Andreina
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okay, here we go...
i just wanted to know if anybody else has had to cope with those feelings before and if they are normal or not.
i lately discovered that I'm a switch (more tending to the sub side though) and well, as prude as this may sound, this troubles me. i dont mean to say that I'm prude (by no means, im not) but it is just confusing. i know bloody well that there are no real-life mates of mine who enjoy what i take pleasure in. it must be like discovering that you are actually gay when you have lived in a straight relationship all your life.
i know it seems pretty trivial and most of you will think "why doesn't she just get on with it?" but it is really quite hard to explain. I know that people who enjoy BDSM aren't freaks *cough cough * but still... it is just confusing.
over the past few weeks i was browsing other sites and forums which had a strong BDSM focus and i felt like i discovered a part of my 'life' which i hadn't even seriously considered before. im not yet quite sure if i should give into it or not.
is it normal that one feels that way? or is it a sign that my heart is not really into it?
<<surely confused>>
i just wanted to know if anybody else has had to cope with those feelings before and if they are normal or not.
i lately discovered that I'm a switch (more tending to the sub side though) and well, as prude as this may sound, this troubles me. i dont mean to say that I'm prude (by no means, im not) but it is just confusing. i know bloody well that there are no real-life mates of mine who enjoy what i take pleasure in. it must be like discovering that you are actually gay when you have lived in a straight relationship all your life.
i know it seems pretty trivial and most of you will think "why doesn't she just get on with it?" but it is really quite hard to explain. I know that people who enjoy BDSM aren't freaks *cough cough * but still... it is just confusing.
over the past few weeks i was browsing other sites and forums which had a strong BDSM focus and i felt like i discovered a part of my 'life' which i hadn't even seriously considered before. im not yet quite sure if i should give into it or not.
is it normal that one feels that way? or is it a sign that my heart is not really into it?
<<surely confused>>