Satinstud

Born in Den Helder town in the Netherlands in 1974, moved to The Hague city in 1987, and resided there ever since. I've been fascinated by all art forms starting at a young age. I considered all forms of expression through practice and settled for painting, sculpting, and DJing. And writing of course. I've written lyrics for some bands and a couple of producers, some of it got published as official song releases, that used to be a thing. It is however far from relevant anymore these days, as like with a lot of things, the weight of things changed.

One thing that didn't however was my passion for writing erotic stories. Especially in the early days, long before the internet was a real thing, instead of it being purely a theoretical thing, I used to elaborate on my sexual fantasies through writing. Acquiring porn was next to impossible for me back then, so I got creative and often wrote down little stories. Usually, they'd consist of not more than a couple of pages in length, and always ending rather abruptly. Cause that was the moment when my pen and cock switched places, and instead of the story, I brought myself to a happy ending.

I explored the concept of sexuality at a very young age, pre-10, with a classmate from primary school. We'd stumbled upon a pile of Playboy's dating from the late 70's to the early 80's in my mother's walk-in closet. We gazed upon all the nudes in there. We did get aroused, but we had no clue as to what to do. On numerous afternoons, we stood side by side looking at the Playboy nudes and each other's tiny hard-ons.

Together with my family, we moved to The Hague city some years later. Initially, I had a very rough time adapting there. I got bullied a lot in school, quite typical for someone who's 'different' as I came to learn later in life. I'd be in ten schools in eight years, but it didn't bring me much else than misery. So I started working, but after two years, I found out it just wasn't all that so I decided to go back to school again. My mother took me for an open day at a tailoring and fashion school. Besides the fact that it was a school with 600 girls and just a handful of guys, I could learn how to make and repair clothes and, more importantly, lingerie!

After that, I went to the Academy of Fine Arts. Around that time I seriously got into mixing records, and the whole DJ thing. At the Academy of Fine Arts was a cafe in the boiler room where I was welcome to play since they had no resident DJ. I learned to play for crowds there, and I also found out that it was my thing. I quit the academy and had a modest career as a DJ.

Living on my own was great. Having moved from place to place I settled for an apartment in the city center of The Hague. I could finally dress up in Lingerie/semi-drag whenever I liked. I liked wearing lingerie underneath my regular clothes a lot back then. It gave me a rush, nobody knew that underneath my jeans I wore a pair of pantyhose, and lycra panties, covering an often-present hard-on.

I lived near the shopping district, and I knew the slow hours of the places, so I could shop for lingerie quite anonymously. I’d often settle for a cami set, cause size doesn't matter much. I love satin cami sets, as did my fictional girlfriend. I returned sometimes to H&M or Hunkemöller a couple of days later to buy a matching garter belt, panties, or slipdress. And of course, I make my own!

At that time I did a lot of drugs too, albeit mostly party drugs, I also had lots of insights into myself, and the human psyche. I developed spiritually, learned about Wicca, and got a shamanic initiation. I still serve physically and mentally as a spiritual guide for many souls. It's a natural obligation. I also became an expert in mind-altering substances at the time, and likewise, I still am.

Meanwhile, I progressed in music. I learned about sound engineering and worked as the sound guy for several bands. That's when I found out most people couldn't write decent song lyrics, so I also started doing that. I had some success with that. After talking to people who did stage design for some of these bands I got into theatre decor design.

After a while, sadly I developed tinnitus. Mixing records I can still do without issues, but my hearing got compromised by a 15.000 Hz tone, that became permanent a year or two later. It got so bad I had to stop being a sound engineer. Shortly after I made my debut as an actor on stage in a play about tinnitus, that project would be a highlight, cause I made the decor, played a part, was DJing, and helped write the piece. That's how I met my wife, she was the director and maker of the piece. We had two children together, a daughter (now 7) and a son (now 10), and after six years of homeschooling, we finally found a good school, where students can learn self-directed, of course with guardrails. I applied at the school for a job as a doorman, and they hired me, which is nice.

This ought to do, I'm out of words