jessie002828

hi im jessie im 20 and im on here because im starting to learn I love bbws and ssbbws but not ones near my age . i had one experience with someone in the last year where she was a 48 yr old ssbbw and, I think allot about what happened with her and me and it makes me cumm so much.so but it’sall really new to me and I don’t understand about why I need to make myself cuu umm about it all the time now but I didn’t know these things got me aching so hard until just lately,so im here to try to learn more about what im going through, I guess this is a good place for that even though,so far, there’snot one to talk to .but maybe if nothing else i might want to write some stories about it maybe,ill see :) i write stories about things that Really happened , i mean doing things with that SSBBW that time and also things i wish could happen and i edge myself allot when im writing them.its not that im trying to be dirty or whatever but i just never was like this before just stroking myself all the time , buti started being like this ever since that ssbbw showed me so much about how hard she could make me Cum and help me edge for a long time when she would have me over to spend the night with her doing things to each other .and,also helping me edge to keep me needing her so bad so that i was doing everything to her she wanted me to do for as long as she wanted until she had orgasms too . But now since that ended with her im left just stroking myself about it and about videos with bbws and ssbbws and writing stories about things happening.its not that i don’t want to meet another bbw or ssbbw and do things for real im actually i feel like i really need to but also i have allot of social anxiety so i dont do going out to try and meet people really and for some reason dating apps aren’t working for me because something about it makes me anxious too. But i like it here where people are here since they like erotica and stuff,i dont know why that makes me feel comfortable maybe cause its a different vibe or sobering i dont know. Also its about meeting another bbw whose like 48 or 43 or whatever, but not my age.do I don’t know how to do this,the ssbbw who i was with and made me understand how excited i get from a bigger woman and how sexy bigger women are who are around her age , that was different cause i already knew her cause she was a friend of my family for a long time anyway and then last year when I was 19 was when she fucked me and made me edge all night and everything like that