I feel really awkward ... but I have to get this out of my mind ...
How will I know if I'm a Domme? It must sound like a stupid question, I know. I guess you will say: If you're not sure, you're probably not. Anyhow, I will just give you the facts.
1. I've been fantasizing about dominating men since I was 5. I remember going to bed rubbing my Labia and thinking about my Kindergarten friend, how I would tar and feather him and then pluck the feathers and scrub off the tar, or locking him up in a rocket (!!!) almost to tight for him to breathe or other stuff.
2. Nothing gets me off like reading about female domination. I have a very kind, sweet boyfriend, we have great sex, but I've never had an orgasm with him. Reading a story from the BDSM category and rubbing my clit always does it for me.
3. Speaking of the boyfriend: I feel a growing need to spank, scratch or bite him really hard during sex. Yet I feel I don't want to hurt him, especially not emotionally.
4. I hate violence. I can't even watch a movie like Fight Club. Reading about people getting beaten up brings me to the verge of tears.
I'm really confused. I don't know what to do. I would appreciate any kind of advice or shared experience very much, either way.
Susan
P.S. Please excuse any mistakes. I'm not a "native speaker".
How will I know if I'm a Domme? It must sound like a stupid question, I know. I guess you will say: If you're not sure, you're probably not. Anyhow, I will just give you the facts.
1. I've been fantasizing about dominating men since I was 5. I remember going to bed rubbing my Labia and thinking about my Kindergarten friend, how I would tar and feather him and then pluck the feathers and scrub off the tar, or locking him up in a rocket (!!!) almost to tight for him to breathe or other stuff.
2. Nothing gets me off like reading about female domination. I have a very kind, sweet boyfriend, we have great sex, but I've never had an orgasm with him. Reading a story from the BDSM category and rubbing my clit always does it for me.
3. Speaking of the boyfriend: I feel a growing need to spank, scratch or bite him really hard during sex. Yet I feel I don't want to hurt him, especially not emotionally.
4. I hate violence. I can't even watch a movie like Fight Club. Reading about people getting beaten up brings me to the verge of tears.
I'm really confused. I don't know what to do. I would appreciate any kind of advice or shared experience very much, either way.
Susan
P.S. Please excuse any mistakes. I'm not a "native speaker".