Fear of the Future

Look up in the sky, it's astounding.
The sun poking through the slits from behind the clouds to touch your cheeks.

It seems it's about to rain and my heart thumps so loud
that it almost skips a beat, it's pounding.

And I'm counting the days and the nights
full of stars, reminding
me that time is linear and we won't ever be rewinding these moments again.

The thought makes me sad for a bit but then I gaze into your eyes and time seems to stand still.
All I can think at this instant is the weird permutation & combination of the universe that lead my path to yours.

My golden days, my completion, and a reason to come out and experience life with you and your shimmering soul
reflecting its goodness to everything in proximity.

Your semblance cleanses me of my toxicity and malice,
My heart bathed anew is so delicate
in your touch,
Like a blooming flower in the wild.

The white light on your cheek fades to a red,
I so want to stare at the setting sun, beyond the horizon,
But your visage won't let my eyes steer for my heart wants to imprint an effigy in the deepest recesses of my cerebrum
so I can sense you in my neurons on days not fortunate enough as this one.

This twilight tumbles down between us
As if wanting to part us
But let us not have it its way,
for the advent of shimmering stars is not far away.
I hear a nightingale, deep in the forest.
Its tune akin to our affinity.

Why should I ignore these passing moments
for the dread of an encroaching future?
The winding path is the point and not the destination.
It's what I experience with you now that matters and not where we end up in time to come.

The water drop falling from the cloud deep into the mountains will travel unprecedented miles of streams and rivers to finally end up only where it came from.

Evaporation, when its path is blocked, changes into condensation.
The poor tiny drops end up where they were raised from.
My sublime heart won't do the same.
I will not block its path with my fear of the future.

So, I will keep walking this winding path that leads me to you, and even if it won't in time to come, my heart won't be heavy for it will sublimate to our everlasting memories beyond time and space.

Beyond the milky way, beyond reality,
beyond a sense of you and me.
But to that day, I will keep walking the way.