Am I KC or Casey? Ch. 02

"What? Sex with a me? Sex with a black man?"

"Uh, yeah. Both." I quickly recovered, "Sex with you was totally amazing! And you are the first black man I have been with." I lied. Sort of.

...

The next 2 weeks went by in a blur. During the day I would be out shopping and out in public trying to experience everything that I could now that I was a woman. Sometimes it was scary. After I saw a creepy looking guy eyeballing me in a parking garage I bought some pepper spray and signed up for a self defense class.

I knew that this was what I wanted for the rest of my life. I am a reality based person. Vaginal sex after I get reconstructive surgery isn't going to be the same as what I have experienced with Johnathan and Miranda. But that's okay. I also know that transitioning into a woman is expensive with the hormone treatment and the surgery. This will be a lifelong journey for me not an overnight miracle like the doctor performed on me. But that is okay too.

I was jogging in the park when I happened by the playground. A mother was playing with her child. They looked so happy together. Maybe someday a transgender woman will someday be implanted with a uterus and be able to give birth.

Most nights and all weekend long were spent with Johnathan. He and I had quickly become nearly inseparable. Sometimes we would go out to eat sometimes we would stay in.

I am a pretty good cook and Johnathan liked to eat what I prepared. One night I was fixing us some dinner and I sent him out for a bottle of chilled wine to compliment the meal. When he left I was wearing a pair of yoga pants, sneakers, a sports bra and a long tshirt. When he came back, I was wearing 5 inch stilettos, a tiny lace g string, and a silk maids apron. When he saw me he nearly dropped the bottle of wine. The ensuing makeout session nearly caused a burnt dinner. I don't think that he would have complained if it did burn to a crisp.

The sex was always amazing with Johnathan and he never failed to completely satisfy me. I even let him fuck me in the ass. Which he was surprised how much I was into it. Anal sex felt different since I didn't have a prostate but enjoyable all the same. One time, I surprised him at his work wanting to take him to lunch. He was having a bad day and was happy to see me. After we ate, I gave him a blowjob in his car before he had to get back. Later that night he told me that the afternoon was much better. I wonder why. LOL!

We laughed at each others jokes and cried at the same movies. It felt so natural and I was so comfortable snuggling in his arms as we watched tv. Going to sleep wrapped in his arms and waking up next to him was so peaceful and comforting. He asked about my friends and family. It absolutely killed me to lie to him but I was scared and I didn't know how to tell him about my past.

...

Several days before I had to go get changed back I went to talk with Kevin and Miranda how I felt about Johnathan.

Miranda started. "If he really likes you the way you say, then I think you should tell him the truth and give him the opportunity to decide."

"I agree Casey," Kevin continued. "Either you break Johnathans heart when you leave this body and disappear from his life, breaking your heart too. Or you can see if he likes you and will support you through your transition."

"Either way, honey, Kevin and I will be here to support you through your transition."

I broke down in happy tears. "I love you guys!" as I hugged the two of them together. "This is what real friends are about."

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Two days before I had to transition back into KC, Johnathan came over to Kevin and Mirandas for some bbq. After dinner we were all sitting on the back porch enjoying some adult beverages.

Johnathan looked at me, then at Kevin and Miranda. "Thank you again for inviting me here for such a wonderful dinner. It is very nice to finally meet some of Caseys friends," and smiled at me as he squeezed my hand. Then continuing, "Kevin, excellent grill marks on those steaks my man. Absolutely perfect!" "Miranda, you couldn't have been a better host and your home is beautiful."

From Kevin, "So wonderful to meet you too. Casey has told us so much about you and we are happy to see its its all true."

Miranda then to Kevin. "I need to get started cleaning up. Can you help me with the dishes?"

...

"Kevin and Miranda are such a wonderful couple. I would like to do this again."

"Yes they are. They are some great and true friends." Then, after a pause to collect my thoughts. "I need to tell you something Johnathan." I nervously started.

Johnathan took a hold of my hand and asked with concern in his voice. He could see that something was different from my demeanor. "What is it, babe? You can tell me."

"I...umm..." and froze right there. I practiced what I was going to say, but now I was speechless. I was terrified, not knowing how to start.

"You what?" he softly said, gently urging me.

"I...umm...I...I haven't always been a woman. I was born a man."

And looked down afraid to look at him in the eye.

After a moment, Johnathan burst out laughing slapping me on the thigh. "Oh fuck! I love your sense of humor baby!" as he laughed. "No fucking way! You are 100% woman!"

I couldn't help but smile at the compliment. I looked up at him with a dead serious face. "No Johnathan its true," I said with a trembling voice. "3 1/2 weeks ago I was a cisgender male. Penis, testicles, everything. Kevin and his business associates gave me an incredible opportunity to transform into a woman. But it is only temporary. Monday morning the procedure will be reversed and by Tuesday I will be back to having a male body."

Johnathan dropped my hand. "How can you expect me to believe this? Instant transformation? Bullshit!" his voice starting to rise.

"It's true!" I insisted. "I never expected this to happen!" Tears welled up in my eyes as the words and emotions came flooding out of me. "I never expected to fall in love with you. This was just supposed to be a temporary thing to see if I wanted to permanently transition into a female with hormones and surgeries. Now that I have experienced what it feels like to be a woman I am 100% committed. I have an appointment with a doctor next week to start hormone therapy and I will be having all surgeries as soon as possible. I will have male parts again in a couple of days but I am really and truly a woman inside and soon I will be a woman on the outside too."

At this point I was full on crying. The tears were flowing in rivers down my cheeks and my eyes burned from the redness.

"You lied to me? If this is true. Its not. But if it is, the fact is you lied to me and I could never trust you again."

He was visibly angry and on the verge of shouting.

"I am so sorry Johnathan!" I looked up at him pleading. "I swear to you! I will never ever lie to you again!"

Johnathan stood up. "To hell with you! I am no faggot! And it's too dam bad because I was falling in love with you!" Then he put his face directly in front of mine inches away and shouted "FUCK YOU!!"

I reflexively flinched from the aggressiveness. He shouted close enough that I felt bits of spittle hitting my face. I didn't think that he would hit me, but I hadn't seen this side of him before so I just didn't know for sure. Covering my face in a mixture of shame and fear I heard a glass bottle smash on the patio and looked up in time to watch Johnathon point an angry finger at Kevin as he stormed off filled with rage.

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Tuesday morning

A nurses voice, "Doctor, I think that he is coming around." Then to me, "How are you feeling?"

"Tired," I mumbled as I felt down below. "Dammit," I quietly said as I felt a penis.

"Yes," from Dr. Springsteen. "You know we had to reverse the procedure."

"I know," I said glumly.

Then, the doctor spoke to someone else in the room. "Please keep your visit short. He needs his rest."

I turned to see who my visitor was and a weak, but happy smile formed on my face.

"Hi KC" Johnathan said as he sat down in a chair beside my bed.

"Its Casey."

Johnathan gently took a hold of my hand, and with a barely perceptible smile, "Yes. Casey."