The Final Flight

I was mentally disabled
Physically unable
They said they had a fix
Back then I was only six

Now I'm mentally unstable
And mentally unable
And still they wonder why
Why I tell myself I need to die

They tell me it's normal
I don't think hearing voices in my head is normal
No I'm not skitzo
My mind's just a no zone

It was so easy back then
Now I'm standing on the edge
Waiting for someone to say when
Waiting for it to come to an end

The voices are my faded memories
They're all that remains
They're words drip with malice
They've made me so callus

They tell me to jump
To land with a thump
To paint the ground red
To join the dead

I can't forget what they said
How many lies I've been fed
I need to land on my head
I need to be dead

I was at the summit
Now I've begun to plummet
People are screaming no
But this is my time to go

It's about time that I fell
Cuz I'm mentally unwell
That much anyone can tell
It's time for me to go to Hell

I hit the ground
I made the voices proud
My head isn't so round
My heart will no longer pound

Then I woke up
I should be dead but I'm not
I run a knife across my flesh but it won't cut
Cuz I woke up

I hang myself
And got choked up
And I didn't die
Cuz I woke up

I wasn't dreaming
Cuz that means the past was fake
But I know l was wide awake