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Confession

byrachelg©

(C) 2005 Rachel Gumm. You may freely distribute this story digitally, but only in full, crediting me as the author. Please send feedback to me - it makes writing these worthwhile.

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I glanced up at Mark as he finished wiring two leads to a small box of electronics. The other ends of the leads were connected to a cold, metal dildo, which was strapped firmly inside me. This was my punishment for last night.

I shuffled slightly on the bed, the bonds allowing me very little movement, but the device stayed firmly inside me. My ankles were tied to the front corners of the bed, and my wrists were tied to a table that was fixed in place over the top of the bed. My old word processor was on the table, complete with a built-in printer and phosphor green screen. It must have been a decade since I last tried to write a novel on it, and it was beginning to make the bedroom smell like the musky attic Mark had brought it down from. My hands had just enough freedom to use its grimy keyboard.

I shifted my weight slightly. I could just about stay comfortable if I squirmed about every now and then, but even with the heating on, I was still cold. This was partly due to the metal dildo, but mainly because Mark had told me to wear only stockings, suspenders and a hairband. My hair was notoriously frizzy, and I tended to complain about it getting in my mouth during our sessions.

"Let's see if this thing still works properly," said Mark. He pushed a button on the small box.

I let out a very sudden and loud noise, dampened by the pink, rubber gag held in my mouth by a tightly fastened head harness. It felt like the insides of my genitals were on fire for a split second. The shock was soon followed by a second and third, at seemingly random intervals.

"It seems to be working just fine," he said to himself, smiling. "This device will now give you a few seconds' worth of electric shocks every five minutes, on the dot. In light of your disobedience, I would normally have set it to shock you more often. I don't want it to put you off your writing, though. It's going to be your incentive, not something that distracts you."

This was the first time he'd used electric stimulation on me in months. He shared most Sunday afternoons with a soldering iron, making God knows what, so he must have been on cloud nine when he discovered a way to combine his two favourite hobbies. He quickly found out how much I hated it, though, and thankfully he respected my limits. This time he deemed it a suitably harsh punishment. I made a mental note to be extra careful to remain obedient to him in the future.

It wouldn't have surprised me if he got the idea for the typewriter from his new friends on a mailing list he joined a few months ago. It consisted of a few dozen dominants who shared tips, stories and techniques with each other. He must have told them a bit about me, and how I used to aspire to being a writer. While I'd always wanted a supportive boyfriend to encourage my creative side, this wasn't what I'd had in mind.

"One last thing," said Mark, reaching into our blanket box. My eyes widened as he pulled out a pair of nipple clamps connected to each other via a small chain. They were my second least favourite device, after the electronics.

I tried to plead with him. Something vaguely resembling the words "No, I'm sorry! You really don't have to use those! I won't do it again!" made it out of the gag. He probably couldn't tell what I'd said, but my tone of voice alone conveyed that I would have done almost anything to avoid him using the clamps on me.

"You should have thought of that yesterday," he said, carefully placing them on my areolae, one at a time. The pain soon died down, but as soon as I was beginning to block it out into background noise, the dildo gave me several more sparks, causing me to let out another muffled scream.

"Now for the first part of your punishment," said Mark.

A dulled noise served me as saying "First?"

"The first of two parts," he said. "You must write something for me. Something that will turn me on. If you write something that doesn't do it for me, it won't count, and you'll have to start again. Once you've finished, and I've approved of what you've written, the second part of your punishment will begin. After the second part, and only then, I will untie you. Do you understand?"

I nodded.

"Good," he said. He playfully tapped the chain hanging from my breasts, watching it swing back and forth, before walking away. "I'll come back later," he said. He left the room, closing the door behind him.

I shouted through the gag. There was no response. I shouted again, but I couldn't hear anything from outside the room. He'd left me. I protested one last time, a halfhearted attempt at a swearword, that he probably didn't even hear. The pain from the nipple clamps had become less intense, so I tried to think straight. He'd given me a task to perform for my punishment, and would only let me go once I'd completed it. I had to write something sexy for him.

I tried to think of an erotic story to write, but my mind went blank. I hadn't written any fiction in years, although I'd always meant to take it up again. I couldn't even think of a rudimentary plot. After a few minutes thinking, with a painful interlude of shocks, I finally gave up on the idea and started to write about the previous night, just so I was at least making some headway. So I at least _felt_ as if I was getting closer to the end of my punishment.

I nearly always came home from work an hour or so before you. While waiting for you last night, I started to skim through a bondage novel I'd bought several years ago. I guess I was just bored more than anything else, but the more I read, the more my boredom was replaced by desire. As I grew more and more aroused, I started to fantasise about you dominating me in various ways. I put the book back and started to grope myself, over my clothes at first, then sliding my hand down, inside my plain combat trousers. The next thing I knew, I was lying on top of our bed, fingering myself. That's when I heard you arrive.

I quickly put the rest of my clothes back on and scurried into the bathroom to wash my hands. I guess you must know me pretty well by now, as you seemed to already know the answer before you asked me what I'd been doing. We'd already established that I wouldn't ever keep any sexual thoughts from you, so I told you the truth: I had gotten horny and had started to masturbate. I knew you'd specifically forbidden me from pleasuring myself, but I just got carried away.

You just shrugged. "Well don't let me stop you," you replied.

"I'm sorry?" I asked.

"You heard me."

"Well, the moment's kind of passed now that you're home," I said, looking at the carpet.

"Masturbate, my little slut. That's an order."

I swallowed, the sound amplified in my head. It always amazes me that you can turn me on so quickly by such simple action, such as casually groping my breasts, or in this case, with just a single command. I obediently trotted back into our bedroom and undressed, fully this time. By the time I was sitting naked on our bed, you'd taken off your coat and bag and followed me into the room.

"You realise I'm going to have to punish you for disobeying me, don't you, slave?" you asked.

"Yes, master," I replied, gazing at the floor again. My fear of what the punishment would be was eased by the thrill of submitting to you again. Already my head was spinning with ideas, possibilities, hopes of what you might make me do. Remembering your order, I slid one hand down to my crotch and the other up to my breasts, lying back as I started to finger and grope myself. "Do you want me to masturbate until I orgasm?" I casually asked, as if we were deciding what to watch while having dinner. I immediately wished I'd kept my mouth shut.

"Yes," you replied. I looked up at you, searching your face for any sign that you were teasing, but you looked deadly serious.

"Are you going to tie or gag me?" I asked, hoping you wouldn't consider it an insolent request. We both knew how much that would help me to orgasm.

Your eyebrows scrunched together for a few seconds as you considered the options. It was as if you had become a cold machine, like those devices you tinkered with each weekend. "No," you eventually decided. "But I will permit you to use any gags, restraints and toys on yourself."

I cleared a stack of books from the wooden blanket box and lifted its heavy lid, the hinges creaking. The inside smelt of the varnished wood of the box itself, mixed with the scent of the various rubber items that constituted most of its contents. I rummaged around, examining the various restraints and gags, before settling on the denim straitjacket, the rubber hood with a large hole for the wearer's mouth, and the simple ball gag, sans head harness.

I'd owned the jacket since before we met, and when I was single I'd learnt how to buckle the sleeves together before putting my hands in them and zipping the front up, then fold my arms and slip the buckle behind my head. It wasn't as good as sliding the sleeves through the straps at the sides, as I knew I could escape from it at any time, but it was about as securely tied as I could get by myself. I figured that with the gag and hood as well, it would be enough for me to climax.

I took a deep breath and tried to slide the hood into place around my head. It took a few attempts to get it as far as being tightly wrapped around my forehead. After a while of pinching and dragging it, then trying to pull it away from the parts of my skin and hair that it was moving with itself, my face was completely enveloped. All I could see was darkness, except for the bright light of a few inches of our bed, almost luminous in one eye through the tiny holes for me to breathe through. I adjusted the front of the hood so that the holes were in front of my nostrils properly, although I could still see through them. The smell of rubber was intoxicating, augmented by my decreased senses of hearing and vision.

I picked up the ball gag and surprised myself at how easily I could put it on without looking. The entirety of the hood's hole was soon filled up by my open mouth, my lips wrapped snugly around the rubber gag. I moaned happily.

Next, I tried to pick up the straitjacket but I couldn't feel it lying on the bed anymore. I suddenly felt it on my back and realised that you were going to help tie me after all. You were holding the jacket up so that I could easily put my hands through its sleeves. You then zipped up the front, and I put my arms through the straps at the sides, almost purring with the thought that I wouldn't be able to escape until you took it off for me. I felt you tie the sleeves' buckle behind my back, before fastening the two other buckles that ran between my legs so that I couldn't simply lift the whole thing over my head. Then I couldn't feel your touch anymore, but my outfit was complete.

I couldn't tell where you were. It was strange wondering if you were staring down at me or if you'd left the room completely, getting on with whatever you had planned for the evening. Regardless of if you were there, you'd told me what to do. I had a task to accomplish.

I was high on adrenaline and lust. I briefly squirmed around, letting out quick grunts as I struggled. I tried not to overexert myself because my breathing was slightly hampered by the hood. As I suspected, I couldn't get my hands anywhere near my breasts or crotch. I could just about touch my vulva with my feet, but I wouldn't be able to stimulate myself properly that way. That was all just out of curiosity, though; I had already decided how I was going to make myself climax.

I crawled on my knees until I found a pillow, which I hoped was my one. I managed to grip it between my toes and pull it to where I imagined the middle of the bed was. Then I placed my legs either side of it, still crouched on my knees, and folded it in two so that its middle stuck up in the air.

Suddenly, I felt a sense of humiliation. This was the first time I'd fucked a pillow since I was last single. What would you think of me? Would you lose a bit of respect for me, knowing what a slut I am, or would the idea turn you on? I think you'd always assumed you had a higher sex drive than me, and a more perverted mind. I bet you no longer think that.

I tried to ignore the fact that you were probably watching me, maybe even changing your opinion of me, and lowered my crotch onto the pillow. It felt good. I knew that I'd be able to orgasm from it. I slid my vulva up and down it, rubbing against it. Slowly at first, but gradually building up speed. I started to moan with pleasure. I thrust my crotch into it harder each time, until I could feel the end about to come. It surged through my body as I built up to one last moan, loud and definitive. I stopped moving, then fell onto my back, taking care not to hit my head on anything. I let the feeling of contentment wash over me.

I expected you to take off the straitjacket first, so I could carefully remove the gag and hood. Instead, you unbuckled the ball gag, letting me speak rather than move or see.

"Whew," I said, panting. It was a relief to finally be able to breathe properly again, even more so than it was to talk. "Thank you for letting me do that, master."

"I'm still going to punish you for giving in to your sex drive so easily," you said. "But at least you now have that out of your system properly, so we can spend the night together without it getting in the way."

I moved my head around as I stared through the little hole. I caught a glimpse of my smooth, fresh-shaven legs, then my folded arms. "Are you going to take this off me, master?" I asked, wondering if you had anything else planned.

Already thoughts were rushing into my head, images of you making me give you head, on my knees with your hands around the hood; putting my trousers back on me and leaving me tied up in the jacket for the rest of the night, as we did everyday things like watch TV; maybe even making me sleep in the thing. You'd made me sleep in it twice before, and for the most part I had found it pleasurable, although not exhilarating like I'd hoped it would be.

I hoped you'd make me go down on you. You could take the hood off, put my hair in pigtails and grip them to force my head anywhere you wanted. It always made me feel like such a slut, like someone's possession, to be treated like that. A slavegirl, a sex toy that you could use any way you wanted, with no respect, then discard when you were finished, leaving me unfulfilled. You could even let your dominant friends use me.

The thoughts alone were already beginning to turn me on again, but the reason why I hoped you'd use me wasn't the fact that it would turn me on. It would feel in some way like I'd made up for pleasuring myself without your permission, by pleasuring you in a selfless way. I'd only get off on it psychologically, and without the physical stimulation, that would just leave me unfulfilled and begging for more.

"Master?" I repeated, trying to listen out for your breath to tell if you were even still there.

"Yes, I'm going to take it off you," you said, and unbuckled the jacket. I was almost disappointed, but as long as you liked me being your little slut, I'd let you do whatever you wanted with me. Including everyday things like everyone else does.

A few minutes after I'd stopped typing, the door opened and Mark walked up to me. "Have you finished, my slave?" he asked.

I eagerly nodded and made an enthusiastic muffled noise.

Mark stood next to me and fed some paper into the old word processor before giving it the command to print what I'd written. As it churned out the pages, he glanced at the first few paragraphs. "This looks quite good," he said, skim reading. "Very personal."

I made another muffled sound, with a tone of voice that suggested I was agreeing with him. The printer finished.

"Well, I'd better go and read this," said Mark. "If I like it, then I'll untie you just as soon as the second part of your punishment is finished."

I'd forgotten all about the second part. I still had no idea what it was. I hoped it wouldn't be as bad as the first part, but somehow doubted that I'd be that lucky.

"As you won't be busy writing anything in the meantime, there's no more reason for me to keep the shocks restricted to once every five minutes," he added. I screamed another muffled protest that almost turned into sobbing as he walked up to the small box. "I'll set it to a few shocks every thirty seconds," he informed me.

I tried as hard as I could to escape my bonds and to force the gag out of my mouth. I had to tell him that it would be too much for me. I didn't even care about our roleplaying anymore, this punishment was too much. I squirmed and struggled in my best effort to escape, but he had been too good at tying me, as always. I couldn't even touch anything besides the table and keyboard in front of me, and I couldn't push the gag out or even loosen anything.

"If I was you, my slave, I'd cooperate," said Mark. His tone of voice was still ice cold. I looked up at him and thought for a second, before relaxing my body. There was clearly nothing I could do except wait and hope he'd like my confession - that's essentially what it was - and in the meantime be as obedient as I could to show that I meant what I'd written. He was by far the best dominant I'd ever known, and I hated the thought of losing him. I'd simply ride out the pain, the knowledge of it keeping us close together giving me the energy to persevere.

The dildo gave me several more electric shocks, and I could have sworn they were more intense than before. I tried my best to remain as quiet as possible, only letting out a few painful gasps as a tear began to fall down my face. He ignored me, reading the beginning of what I'd written as he left the room again.

After what seemed like an eternity, but must have been far less time than I'd spent writing, Mark finally returned. He was still carrying the printout. He walked up to the small box and pressed a button, turning it off. I let out a sigh of relief and saw him smile. I could have hugged him if I wasn't tied to the bed.

"I like it," he said, walking up to me so that I had to arch my neck slightly to look at him. "It certainly reveals what a slut you are." He grinned. "It's perfect for the second and final part of your punishment."

I braced myself. I didn't think I could take any more pain, but I couldn't think of anything else that he'd do to me.

"I particularly like how you revealed all of your innermost thoughts," he said. "I never realised how much you enjoyed our games until now. I found your desire of becoming my discarded sex toy quite interesting. I shall treat you as such more often in the future." I felt myself blush; I never meant for him to treat what I'd said as suggestions. It was simply how I felt at the time.

Then his tone of voice changed; it had become more stern. "However, I'm the one who will decide what is and isn't an appropriate way for you to prove your obedience to me. You'll spend more time from now on as my unfulfilled sex slave, as you've suggested, but only in addition to the second part of your punishment."

Here it came.

"Remember the mailing list I'm subscribed to?"

I nodded. I knew the people on that list would have something to do with this. I dreaded to think what idea they had given him. No doubt it would involve an appropriate yet humiliating end to my punishment.

He held up my confession. "Well, I'm going to post this there, unedited."

I screamed loudly.

"It's no use protesting; I'd made up my mind before I tied you up. I asked you to write something that would turn me on, and you certainly have. It's much more personal than I was expecting, much more revealing of how slutty you are, but that just makes it even more appropriate." He looked down at my pleading face. "Don't worry. No one on the list knows our real names. They'll certainly know your innermost thoughts after tonight, though."

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