I was almost entirely vanilla up until now). I knew he was submissive before we got involved, so I at least had some idea of what I was getting into when we got together. It's been educational for the both of us (he has not been able to express his submissiveness in past relationships). At first I thought I might be submissive myself, or at least a switch, but the first time we played with me in that role I soon realized I wanted to jump up and hit him every time he had the temerity to give me an order -- no submissiveness here! Which is fine because, as I've said, he's sub and would only top to please me. The more I read about dominance the more it sounds like something I've had vague inclinations toward for a while but have never explored.
I have a bit of a problem with confidence and self-consciousness. He likes light pain and bondage; I'm terrified of hurting him. He is precious to me and I would feel awful if I did something wrong and ended up harming him mentally or physically. Most of the stuff he wants I can try on myself, but I can't handle the bondage because I have claustrophobia and the mere thought makes me feel sick. I'm worried I'll put him in an uncomfortable position and he won't tell me. I feel it would probably ruin the mood to be constantly asking him, "are you comfortable?" but at this point that's what I have to do because I'm so concerned about it. I'll check out the thread on BDSM links; I'm sure there's stuff on beginner bondage that would help me.
I'm self-conscious because I'm still new to this dominance thing and for the most part it feels like an act. He assures me I can't do anything wrong (following the guidelines he's given me, of course) but I can't help feeling illegitimate somehow. I'm thinking blindfolds might help with this one -- if he can't see me fumbling with the padlocks, for example, I won't worry so much about looking silly. Any other suggestions for gaining confidence?
A specific question about bondage: he's currently got a mattress in his bedroom with no bed frame or headboard. Any suggestions for ways to tie him down without being able to use such things? I've thought of running a chain or rope under the mattress itself, but otherwise I'm at a loss.
Thanks for all the wonderful insight thus far.
Lain
I suddenly find myself in my first relationship with a submissive man, and I have been slowly exploring my dominant tendencies (I was almost entirely vanilla up until now). I knew he was submissive before we got involved, so I at least had some idea of what I was getting into when we got together. It's been educational for the both of us (he has not been able to express his submissiveness in past relationships). At first I thought I might be submissive myself, or at least a switch, but the first time we played with me in that role I soon realized I wanted to jump up and hit him every time he had the temerity to give me an order -- no submissiveness here! Which is fine because, as I've said, he's sub and would only top to please me. The more I read about dominance the more it sounds like something I've had vague inclinations toward for a while but have never explored.
I have a bit of a problem with confidence and self-consciousness. He likes light pain and bondage; I'm terrified of hurting him. He is precious to me and I would feel awful if I did something wrong and ended up harming him mentally or physically. Most of the stuff he wants I can try on myself, but I can't handle the bondage because I have claustrophobia and the mere thought makes me feel sick. I'm worried I'll put him in an uncomfortable position and he won't tell me. I feel it would probably ruin the mood to be constantly asking him, "are you comfortable?" but at this point that's what I have to do because I'm so concerned about it. I'll check out the thread on BDSM links; I'm sure there's stuff on beginner bondage that would help me.
I'm self-conscious because I'm still new to this dominance thing and for the most part it feels like an act. He assures me I can't do anything wrong (following the guidelines he's given me, of course) but I can't help feeling illegitimate somehow. I'm thinking blindfolds might help with this one -- if he can't see me fumbling with the padlocks, for example, I won't worry so much about looking silly. Any other suggestions for gaining confidence?
A specific question about bondage: he's currently got a mattress in his bedroom with no bed frame or headboard. Any suggestions for ways to tie him down without being able to use such things? I've thought of running a chain or rope under the mattress itself, but otherwise I'm at a loss.
Thanks for all the wonderful insight thus far.
Lain
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