Crumbling Memories Ch. 04

Chapter 4: Confessions

The drive home is quiet, except for the soft hum of the engine and the occasional flicker of the radio. Tears roll down my cheeks, silent and unseen. Vicky's hand is on my forearm, a gentle reminder of her presence.

"Love," she starts, her voice barely audible over the low hum of the road beneath us. "We're out of milk."

I keep my eyes on the road, blinking back tears, "Yes, we are."

We aren't. We bought two gallons yesterday.

The weight of my guilt is like a boulder, heavy and pressing, making it difficult to breathe. It's there in every moment, an ever-present reminder of my failure. My failure as a lover, as a caretaker, as a submissive.

"We should also think about changing the curtains," Vicky continues, her gaze still locked on the window, oblivious to my inner turmoil. Her voice has that distant tone again, her mind wandering somewhere far away.

"Yes, we should," I agree, even though I love those curtains. They're her favorite color, deep burgundy, and they remind me of the wine we had on our first proper date. But it doesn't matter what I feel or think. Not anymore.

I was blind. The signs were all there, glaring and obvious, but I chose to ignore them. Chose to believe that everything was fine, that our perfect world wasn't crumbling around us. It took her confession four years ago, the heartbreaking words that came tumbling out of her mouth in a hushed whisper for me to finally see the truth.

I'm worthless. I had one job, to take care of her, to support her, and I failed. Failed so miserably that the weight of my failure feels like a physical entity, a shadow that looms over me. Vicky punished me plenty of times, but none of those punishments feel as severe as this self-inflicted torment. No one can punish me enough for this, for my blindness, for my ignorance.

The guilt gnaws at me, tearing at my heart with vicious ferocity. I'm worthless, a failure. It's all my fault, isn't it?

"You're so beautiful," Vicky whispers, her fingers caressing my arm. Her sweet words are a lifeline, a single beacon of light in the overwhelming darkness. But even they can't wash away the guilt, the self-loathing. Because despite everything, I failed. Failed her, failed us.

It's all my fault.

***

In the dimly lit room, I kneel before my Mistress, a swirling maelstrom of anticipation and dread pooling in my belly. The air crackles with tension, a charged atmosphere that stems from the transgression I have committed, an act we both acknowledge but remain silent about.

She stands before me, a figure of authority and dominance, a riding crop held firmly in her hand. A clear symbol of her power and control, the crop promises both pain and pleasure.

"Do you dare to stand before me, you pathetic little worthless slut?" Vicky's voice drips with disapproval and command. "Your stupid actions warrant punishment, and I will deliver it with relentless severity. Your entire existence is nothing but a canvas for my domination and control! On all fours now, ugly leaking whore. Head down, ass up, like the bitch you are! I will strike you ten times."

At her words, I find myself willingly obeying, dropping down to my elbows and raising my ass, the thin fabric of my white panties barely covering my wetness. My shirt is hitched up, exposing my bare back to her, offering her a splendid view of my anticipation-soaked underwear.

She towers over me, so beautiful, so strong, so confident. So tantalizingly unreachable. My desire is a palpable entity in the room, all I want is to press my lips to her sweet pussy, but first, I must endure the equally thrilling punishment. I can feel the shiver of fear and arousal course through my spine.

"Are you going to flaunt your wet panties to me, you dumb whore? Take them off!" she orders.

Glancing back at her, I mutter a quiet, "Yes, Mistress." With trembling fingers, I hook my panties on both sides and begin to pull them down. The fabric clings to my wet fat cunt for a moment before it falls away, leaving me bare to her gaze. My ass, with its virginally soft skin, awaits the strike of her crop, on display for my Mistress to see.

As the cool leather tip of the crop sensually dances over my exposed skin, my body quivers, a shudder of anticipation prickling my skin as the tension crescendos with each tantalizing stroke. The crop weaves a tantalizing journey, the cold leather kissing the insides of my thighs, tracing the curve of my petite, firm breasts, flicking my erect nipples, sending a thrilling wave of pleasure coursing through me.

"Count, little girl," commands my Mistress, her voice carrying an authoritative weight, both stern and loving in equal measures. "And thank me each time, for your education is my duty."

The crop traces an agonizingly slow path over my ass, its route accentuating the mounting anticipation. My nerves sing as she draws it back, and then... WHACK! First, I hear the sound, a crisp smack that echoes in the room, and then a split second later, my ass cheeks sting with an intense heat that adds a new melody to the symphony of sensations within me.

"One. Thank you, Mistress!" I gasp.

The crop strokes me once more, a soothing gesture that somewhat abates the throbbing warmth radiating from my bottom. Still, it's not enough to quell the spasms of aching pleasure and pain. Offering me no respite, Vicky strikes again!

"Two, Mistress. Thank you for punishing your little dirty slut," I choke out.

She expertly wields the crop, deftly alternating between delicate caresses and sharp strikes that have me yearning for more. The crop teases my inner thighs, smacks them lightly, prompting me to spread my legs wider. My wetness glistens, clenching and throbbing in response to its touch...

As the crop trails down my legs, it reaches my heels, then along my foot... WHACK!

"Ah! Three, Mistress!" My heels instinctively curl up from the sudden sting. My fingers dig into the carpet beneath me, my teeth biting into my lower lip.

An abrupt smack - her hand, this time - on my already inflamed ass jolts me out of my reverie. "I said to thank me, didn't I? Only a couple of smacks in and you've already forgotten, you brainless piece of shit?"

"Yes, Mistress. I apologize. Thank you, Mistress. I am just your dim-witted little slave," I mumble as the crop strokes my back and sides.

With a powerful swing, she strikes, grazing my side with a sting that travels from top to bottom. I am unsure whether to count it, but I fear disobeying her command. "Four, Mistress. Thank you for disciplining your slave," I gasp.

Before I can finish my sentence, she swings and lands two forceful smacks on my other cheek, previously untouched by the crop. "Five, Mistress... Ah! Six, Mistress! Thank you for spanking your bitch," I gasp between the searing pulses of pleasure and pain.

The crop, now a devious instrument of my beloved's authority, begins its descent towards my aching center, its leather edge teasingly stroking me, spreading my wetness. As Vicky manipulates the crop, the cool leather tip becomes slick with my arousal. The crop leaves my hot skin for a mere moment only to land with a deliciously sharp sting on my leg, just beneath my pulsating backside.

"Aaah! Mistress, it hurts!" I gasp, my voice a mix of pain and pleasure.

"Count, worthless stinky whore," she commands. Her voice, laced with authority, echoes in my ears, a provocative reminder of my submission.

"Yes, Mistress. Seven. Thank you," I pant out, struggling to gather my scattered thoughts.

Before that strike, I was oblivious to the sensitivity of my thigh, but now, the throbbing heat radiates, consuming the whole of my leg. The instinct to soothe the pulsating pain with my hand arises, but I resist, just like a good little girl should. As the heat begins to dull, my beloved Vicky delivers another searing strike to the same spot.

"Mmmmff... Eight, Mistress," I manage to moan, my thoughts clouded with a lustful haze. My body trembles on the precipice of climax, each smack a catalyst inching me closer to the edge.

Regaining my composure just in time, I manage to thank her properly. "Thank you, Mistress, for spanking me," I breathe out, my voice trembling with anticipation.

The crop resumes its sensual dance on my aching behind. As she draws it back, I hold my breath, my body tense in delicious anticipation of the incoming blow. But instead of the expected sting, her hand lands softly on my inflamed skin, the crop continuing to trace my contours, teasing my senses, playing with my expectations.

My body is a quivering mass of arousal, the tension coil wound tight in my belly. Pleasure radiates from my throbbing slutty leaking slavecunt, the erotic energy rippling through every nerve ending, coursing through my spine, arms, and legs. I'm a good little girl, accepting my punishment because I deserve it, because it's the sweet, painful reminder of my love for Vicky, my darling Mistress. Each spank, each taunt, each teasing stroke only intensifies my yearning for her, a testament to our love steeped in dominance and submission. And with each passing moment, I lose myself further in the erotic dance of pain and pleasure, falling deeper into the abyss of my submission, my love for my Mistress, my Vicky.

"I'm a good little girl," I whisper to myself. Yet, my murmuring is cut short when the crop crashes onto my rear with the fiercest strike yet, stinging my skin with a punishing fire that consumes my every thought.

"Aaah... Nine, Mistress. Thank you for punishing your little slut," I gasp, each word a strained echo of the agonizing pleasure wracking my body.

The crop's cool leather continues to journey over my body, tracing the curve of my spine up to my neck, just brushing my hair. The tension is nearly unbearable, the anticipation of the tenth blow is like an erotic phantom poised to push me into a climactic precipice. The heated core between my trembling thighs is on the edge, craving the final strike to surrender into an orgasmic surrender.

"Stand up, you little piss-drinking pussy-dripping whore." My beloved Vicky's voice jolts me from my thoughts. In confusion, I begin to rise, lifting my knees from the floor.

"No, stay on your knees. Just raise your body, hands behind your back." Her voice, a heady mix of lust and command, leaves me no choice but to comply.

As I lift my hands and body in compliance, a pitiful whimper escapes my lips. B-but my tenth? Where is my tenth spank? Have I done something wrong? My soaked pussy if on fire, pulsating in a rhythm all its own. I need to cum so badly!

"Look at me," Vicky's command reverberates through the room. Slowly, I lift my head, my body trembling with pent-up arousal. The air prickles my hardened nipples, the lingering sting on my heels, thighs, and ass a vivid testament to my obedience.

In this overwhelming moment, Vicky grabs my chin, leans in and kisses me. Her lips on mine, so unexpected after the cruel beauty of her discipline, tips my world over in an instant. In that moment of sudden tenderness following the exquisite sting of pain, all my self-awareness seems to vanish. In the tidal wave of pleasure that washes over me, I forget everything I knew, my age becomes a meaningless number, my name -- just a collection of sounds that no longer describe the woman I am in this very moment. I forget who I am, and it doesn't matter anymore. All that matters is the ecstasy coursing through my veins, all the details of my identity rendered insignificant in the face of the most powerful orgasm of my life.

As I convulse before my beloved, my Mistress, Vicky lands a sharp slap on my face. I sway, almost toppling over, but I manage to stay upright, keeping my hands obediently behind my back. My thoughts are a jumbled mess, my mouth hanging open, a trail of saliva trickling from the corner of my lips, my thick, wet tongue trapped within the confines of my whoreish mouth, resting on my lower lip...

Through the orgasmic fog clouding my senses, I barely make out Vicky's voice, fragments of her words barely reaching me, "...ount, baby. I told you to count."

Gathering the remnants of my willpower, I manage to gasp out, even as the aftershocks of my climax continue to jolt through me, "Ten, Mistress... thank you... thank you... thank you, Mistress."

My words are a whisper, a plea. Every 'thank you' is an acknowledgement of my total submission, it echoes the depth of my love for Vicky, my darling Mistress, my tormentor, my lover. The burning humiliation is as intoxicating as her affection, the throbbing pain as essential as her touch, and every moment of submission just another testament to our unconventional, yet beautiful love. My stupid submissive dirty little pliant docile cunt continues to contract, my body still trembling from the force of my release, a testament to the depth of my submission, my surrender to the ecstasy of humiliation.

Her delicate hands help me to my feet. I look up at her. Vicky is taller than me, but in her towering heels, she has a whole head over me. Her imperious stature merely adds to the allure of her commanding presence.

"Do you crave to be degraded further by my strap-on, slut?" she asks, her voice laced with sardonic amusement. A shiver of anticipation courses through me. Nibbling on my lower lip, my heart fluttering with ecstatic anticipation, I nod vigorously. "Yes, Mistress. Thank you!" I can hardly contain my excitement at the prospect.

Her lips curve into a wicked smile. It's the same smile that has had me fall hopelessly in love, has had me willingly surrender my will to hers. It's a sweet promise of delicious torments yet to come.

Without warning, she grabs a handful of my hair and yanks me towards the bed, my shrieks only seem to spur her on. "Get on all fours!" she orders, releasing my hair to clamber onto the bed. I watch as she strokes her massive black strap-on, its imposing size sends a thrill of fear, of exhilarating anticipation through me.

I clamber onto the bed, arranging myself on all fours in front of her, my hands extended towards her knees, my eyes obediently locked on hers.

"Do you even know where I intend to thrust this cock, you dumb whore?" she growls at me. I'm about to turn around, presenting my stupid cunt and ass to her, but she holds my head in place. A slap echoes in the room as she continues.

"Look at yourself, my filthy little slut." Her words are heavy with desire and dominance, with a love that manifests in cruel dominance and delicious humiliation. "You'll take everything I give you, won't you? Every inch of me, every command, every dirty name."

I nod, my gaze unwavering. The sting of her slap still lingers on my cheek, my body trembles in anticipation, eagerly awaiting her next command. As she moves above me, the tip of her strap-on prodding at my mouth, a grin of pure joy crosses my face.

"Open your filthy mouth," she commands. "Yes, Mistress," I obey, my tongue stretching out, trying to touch the head of her strap-on.

In the next second, she plunges deep into my throat, taking me with relentless force, a surprised gag escaping me. Saliva trails from my lips as I choke around her 'cock', each thrust pushing me further into the realm of submission. Her moans of pleasure coupled with the taste of her strap-on on my tongue only fuel my desire to please her, to be her obedient little slut.

While she relentlessly penetrates my throat, a torrent of humiliating names escape her lips, each word amplifying my arousal and submission.

"You're nothing more than a worthless cum doll," she hisses, her voice a potent mix of cruelty and undeniable passion. "A pathetic little whore, craving for my cock and dominance."

Her words send a rush of perverse pleasure surging through me. With each humiliating name she utters, the heat in my core intensifies, my body reveling in the degradation. I feel used, defiled, objectified, but these feelings only amplify the ecstasy coursing through my veins.

Saliva drips from my chin, running down the strap-on and onto my hands, coating them with the evidence of my submission. But abruptly, she halts.

Her dominion over me doesn't end here. After thoroughly ravishing my mouth, she withdraws her strap-on. I stagger, lightheaded from the lack of control.

With a sigh, she positions herself behind me, ready to claim me fully. Her hands grip my hips, pulling me onto her enormous rubber cock.

Still reeling from the ruthless and commanding way she took my mouth, I flinch when she enters my cunt, barely a third of the way, but with a powerful thrust. The realization hits me like a sledgehammer. I manage to whimper out a "Thank you, Mistress," as she plunges deeper and deeper into me, each thrust a delicious cocktail of pleasure, pain, and humiliation.

"Look at you, just a worthless fucktoy, a slutty cum rag, just there to be used," she growls into my ear. Her voice, thick with arousal, sends shivers down my spine. "A little whore, so desperate for my cock, ready to be filled and fucked."

And the shameful truth is, I crave her words just as much as I crave her cock. The insults, the humiliation -- they serve as sweet, intoxicating nectar. I am her slut, her whore, her cum doll, and I adore every second of it.

Each of her thrusts is punctuated with another insult, another reminder of how completely I belong to her. The perverse thrill of hearing these words from my beloved Vicky is indescribable. Each syllable sends shockwaves of pleasure through my abused body.

"Your cunt is so tight, so wet. You love being a fucktoy, don't you, Lisa?" Her words are both a question and an affirmation. It's undeniable. I love this. I love her. I love the raw, primal dominance that radiates from her, the way she uses me, takes me, owns me. I love being Vicky's dirty little whore, love the way she fills me, and how she makes me feel completely and utterly owned.

She alternates between stern, commanding orders and soft words of praise, whispered in the throes of passion.

"Take it, insatiable whore," her voice, roughened with desire, growls at me. "Feel my power over you, over your body, your desires, your pleasure."

I surrender completely to her, my body quivering with the intensity of our connection. I delight in the raw, primal nature of our coupling, the way each forceful thrust of her hips drives the strap-on deeper into me. Each powerful penetration sends me spiraling further into the abyss of ecstasy, my own pleasure mounting with every rhythmic movement of her body.

As the intensity of the sensations consuming me reaches a fever pitch, she topples the last barriers to my climax with her dirty words, catapulting me into ecstasy.

"Cum for me, obedient little toy! Cum for your Mistress!" Her words echo in my mind, my body responding with a fierce, unyielding obedience. I'm a toy, her toy, and the thought sends waves of pleasure coursing through me.

"Thank you," I gasp, my voice barely a whisper as the pleasure peaks, washing over me in a relentless wave. "Thank you, Mistress! I'm going to... I'm going to cum..."

With a shattering relief, the final tendrils of my strength unravel. My body, still hot with pleasure, slips from her strap-on like a ragdoll.

Each phrase of degradation, each grating insult she whispers into my ear only serves to fuel the burning fire of arousal within me. The raw, primal intensity of her dominance paired with her crude language and demanding tone ignites a deep-seated desire within me. As much as her words sting, they only serve to amplify my pleasure. She is my Mistress, my love, my Vicky, and I revel in every second of our twisted play.

Her love for me isn't masked by her cruelty; rather, it's accentuated by it. The way she dominates and humiliates me, turning me into a whimpering mess of desire and submission, is a testament to the depth of her affection. She loves the control she has over me, just as I love the way she subjugates, dominates, degrades, and humiliates me.