Curious Desire Pt. 02

Alex's underwear had been ripped, the waistband almost cleanly separated from the fabric. He'd hung with his feet well off the ground in obvious pain and humiliation. The thought was honestly traumatic for Jacob to think about.

Jacob could feel his hand throbbing and beginning to swell, the result of throwing a running punch full of momentum that connected with the bully's jaw and knocked him clean out momentarily.

Jacob knew it wasn't a good thing that his hand was swelling, after all it was his throwing hand and he was the starting quarterback. He was being scouted, trying to earn a scholarship. But Jacob would have done the same thing if presented with the same situation again.

Jacob felt a pull towards Alex, as if Alex had his own magnetic force that was solely attracted to Jacob. Jacob wanted to protect Alex, to care for him like he was the younger brother he'd always wanted. He almost felt like he'd failed Alex tonight.

Alex was a shy boy, nobody really knew much about him at school other than that he was bullied relentlessly in middle school. But it was as if Jacob could sense Alex's wounded nature. Now after seeing it for himself, he totally understood why Alex was the way he was and it hurt Jacob.

Jacob could tell that Alex was probably gay. It surprised him that it didn't bother him at all, in fact it made him feel even more protective over the much smaller boy. That was surprising given that he had been surrounded by casual homophobia his entire life in locker rooms and church.

When he pulled in and parked his car, he checked his phone. His girlfriend had texted him, angry that he had canceled their plans. He understood her disappointment but she was always mad at him for something or another. Just because she had reason to be this time didn't change his annoyance with her. He chose not to respond and got out of the car.

"Come on, let's go in," he said kindly to Alex.

Alex had been taking in the house from the outside. He'd never been to such a nice house, having lived with his father in a tiny two bedroom home for most of his life. He suddenly felt self conscious, knowing he had to look like an emotional wreck from crying. He didn't want anyone else to see him.

"Uh Jacob...are your parents home?" he asked tentatively.

"No, my parents have gone to see my sister this weekend. Apparently, she wants to live in the city after graduation and is trying to convince them to buy her a condo. She's such a spoiled brat," said Jacob. He clearly didn't like his sister much.

Jacob didn't really have a problem with his sister personally. He just greatly disliked being the younger sibling. Jacob was an alpha male and as such, he always wanted to have seniority in any relationship. His sister was the kind of girl who would have none of that and she very much so treated Jacob like the little brother.

They got inside and Jacob led Alex up to his bedroom.

"I'm going to change buddy, do you want a pair of basketball shorts or something to change into?" Jacob asked kindly, knowing he'd probably be more comfortable in shorts instead of the jeans and torn underwear he had on. Alex simply nodded.

Jacob grabbed a couple pairs of basketball shorts and tossed one of them to Alex, who was sitting on Jacob's king sized bed. The size of Jacob's room and bed was much larger than Alex's, something that seemed to be a recurring theme between them.

As Alex stood up to ask where the bathroom was so he could change, Jacob surprised him by dropping his pants and underwear right in front of him. Jacob got naked in front of other people all the time in the locker room so he didn't really think twice about it.

At least, he didn't think twice about it until he realized Alex had frozen and was gazing at him, open-mouthed. He was used to that kind of thing too, as even some of his teammates were susceptible to try to sneak looks at him. That always annoyed him, but for some reason, Alex staring at him gave him some sort of satisfaction. He moved slowly and deliberately so as to give Alex a good look.

Jacob was well-endowed and he had a thick bush of pubes above his manhood. It was the only place on his body besides his asscrack that had hair and he never shaved. It wasn't wild, but it was certainly a full bush. His cock dangled 5 inches soft between his legs, hanging even lower than his large ping pong sized testicles.

As Jacob pulled his shorts up over his manmeat (he preferred to go commando), Alex finally came back to his senses and realized he had been ogling at Jacob. He also realized he had an erection, his full 6 inches rock hard and pressing against his jeans. Jacob couldn't help but notice, though he didn't look at it directly. He didn't want to embarrass Alex any worse than he already felt that night.

"You don't have to feel weird, we have to get naked in the lockeroom everyday. But if you're embarrassed, my bathroom is the door on this side," Jacob told Alex, indicating the door on his left.

This was completely true, although popping a boner in the lockerroom was definitely not THAT common. It happened, probably more than anybody noticed, but it was still uncommon.

Jacob thought about what was going on for the first time and began to question his motives and feelings. He was a confident guy but he couldn't help but feel confused. He should have been weirded out by Alex's erection but it honestly flattered him.

Alex decided he'd just turn away from Jacob and change in there. He wasn't sure why, but Jacob made him feel comfortable. Not comfortable enough show him his erection, but comfortable still.

Jacob tried not to look but once Alex had unbuttoned and unzipped his pants and pulled them down, he got a glimpse of Alex's ass through his ripped underwear. Suddenly, he felt a compulsion to pounce on Alex but restrained himself. He did however begin to watch as Alex pulled his ripped underwear off, exposing his full ass for the first time.

Jacob thought it was incredible. It wasn't huge but it had a meaty-ness to it and a nice shape. It was also completely hairless, something he'd never noticed on any of the guys in the locker room. It reminded him of an ex-girlfriend he'd dated the previous year.

Now, Jacob could tell he was semi-erect himself. Before Alex could pull on his shorts, Jacob offered to throw away his ripped underwear. Alex meekly agreed. After disposing of the underwear in the bin in his bathroom, Jacob went downstairs.

Seeing Jacob handle his underwear had been strangely erotic to Alex even though he didn't really do anything with them. The idea came to him to grab Jacob's underwear that was on the floor now.

He grabbed the boxer-briefs and squeezed them in his hands. They were still warm. He raised them to his face and inhaled them. It was exhilarating to Alex, it turned him on immensely. He could smell Jacob's unique scent, a mixture of his sweat, his bodywash and perhaps the slight aroma of urine as well.

Jacob had gone downstairs, partially to go get them drinks but mainly to buy himself time to get his erection to go down. He was sure Alex probably liked him, but he also knew Alex was an incredibly nervous boy. And after the nights events, he thought his boner might scare him. It wasn't a big deal to Jacob, just a part of being a teenager but he wasn't so sure Alex would see it the same way. He might read too much into it, or even worse, feel intimidated by it.

Alex placed the underwear back onto the floor and moved back to sit on the edge of the bed when he heard Jacob start making his way back up the stairs.

"So what do you wanna do? Wanna play some video games? How about Madden?" Jacob asked Alex. There was still tension in the air, no doubt from the intensity of earlier in the night. Alex just said, "sure."

The boys sat side by side, indian-style on the bed as they played. Alex was actually extremely good at Madden and by the time the 4th quarter came around, he was leading 21-14. They had both started to loosen up and have fun. Jacob loved to talk shit, but with Alex, he did so in a much more playful way than he would with his friends.

Alex had the ball and was in scoring position but Jacob forced a 4th down. He surprised Jacob by going for the field goal instead of going for the first down like every other madden player would in his position. Jacob had not ran a special teams field goal unit but the usual defensive package so his team really had no chance to stop it.

"Oh you think you're clever huh? Who kicks a field goal when they are already up a touchdown, you dork?" Jacob asked teasingly as he lightly pushed Alex on the shoulder, making Alex almost topple over.

Alex giggled.

"Someone who wants to win. I dont know if you know this but a desire to win is a trait of intelligent people," Alex jeered.

"Ohhhhh, is that so?" Jacob responded.

He waited until Alex snapped the ball and then pounced on him, covering Alex's eyes so he couldn't see what he was doing. Alex missed the kick, of course.

"Hey, that's cheating!" Alex exclaimed, choking back laughter as he struggled to get out of Jacob's grip.

It was an exercise in futility but Jacob let him go. He enjoyed demonstrating his dominance over other people, especially Alex but, with Alex at least, he didn't want him to feel uncomfortable. It was a needless concern. Alex, in his own mind, had already completely surrendered to Jacob. He couldn't help but to trust him fully, especially after he'd come to his rescue that night.

The boys continued playing but within a couple more game minutes, Alex had scored another touchdown and the game was practically over. After Jacob threw an interception, all Alex had to do was take a knee to run out the clock.

"Aren't you a quarterback? I hope you don't make a habit in real life of throwing interceptions in close games," Alex said jokingly, smiling wide.

He knew he was poking the bear, but he did so hoping Jacob would do something about it. He just liked to feel Jacob's touch, it didn't really matter what he was doing.

"Oh really? Don't get too big for your britches now," Jacob said in an overly southern accent. He was reaching his arms out like he was going to grab Alex and Alex reached out to grab his wrists to try to stop him. Jacob couldn't help but laugh, as if the little guy could stop him if Jacob actually did something.

"I'm sorry, I can't hear you over all this winning!" Alex said, now pushing the crown of his head into Jacob's chest, trying to stop Jacob from being able to move his hands in a way to grab hold of him. It didn't work.

It was as if Jacob flipped a switch on, suddenly demonstrating just how easily he could overpower Alex. He put his hands on Alex's sides and started to tickle him. Alex squirmed and scream-laughed into Jacob's chest but he had no chance of getting away.

"Who's winning now? Huh?" Jacob asked, his voice shaking with suppressed laughter.

"You are Jacob!" Alex choked out between laughs, struggling to breathe.

Suddenly, Alex felt relief as Jacob released him and Alex kind of fell into Jacob. Jacob sat there for a moment, just looking down at the exhausted Alex before un-crossing his legs and laying back. As he laid back, he pulled Alex with him to where Alex was laying on top of him with his head resting on his chest. Alex could feel Jacob's penis pressing into his stomach and it was all he could do to keep from getting an erection again.

Laying there in silence for a couple minutes, Jacob thought about what other people would think if they saw him laying with another boy like this. He knew there was something inherently homosexual about what was going on between he and Alex at this point.

Thinking back to how he'd always wanted something like this with another boy, he'd always associated it as just wanting a little brother instead of the older sister he'd been dealt.

He looked down and watched Alex's head rise and fall with his chest as Jacob breathed in and out. Alex was so innocent, he didn't deserve how he'd been treated by others. Nor did he deserve to have gone through the things he had in his young life. And he was too cute to be so alone...

Jacob actually surprised himself when that thought crossed his mind but he accepted it almost immediately. Of course he'd always been attracted to Alex. He'd always desired a submissive guy friend like Alex. It only made sense that part of what drew him to Alex was physical. His small stature, his cute face...and, after tonight, his beautiful ass.

"Hey Jacob...why did you pick me to be your partner?"

Alex spoke softly but it still made Jacob inhale sharply, as if caught off guard and pulled out of his state of reflection.

"What do you mean?" Jacob asked.

"Everybody wants to be your partner, why pick me?"

"I don't know," Jacob said, thinking for a moment. "I guess...I've always been taught that you can have a hundred sheep but if one goes missing, you leave the 99 to go find the 1. And you always seemed lost...I don't know, that probably makes no sense."

Jacob felt a little stupid for the first time around Alex. He never felt self-conscious like this but all of the sudden, he felt like he'd made a jackass of himself. But before he could beat himself up too much, he felt Alex squeeze him tightly in a half-hug.

"You're such a nice guy, you know? It doesn't really matter why, I'm just thankful you picked me to be honest," said Alex, feeling content. Jacob smiled.

Alex started talking again, about his dad, about being bullied and about life in general. Jacob was caught off guard by how candid he was all of the sudden but Jacob was happy that he was. It meant that Alex was beginning to be himself completely and open up to him. Then Alex started talking about his mother, who'd died when he was just 11.

"She was really pretty you know, a model when she was younger. And she loved to cook for us, she made an amazing manicotti. People always begged for the recipe after they ate it but she never shared it. She just said ask her any time and she'd make it for anyone for any occasion! Dad says he regrets not getting her to write it down for him..." Alex said, still laying on top of Jacob.

Jacob's own mother made a fantastic manicotti, coming from an Italian family. He made a mental note to ask her to make it some time when he had Alex over.

"So many people came to her funeral. She really was amazing, people loved her. Life was different with her, dad didn't drink like he does now and I felt happier. I was definitely more confident in myself, I guess. Maybe after she died, I just didn't have that maternal reassurance anymore. I sure do miss her hugs though," Alex continued.

At this point, Jacob started to sit up some and Alex slid off of him and sat up next to him. Jacob looked into Alex's face, expecting tears but what he got was a small smile staring at him.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that, I can't imagine losing my mom...but at least you'll see her again someday, right?" he asked.

"Yeah...maybe," Alex mumbled, sounding unconvinced.

"What do you mean?" Jacob asked, somewhat confused.

He knew not everybody believed in heaven and hell but for some reason he didn't expect Alex to be one of those people. Having lost his mother, he figured that would be the only thing that could comfort him.

"I choose to not believe in an afterlife. I find comfort in that belief. It means that our experience here on earth, the time we spend with the people we love...means something, means EVERYTHING to us. It means life is more than just some test. Does that mean I'll never see my mom again if that's the case? I still see her in my dreams pretty often...but yes, that's it. Once I die, I will never see her or anyone ever again. But see, she's just as at peace with or without an afterlife. Believing this, it makes me appreciate life so much more, makes me enjoy the good times. Makes me enjoy moments like this..." Alex explained, still looking Jacob in the eye.

Something rose inside of Jacob and kept building as Alex continued to talk. Even though he didn't necessarily agree with him, he was impressed by Alex's maturity and intelligence. It was a thorough answer that caught him off guard and made him look at it from a different perspective. Clearly, Alex had spent alot of time considering the question. Jacob had never really had to give the question any thought, having never really lost someone close to him. In that moment, he saw Alex for how strong he truly was.

By the time Alex finished with speaking, Jacob felt oddly weightless. So this night was turning out to mean alot to both of them, huh? He knew what he wanted to do, it only felt natural.

Alex could see in Jacob's face that something was going on inside his head, but he was unsure what it was. He was worried perhaps the fact that he revealed himself to not be Christian might have displeased Jacob. But suddenly, Jacob did something with his lips, closed his eyes and began to lean down, coming toward Alex. Alex had never experienced it before but he knew what was going to happen next. It seemed to happen in slow motion.

As Jacob's lips found Alex's, Alex saw fireworks and closed his eyes. Jacob was about as experienced in kissing as any 18 year old could be but Alex had never been kissed.

As they kissed, Jacob could tell Alex was moreso trying not to mess it up than he was trying to kiss him back. He lifted a hand up to Alex's chin and stroked it. This made Alex move his lips a little more and the kiss become much more mutual. There was no tongue involved but it definitely wasn't chaste. For a first kiss, it was really intimate and enjoyable for both of them.

After several minutes of a soft but passionate kiss, Jacob pulled away and looked down as Alex kept his eyes closed. Clearly both were a little caught off guard by the intimacy of that moment.

"Um, how about we put a movie on on Netflix?" Jacob asked awkwardly.

"Uh yeah sure," came Alex's tender voice, sounding as if his heart was in his throat and he could barely speak.

Alex had never heard his voice sound so soft, so submissive. Even though he'd known he was gay since middle school, he'd always assumed he'd be a so-called top.

They put on a movie and, though they sat super close to eachother, they didn't cuddle or anything the rest of the night. Jacob's mind was racing. Could he really be into guys like that? Everything was going so fast, he just couldn't be sure of anything at this point.

He could feel Alex looking over at him every few minutes but, even though he felt awful about ignoring it, he just wasn't ready for that kind of conversation. So about an hour into the movie, he closed his eyes and pretended to sleep until he finally really did fall asleep. His dreams were filled with Alex that night, making it that much more confusing for him when he woke up the next day.

He and Alex were supposed to work on their project but Jacob needed some time to process what was going on. Jacob told him that he had a family emergency and needed to take Alex home. They would have to postpone working on the project. He could tell Alex was suspicious and didn't really buy the excuse.

He didn't want to hurt Alex, but he knew it would only hurt him more if he only kept hanging out with him that day to spare his feelings. He couldn't help but be a little distant towards him. He was struggling within himself.

His mind was racing still as he drove Alex home. Did he like Alex as a friend? As a brother? As a lover? Could he accept whatever his feelings were or else, put aside whatever he may feel to do whatever is best for Alex? Man, what had he gotten himself into....