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Click hereThe sun rose and warmed my face
I listened to that album, filling this empty space
Tears streaming down my eyes
Knowing you sit there as well and cry
I don't know how I am going to make it through
These thoughts I have of never knowing you
They are the very hardest to conceive
Something I have yet choose to believe
My heart seems broke a million ways
There isn't enough glue for the upcoming days
I stare at my commitment with these watery eyes
I wonder how I am I ever going to continue this lie
Why didn't I put my foot down, to stop this fast
Knowing full well these emotions needed to pass
I want what is best for you, I truly said
Today, looking back, it is those words that I dread
I could make this right, some how, some way,
Fixing problems, that is my forte
This isn't a problem, so it seems
This love, life, happiness, and dreams
I can fix that, yes I can
I don't know how, but I am THAT man
Constantly striving to be the good man you see
Fighting internally with my own selfish plea
If I do right by everyone within my life
It is I who will live this life, filled with strife
I am sure you haven't a clue
How much you mean to me, how this love is true
On this first day, this version of me, anew
Lost, wandering, longing for my muse
My soul feels transparent and paper thin
It happen so quick that I have lost my grin
I am gazed upon with my watery, sorrowed, eyes
My peers look at me with surprise
To see this man wear a frown
It has been 5 long years since I have donned that gown
Not my brightest shinning moment within life it seems
Fulfilling selfish needs while others prayed and dreamed
You were there and held my hand
A time remembered, a time not so grand
I was given the honor, to return this deed
I hope I did it right for you, in your hours of need
The more I think, the more I cry
I just come back to the same thought and wonder why
How do I live my life without you in it.
How do I continue this lie and the subterfuge within it
How can I have tasted something so very true
How can I live thirsting for the depth that is you.