Baby Steps Pt. 01

I think that it's fair to say that I wasn't as productive as I usually was that day, my mind kept going back to the night before and in the lift. I so wanted to kiss Ethan again and when he came to see me for a legitimate reason I so wanted him to touch my hand or my head, anywhere, but it was short conversation.

At 16:45 I got an email from Ethan saying just 17:00 car park.

I felt my heart start to beat faster as I walked out of the building and to the car park. Ethan was stood beside his car so I ran up to him and kissed him. A minute or so later the kiss ended and he led me round to my side of the car and opened the door for me.

"Thank you kind sir." I said as I turned, lowered my butt to the seat then swung my legs in.

When Ethan got in and we started driving Ethan said,

"Most girls don't get into a car like that any more Claire, they just put one leg in then their butt then lift the other leg in."

"Oh, but won't they show their knickers to the man who opened the door for them?"

"Not many men open the car door for girls any more Claire."

"Oh, do you want me to get into your car like you just said Ethan?"

"That is up to you Claire, if you want to show me your knickers that's fine with me, and if you want to show me that you aren't wearing any knickers that's also fine with me."

"I could never not wear knickers."

"Baby steps Claire."

As a short period of silence I said,

"Do girls really go to work without any knickers on?"

"Some do, and not only to work. Some girls never wear knickers or a bra, it's no big deal."

"That's not what my mother used to say she said that a girl with no knickers on is a tramp and a slut."

"You are not you mother and times have changed Claire."

"You're right, but I'm so used to wearing my big knickers."

"You wear granny pants Claire, wow."

"Stop it Ethan."

"Tell you what, when we go shopping tomorrow we'll get you some new knickers as well, bras, well maybe, maybe not. You don't need to wear a bra, you only have nice, small tits that look as though they don't need a bra for support."

"No they don't but I couldn't not wear a bra."

"Your mother told you that didn't she?"

I didn't answer Ethan because I was thinking. What he was saying made a lot of sense but. ....... I was quiet for the rest of the journey because I was thinking about what Ethan had said, he was suggesting that I didn't need to wear knickers or a bra. It was only a suggestion and if some of the other girls didn't wear underwear some of the time then maybe I should start doing the same. And even when I did wear them I should at least wear the type that other girls my age wear not the type that my mother wears.

"Jeez," I thought, "I've got a lot of changes to make."

When we got to my building I had a little panic as I thought,

"Ethan will be expecting me to invite him in but my place is so small and I haven't got anything to drink. I bet that his place is much bigger and nicer. Oh what the hell, he's going to see it eventually."

"Ethan," I said, "would you like to come up for a coffee? Sorry but I don't have anything stronger."

"I would love to Claire, and coffee would be great, I'm driving so alcohol is off the menu anyway. Maybe we could go out for a meal later?"

"I could cook something, oh wait, I haven't go much in."

"Cook as well as being beautiful, I've hit the jackpot with you Claire."

"Stop it Ethan, you'll embarrass me."

"You look so cute when you're embarrassed, maybe I should embarrass you some more. Have you got any baked beans and bread Claire?"

"I have."

"So beans on toast will be just fine, I'll take you out for a good meal tomorrow night, that's assuming you will come with me."

"Of course I will, I'd love to go to a nice restaurant with you but I haven't got any nice clothes to wear."

"Claire, as I said before, what you are wearing right now will be fine, or you could just take all you clothes off and come with me naked. No seriously, we'll get you some nice clothes tomorrow."

"Good, thank you, but I could never walk into a restaurant totally naked."

"But you'd like to."

"What?! No, I'd get arrested."

"But you would if you wouldn't get arrested."

"Ethan, stop it, you know that I could never go anywhere without any clothes on."

"Baby steps Claire."

I ignored him because it would never happen.

Normally I walk up the stairs to my third floor apartment but I led Ethan to the lift and as soon as the doors closed I kissed him, another long passionate one and when the doors opened I stuck my foot in the way of it closing and kept the kiss going. Ethan pulled me to him and put his arms round me and grabbed my butt. My stomach pressed on his and I again felt something hard between us.

I'd been thinking about the last time that I felt that hard thing and I realised that it was his cock. Now I'd had all the relevant lessons when I was younger but this was my first, well second, experience of a real cock and it felt so big. My upbringing was telling me to ignore it but my curiosity wanted to see it and touch it.

Ethan pulled me harder to him and I moaned.

The door banging on my foot got annoying so I broke the kiss and took Ethan's hand and led him to my apartment.

"Sorry about the mess, I've never had a visitor before." I said.

"What mess? It looks great to me." Ethan replied.

"Hey Claire, when I first left university I lived in a place smaller than this so I'm quite happy being in this apartment with you."

"Thank you, and I'm happy that you are here. You do realised that you are the first man to be in here, apart from my father when I moved in."

"Then I am honoured."

"It's only an apartment, not a palace. I'll just go to the bathroom then I'll put the beans on, are you sure that beans on toast are okay?"

"Prefect."

"I'll be back in a moment, have a seat, you can put the TV on if you want."

I went to the bathroom and had a pee. Whilst I was sat there I thought,

"What if he wants to have sex with me? Shall I let him? Will he dump me if I won't let him? Judging by what I hear at work all the girls are getting fucked and I haven't even seen one wedding ring. My mother would have kittens if she knew that I was thinking like this and seriously considering letting Ethan fuck me tonight. Oh well, Ethan does say that times are changing and girls should do what they want, and boy do I want Ethan to fuck me. Shall I take my underwear off? Shall I change into just my nightie and say that I was getting comfortable? Will he think that my nightie is hideous? Shall I take everything off and walk back to him totally naked?"

I smiled to myself and chickened out from taking anything off.

"Shut up mother." I said to myself as I pulled my knickers up.

A minute later I opened the bathroom door and there was Ethan.

"Spying on me were you? There's no spyholes in any of the doors."

"No Claire, I would never do that to you but give it a month or so and you will be happy for me to be in there with you whilst you're showering and doing everything else."

"That sounds nice but I'm not that type of girl Ethan."

"Every girl is Claire, it's just that they haven't realised it yet. Lots of couples are naked all the time in their homes."

"I can't see me ever getting to that point."

"Do you want to get to that point Claire, would you like to be naked with me all the time?"

"That's just a fantasy Ethan."

"Is it? Baby steps Claire. So what's behind this door?"

"My bedroom." I replied and opened the door.

"So this is where you play with yourself is it Claire?"

I blushed as I remembered the previous night.

"No, I'm a good catholic girl."

"So are quite a few of the girls at work and I'll bet you anything that you like that they have all masturbated in their bedrooms, most of them on a very regular basis."

"You think so?" I asked.

"I know so, it's human nature."

"Mum always .........."

I stopped myself and Ethan said,

"You will always be your mother's daughter Claire but you are a grown woman now. You have to live YOUR life doing what YOU want to do, not try to relive your mother's life."

"You're right Ethan, and I'm relying on you to help me do that."

"I will Claire, I will, before you know it I'll have you cooking meals for us with you wearing only an apron."

"Yeah right, I'm putting the beans and toast on." I replied and started towards the kitchen area.

I got the things together then Ethan came up behind me and put his arms round my waist, his hands resting on my stomach.

"That's nice." I said as he gently pressed his body to my back and I felt that hard lump against my butt.

As Ethan kissed my neck I wondered what it would be like to have his bare cock pressing against my bare butt.

The microwave beeped and I turned to get the bowl of beans out. Then the toaster popped up the bread. Thirty seconds later Ethan was sat on the second kitchen chair, the one that I had thought would never get used, and we were eating my unimpressive meal.

As we ate I asked Ethan what we were going to do the next day (Saturday) and we planned which shops we were going to visit. When we'd done that and finished eating I looked at Ethan and said,

"I know that I've got to make a lot of changes, both in what I wear and how I think and act but I'm not sure that I can change the way you want me to."

"Claire, it's not how I want you to change, it's how you want to change, and you can Claire, you can become the girl of your dreams and I want to help you get there. You're stronger than you think Claire. Baby steps, maybe we should stop talking about the endgame and just concentrate on the next little step?"

"That sounds good to me Ethan."

"Good, now let's go and sit down and watch some TV."

"Oh, I thought that you'd want to, you know, have sex Ethan."

"I do Claire, I really do, but we are not going to make love until you are ready. You've told me that you are still a virgin and the first time has to be when you want it to be."

"Thank you Ethan, can we just cuddle please?"

"Of course we can, come here."

I sat right next to Ethan and leant on him. His response was to put his arm round my neck, his hand hanging down right in front of my right tit. I both wanted him to put his hand on my tit but at the same time I knew that it would embarrass me.

We talked about all sorts of things ignoring the TV that had some boring program on.

I kept looking down Ethan's front to the bulge in the front of his trousers which wasn't getting any smaller. I kept wondering what his cock looked like and what it would feel like to have it inside me.

After about an hour and Ethan's hand occasionally, accidentally brushing against my tit causing me to get quite aroused, after it happened a few times I said,

"Sorry, Ethan but I have to go to the bathroom."

His arm moved out of the way, I got up and went.

I didn't need a pee I, I just needed to think. I wanted Ethan's hand to touch my tit, hell, I wanted him to fuck me, but it would be so embarrassing taking my clothes off. I realised that I'd finally come to the conclusion that my mother was wrong and that it was okay for me to dress like the other girls at work, and for me to have sex with my boyfriend, but how do I get over the embarrassment of getting and being naked with a man, even if he is my boyfriend.

I decided that Ethan was right, baby steps, but which baby step was next? Ten seconds later the top of my dress was getting unfastened and my bra was coming off before the dress was fastened up again.

It felt very strange not having a bra on but my nipples had gone rock hard, they obviously liked not being covered by a bra. Taking a deep breath I opened the door and walked back to Ethan.

He lifted his arm and we resumed the same position as before. With his right hand so close to my right tit that it was tingling a little. That was something new to me but it felt nice.

After a few minutes of talking about the TV program I shifted my butt a little and Ethan's hand suddenly found that it was holding my tit.

"Sorry Claire, that wasn't intentional."

"That's okay Ethan, leave it there, it feels nice."

Not only did Ethan leave his hand there, he moved it a bit so that he was cupping it from underneath and his thumb was resting on my nipple -- through my dress which was made of thickish cotton. After a short time his thumb started caressing my nipple then he said,

"You wanted me to do this didn't you Claire? That's why you took your bra off isn't it?"

"Yes," I quietly answered. "How did you know that I'd taken my bra off?"

"Your bra would have had to be super thin for me to feel your tit like that and I doubt that you would have worn a bra like that, I'm guessing that your bras are all industrial strength even though you don't even need to wear one."

"Mother said ...... sorry, yes you are right, I'm going to try not wearing one for a while."

"How about all weekend then see what you feel like on Monday morning, but I doubt very much that anyone at work will realise that you are braless."

Ethan held my right tit a bit more firmly, moved his hand up and down a bit then said,

"I was right, nice and firm, you've got tits to be proud of Claire."

"Thank you Ethan but I'm not ready to show them to anyone - yet."

"So you can see yourself getting topless sometime?"

"Well other girls do."

"What about me, are you ready to show them to me yet?"

"I. I, I don't know."

"Do you want me to close my eyes while you take your dress off?"

By then, both my tits were tingling and so was my pussy.

"What a nice feeling." I thought.

"Yes please, would you close your eyes please Ethan, sorry that I'm so shy, I've never been naked in front of any man since I was a baby and I can't remember that. Even my doctors were women."

"That's okay Claire, baby steps, you'll soon be running around here with nothing on."

"I doubt that, but with you I might, are your eyes closed?"

"They are."

I got to my feet and started unfastening the top part of my dress. As my tits got uncovered I unfastened the belt and down to the floor went my dress. Somehow I managed to keep my hands at my sides and I'm sure that my face was bright red and my heart was pounding as I said,

"Okay, you can open your eyes now Ethan."

I looked at Ethan's eyes and saw them go up and down me. He had a big smile on his face as he said,

"My impressions were right Claire, you really are beautiful, you have a body that you should be proud of and be proud to show it to the whole world."

I was still blushing and my heart was still pounding as Ethan continued,

"Will you turn round for me please Claire?"

I did, stopping with my back to him.

"Yes, I just knew it, a cute, small, round butt, Those cheeks will fit nicely in my hands."

"Can I sit down now please, this is so embarrassing."

"Here, sit on my lap Claire."

I backed up and sat down. It felt so weird being nearly naked and feeling Ethan's clothes against my bare skin. Ethan put his left arm round me to support my back and his left hand came to rest below my left tit.

"Relax Claire, I can feel your heart pounding."

"I'm surprised that my face isn't burning you, it's on fire."

Ethan squeezed my body, another strange feeling, then he turned to look at my face and kissed me. This turned into a long, passionate kiss and I started to relax. Then his right hand moved to my right tit and started caressing it causing me to moan through the kiss. My embarrassment was all gone and was replaced by wonderful feelings that I had never experienced before.

When the kiss finally broke I lay back in Ethan's arm and said,

"That was amazing Ethan."

"Look at you Claire, nearly naked in my arms and not a hint of embarrassment or even shyness."

"Stop it, I'll get embarrassed if I think about it."

"Then don't think, just kiss me."

"I will if you keep playing with my tits."

We did and he did and I enjoyed every millisecond of it.

Finally over, we relaxed. Ethan's hand slid off my tit and down to my waist where it touched the top of my large knickers.

"Wow," Ethan said, "these really are granny pants, your mother has a lot to answer for."

I lifted Ethan's hand, put it back on my tit and said,

"I do have a lot of catching up to do don't I?"

"There's no hurry Claire, we'll move at your pace, do new things when you want to do them."

"Thank you Ethan, I love you."

"And I love you too Claire. Maybe I should leave now before I try to do something that you aren't ready for."

"You mean have sex?"

"Yes."

"In spite of my mother always telling me that I every girl should wait until they got married, and I believed that until recently, I now want to have sex with you Ethan."

"It won't be having sex Claire, it will be love making, there is a difference."

"I guess that you are right. You are also right about the other thing, I am not ready, but I'm getting there, besides, we're going to have to think about birth control."

"I have some condoms." Ethan said,

"Good, that's a good start but in spite of the Pope and my mother, I want to have lots of sex and I don't want to get pregnant. I need to go and see a doctor and discuss the options."

"Do you realise that the doctor may want examine you internally?"

"No I didn't. Oh, that will be embarrassing."

"There's no need to be embarrassed about your doctor seeing you naked Claire."

"I guess not."

"Think of the end game, or should I say the games that we will be able to play without you getting pregnant."

"Yeah, you're right, but I haven't got a doctor. I haven't got around to registering with one."

"I'll take you to my doctor before we go shopping in town tomorrow, they have Saturday morning surgeries."

""Thank you Ethan.

"And talking about shopping, we've got to do something about those knickers, they're horrible."

"Yes they are."

Then I surprised myself as I said,

"Do you want me to take them off?"

"Yes please, but only if YOU want to."

"I do but I'm scared."

"Then don't, I can wait until you are ready."

I surprised myself again by saying,

"Will you take them off for me please?"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, quickly please, before I chicken out."

Ethan's right hand left my right tit and slid down to the top of my knickers and started to pull them down. As you can imagine, pulling down some knickers with one hand whilst the victim(?) is sat in them is nearly impossible and after struggling for a minute or so I said,

"Let me go and I'll stand up."

I got to my feet in front of Ethan not feeling too embarrassed, probably because it had been funny watching him struggle, then both his hands went to the sides of my knickers and he slowly lowered them to the floor.

Instinct told me to cover my pussy with my hands but I fought it and I stood there, completely naked, in front of the siting Ethan.

Ethan just stared at me with a big smile on his face.

"Say something Ethan." I finally said, "before I get more embarrassed and run to my bedroom."

Ethan put his hands to mine, and replied,

"Awesome, fabulous, beautiful, sorry, I can't think of any more appropriate adjectives at the moment, I'm just too stunned to think straight."

"Stop it Ethan, you really are trying to embarrass me."

"No I'm not, it's the truth, come here."

Ethan pulled me onto his lap and I again felt that hard bulge, but this time there was less between it and my bare skin. We hugged and kissed for ages with Ethan caressing my tits.

After a few minutes Ethan backed off and said,

"I really do have to go before I do something we both might regret later."

"You don't have to go."

"Yes I do, I don't trust myself."

I was disappointed but I knew what he meant. Then he said,