BindiGirl

Hello.
Common Q&A down the bottom. .....................

My Situation:
I found out I wasn't satisfying husbands sexual needs back early in 2020.
His laptop was on the lounge table and i needed to do online banking. So instead of grabbing my iPad which was in the kitchen, i grabbed his laptop as it was right there.
Done my banking closed the browser. A app at the bottom of the screen caught my eye, i moved the mouse over it and a not shot cut popped up. I could see hyperlinks, Could make out the work Slut, Anal. So now i'm curious and i click...

A list of different websites videos he saved on one long list.
anal, gang bangs, hot wife sharing, bondage, slut fucking, submissive/slave, humiliation/degrading, amateur.
I watched 1 or 2.. closed the laptop. cried, got angry and curious. watched the rest.
I sat there on the sofa, shocked. No wonder he seemed disinterested in sex now days. I closed my trail and felt pissed off for weeks. At him and at myself as i felt i failed. Failed as a wife, a woman.
I looked at this videos over a few weeks again. I realised i failed him.
I done some research reading in how to spice up your sex life. Basically i let society put limits on myself. I watched his porn again. i realised i started to wish i was her on screen. Desired, Made 2 guys cocks hard as rocks and fucked and enjoyed.

By doing this I realised i'm very vanilla but dedicated wife who will do what she can to make my man happy.

fast forward 5 months...

Been learning about my primal needs and desires. After learning what a females primal purpose was, the hardcore porn actually makes sense and understand now why men like to watch it and why women really should maybe embrace some of it.

My husband had limited experience and arranged for me to learn with a instructor (A Dominant)

His wife gives me tips and helps me understand what to expect, act and do.
They cover not just biology studies on my body and a males, but historic findings, human sexual psychology and anatomy.

Not only do I need to learn how to do sex acts physically but also mental conditioning and info pages to learn from.

Few examples are:
10 cocksucking commandments.
Active Submission.
Looks, fashion, lingerie etc
Find myself a pornstar role model.
Changing my attitude.
Never be ashamed on who i am.
Sex equipment, like sex swings, gags, toys etc.

How it's a woman's choice to live this lifestyle.

Anal sex. I just thought it was "stick a cock up your butt" but its much more I found out. So much more enjoyable.

It's made our marriage strong. Im learning more about my husband but also myself. I realised I lived in denial for so long.
Both of us have learned to communicate better. Express better on what our wants are. Plus we get to have fun doing it together.

The Instructor (Dom) was the first guy I have sucked or been fucked by since my marriage started. Felt super conflicting at the start, but it's all fine now. Wasn't the fact of having a new cock in me. It was that im married and my husband was right there. I just didn't want him to look at me differently with shame.

I have been with a number of different men now and its strange to say but I feel more confident in my self. That doubt, negative thinking has basically gone.

If I was asked 15 months ago if I was happy about all this? Hmm no.
Now? Yes very happy. It makes me look forward to whats to come.

Anyone who I have talked to before, thanks for your support.

Most Common Questions asked in chat:
Q: What am I doing here?
A: Curious about sex. My own sexuality, what men want, desires and why they want certain types of sex. Plus I enjoy just talking and learning from like minded people. My Dom and Hubby like to have me edge lots. So if in chat I can be playing with myself.

Q: Do I need an online Dom?
A: No thanks.

Q: Is Bindi your name?
A: Yes Bindi is my actual name.

Q: Is Bindi from India?
A: No. Im a white Australian girl.

Q: Are you related to Bindi Irwin?
A: No.

Q: Do I role play? Unless you see me in the Roleplaying room.
A: Sorry I don't.

Q: Am I Bi Sexual?
A: I don't think so. Depends how much i have drank

Q: Are you brainwashed and do you know you can say no.
A: No, i'm not brainwashed. I have a choice in what I wanted to do about my sex life and relationship.

Q: My Breast size?
A: 36B

Q: Is your cunt shaven?
A: Its hairless shave or wax.

Q: Do I get fucked up my butt?
A: Yes

Q: Do you swallow cum?
A: Yes. Or have it on me.

Q: Will you fly to me and have sex with me?
A: No. Im not an escort. I have a sex life with my husband and a small group of people right now.

Q: Is that you in the profile photo?
A: Yes

Q:Am I married?
A:Yes

Q:Do I have children?
A:No children as yet.