Surrender

Surrender

With apprehension
I have arrived
Why
Do I really wish to answer

The doorway beckons
I knock with fear and excitement
The wait is shot in time
But long in emotion

The door opens
You are in the shadow
I summon my courage
My heart will not be denied

You are different
But it is somehow the same
I'm nervous for your command
But you make me wait

I wish to cry
It is joy and fear
Joy of being with you
Fear of failure

Your smile sends a shiver
There is cruelty in it
But your eyes
They hold my very soul

I kneel when commanded
I have again surrendered
I am yours
Do as you wish

This time you give me
It is a treasure
You have withheld it too long
I value it all the more

I will suffer but feel you with me
What you do to me, no matter
I accept the pain, give you pleasure
I surrender all

I escape to another realm
I find you there
I know you need this
Just as I

I am bound
I am punished
I am aroused
I am deprived

It is your will
I am your possession, your toy
I accept all
So you can freely give

My mind is clouded
From all that you have done to me
I am lost, beyond my limits
But you still grasp me

When it is over
I am soothed and put to bed
I sleep in peace
And rest from the ordeal

I awake
Was it a dream
I feel the lingering pain
I know it was real

I look there beside me
You in restful slumber
I move to feel your body
So warm against mine

We are in our bed
We are in our bedroom
We are in our home
We are together

We will wake
We will go about our lives
Only we know
This intimacy we share

We are content
For a while
Until time comes again
For me to surrender