Lisa's Lunacy Ch. 06

Authors Note: Thank you for all that read/commented/voted. Hope I got the symtoms correct for bi-polar depression/personality disorder.

Wandering the neighborhood Ray was hiding in the bushes watching some guys work on the strange hot rods, "You don't have to hide.." Older guy had been noticing the malnourished kid walking the streets during the hot summer. "Have a soda, looks like you need it..."

Soon he was sweeping the floors, cleaning tools, they always had snacks. Quiet kid listened, racing stories, learned all the details about the cars, "No question is stupid.." Waited for them Sunday nights, helped unload the cars after race weekends, soon he had a key so he could make sure the shop was clean when they returned.

Returning from a long weekend they were surprised that he had the old racing go kart running, cot with an old sleeping bag in the corner. "Hey kid we need to talk to your parents.."

Man and the wife that owned the race team and the auto parts store knew the bar his dad managed and the reputation of the mother, cocaine slut. Soon his big sister and his beloved kindergarten teacher were weekend spectaors, Ray repaid them with better grades and no more fighting. Big sister would get the parents to sign waivers when they were too drunk or stoned to know what they were doing.

"Damn kid, third place in the first race..." Worked at the auto parts store, kept winning races and moving up. Then the daughter of the next door neighbors noticed the stud mowing the lawn, couple years older. All the rage in high school dating the hottest senior cheerleader, big sister guiding him past high school social life. Sister Gwen had moved out but still gave my parents money so he had a home. Problems at home getting worse, dad lost his job, mom still seeking a singing career, mostly hanging out at bars having sex for drugs

Everything changed when I turned eighteen, no more parental waivers, graduating high school, Mom offered to suck my cock for a hundred dollars.. Traveling to races across the country. Surprised the oval guys that sporty car guys could drive, started making money, got invited to the big race in Oklahoma. Mom and dad in a low rent apartment at a cheap revamped motel, made quite the team, pimp and a prostitute, spent the money on drugs.

Bless Gwen's heart, shower and a couch to sleep when needed and a warehouse job at the furniture store, night shift. Auto parts store in the daytime, hours in the race shop. Girlfriend's father was very supportive of the hardworking young man, didn't mind Ray spending time with his daughter. Then the cancer struck, government facility was hiding the problems from the employees, "Honey we need to talk..." she showed him a positive pregnancy test.

Sold the race cars, kept both jobs and moved in, paying the bills for his new family. "She was a lying cunt, she could have been my mother..."

Working sixteen or more hours a day, money from the racing equipment paid for the roof over their heads, "Four months, she still had the same alluring body, shared with many," Trouble brewing with his best friend, owner of the parts store, losing that job.

"Sucking her daddy's dick while the mother watched..." Gwen bailed him out of jail, "Both my real mom and dad found overdosed together," Bar fights, best friend bailed him out a couple times, "Mrs Sims my kindergarten teacher miraculously got all the charges dropped, said it was my last chance." One of her 'kids' worked at the DA's office, she passed away over a year ago.

*****

Kiss him before anymore words spoiled his penetration, my vagina racing to restore our connection. Brief interlude while shutting down the television, only light was dim glow from the low power plug in from the bathroom. Feeling our way, on our sides again, getting our arms positioned, his cock an electrical prod, my cunt a capacitor soaking all his power, both of us whirling within an ethereal existence, center of the universe.

"Don't move.." Tremors when his prod sends charged particles at my womb, incessant feed back loop, strong pulse charges my vaginal walls, my cervix surges. Nose to nose, lizard kisses as we recycle each others gasping breath, maybe hypoxia is the cure for our predicament. Timelessly wish I could see his eyes...can't stop my cunt from clenching, his cock fueling the vortex...

Scrape, clunk, clunk, clunk, heavy equipment noises woke us. "Li.." He is stretching for something, "When we went to Nebraska.."

The little velvet box was in the couch cushions, "I do.." he didn't need to open the box, saved him the words. Silently let him slide the diamond solitaire on the correct finger, "I gotta pee.." our traditional wake up kiss felt different. Peek past the curtains we could see the front end loader removing the drifts of snow, real world was calling.

"What day is it?" He knows what day it is, turned on his company phone, plugged in his land line.

"Best Monday ever!" Last night was incomprehensible, still coursing thru my body, both of us sweating digging the cars out. Beloved Alfa was parked at an acquaintance of his that owns the storage/consignment sales business downtown, hundred and fifty dollars a month is well worth it.

"Jump me!" Where did all these woman come from? Fourth one needing his jumper cables.

Nice guy is oozing sex, "Feel the sparks from you.." half of them hitting on me too. We still need to put the bed back to normal, should we sleep at my place? Living with him, would we be naked all the time?

The layers of clothes are chaffing, sex smells leaking, "Let''s get a shower!"

Blondie lives in the building separating Ray's and my place, "I live right there," Door was twenty feet away, she didn't really need any assistance, simply Ray took her keys starting the car. "Thanks for getting me started!" Ray chuckled, "Anything I can do to repay you two?"

Parked his car under one of my carports, retrieved some clothes for his work tomorrow and left over prime rib, "Leave it.." his apartment is a mess. Our lives will never be the same, beef burgundy over noodles. Former bachelor is a fantastic cook! Alex on the national news on the recovery after the storm of the century, Ray's drive is still going to be brutal, couldn't help my self spooning in bed, let the tip slip in for a leisurely slow intercourse.

Friday and we still haven't told Alex, will this change our relationship? Took several days at the office, asking about the ring, smiled and let them gossip. The real problem is my boss, company wants him to retire or resign so I can be promoted into his position, discussed our options. Back to the home office? Position is open in Chicago, New York position will be a demotion, "Ray have you ever thought about living in a different state?"

Rumble under our feet, still haven't cleaned his place, we were going to do that after he gets home from work on Saturday. He is scheduled for the next five weekends punishment for missing work, couldn't get there anyway, why are they mad at him?

Gwen, his sister is inviting us over, has he told her he proposed? Studying a new product manual, his dick is dancing to my piano, love that man. Deep in the pit of my stomach something is reminding me, standing at the edge of a cliff...

"Don't fuck it up.." Gwen noticed with in the first thirty seconds when we arrived, backed him up against the wall. Kids calmed down, they knew that tone of voice. Hugged me so tight, "Did he tell you everything?" She knows most of his secrets, "Did he tell you he broke her nose?" Dipped my chin, her eyes bore into mine. Her thumbs tracing something on my cheeks, "Fuucck..." What did she see?

Burst out in a big smile, "Want some lemonade? Soda with a lime?"

Questions we don't have an answer, "When?" "Big wedding?" Kids are squealing, Ray beat them in the car racing game. Frowned at the few glasses of wine with dinner.

"Anything you need, you can count on me." Gwen is a person who's word is gold, "He loves you more than anything.."

Beautiful as he sleeps, tried reading a book, feel his breath on my breast, his leg over mine, a cuddled baby on my hip. In a couple days he will be playing with the string from my tampon, loves to help me put them in too. Not really a voice in my head, a new spirit that can't speak. Can't stop thinking about Gwen, loving eyes all thru the evening, spoke all night as if she had a secret. Damn that alarm clock!

"What do you think about Chicago?" Friday night we had been talking about visiting Alex again soon.

"We need to find a place so we can move in together, my lease is coming up soon.." Conversation was disorganized, why can't I tell him? "Airports suck in Chicago."

"Your boss is still giving you grief?" Story he told of having a record sales month, left him alone to take care of business while they celebrated in the warehouse, didn't even save him some of the leftovers from the catered breakfast.

"You should quit that place, I make plenty of money.." Spitting mad still, has to work another Saturday, "You could go back to racing cars.." Deflated his dick, hoping he was going to rage fuck my ass. 'Pussy can't get it up!' haven't heard that voice in months, devil bitch on my shoulder. Slap it away! No! No! Get away from me! "I think it was a spider landed on me.." Full of concern he is checking the sheets, under the bed, twice this week I thought someone was following me.

Is it the Hemingway book that has me depressed? Digits on the clock are ticking away, woke him with oral sex the beep matches the spurts coating my taste buds. "Gotta clean my place and do laundry when I get home this afternoon, LOVE YOU!" Maybe I can get some sleep.

"Fuck'em!" Closed the door at noon like the other guys do when they work on Saturday's. Perplexed that I was not at home, found me at his place, it's spotless. Most of his laundry is done too. "Not going to work the extra hours during the week either!" Didn't kiss me before the words burst from his mouth.

"Something happen at work?" Passionate kiss cut my words, "Fuck me.." He's still bristling with anger working the buttons on his jeans, "Fuck me like a whore dog!" Ripping at my crotch the old yoga pants gave way.

Slammed me over the arm of the couch, "Rip me a new one bastard!" Love his grunts, his prick bashing my oversensitive womb, "Dirty fucker." Muffled as my sweat shirt was passing over my head, "Don't stop!" Look over my shoulder, he's panting, cock twitching in mid-air.

Eyes squeezed shut mumbles "Five times forty seven..." regaining control.

Spread my buns, rosebud winking at him, his finger nails digging in my flesh, "I'm your bitch.." Clawing at my own tits put me over the edge, cock stabbing my cunt, "Cum in my ass!" Thumb buried in my butthole loosening, my gurgles when he yanked my hair, fucking me hard and fast. Scalding my guts injecting his sperm, 'It's poison!' "It's love!" Screaming out loud answering the voice in my head, 'Ruined your life..' "Love you more than life,"

"I'm sorry.." Helping me to my feet for a hug, "Don't know what got into me.."

"Loved every bit.." Melting to my knees, pushing his pants to his ankles, "Want more," Slurping the residue, suck his cock deeper so I don't lose it while he kicks his shoes and untangle his trousers. Handsome as the first day I laid eyes on him shedding his jacket, "Martini's in the fridge when you are naked." I've had three.

"Nothing, it's fine.." Won't talk about work.

"Alex is expecting us for thanksgiving, do you get some time off?" Alex was on the silent tv screen.

"Don't want to talk about it." His dick was getting hard again with the images, not now with my questions. Both his nuts, my grip getting tighter, "They want me to be on call for the weekend.."

Office politics, "I either have to quit or move for my career.." Told him about my troubles, 'Break it off! He's not worth your career!' My father is in hospice, tried calling and he won't accept my calls, it that why the voices are back?

"Love you Li," Deep within my core, a glow, bonds that will never be broken. 'Forgive her! She's your blood!' My mother's voice ricocheting thru my brain. 'Forgiveness is in the bible!' "Love you Li.." his fingertips turned my head to face him, "Where are you Li.."

"I'm still hungry." Surprised him when we devoured all the fish tacos we made. "Still horny too!" Kissing the limp flesh, tube steak may be well done after a full afternoon of monkey sex. "Need you to buttfuck.." Almost said the voices out of my head, "Senseless." 'Tell him you need help!' That voice of reason that has finally made herself heard, "Help me..fuck my brains out.." Swallowed him whole, slipped a digit up his rectum, felt his cock grow blocking my airway.

"Crazy fucking bitch!" First heave from my body seeking oxygen, handful of hair ripping my head away. Touched the inner rage, his blue eyes bulging, matching mine.

"Harder!" Crack of his hand on my buttocks, five, eight strikes in quick succession, across his lap using his fist tangled in my scalp smothering my face in the cushions. Love you's and fuck you's muffled, want him to slap my cunt instead of scooping our juices over my asshole.

Jumble of arms and legs, pushed him to the corner so he could have both feet on the floor, "Fucker! Teasing my ass all day!" one foot on the floor, his grip on my ankle turned my back to him, wink my butthole with my foot on the couch next to his hip. Vixen side of my face peering over my shoulder made his cock flush, purple and angry, "Remember what you did to Roadie?" My fist finds the red hot poker, inches away from searing my colon, "Ride the dragon!" Impaled me, grabbing his thigh with both hands hold him deep my orgasm flaring.

Rode his hip, bronco busting, never let my buns leave the saddle, his knee my saddle horn. Lasted a lot longer than the eight seconds, slowed as the adrenaline was absorbed. Raised my hands in victory falling backward crossing his chest, arm around his neck our heads side by side. Rock and roll my hips, cock stirring my front passage behind the thin flesh, mouth open for his kiss, spit on my face! Collecting some saliva to return the aggression when his teeth attacked my nipple, couple slaps of my other breast left me sputtering. "I can take it you cock sucking fairy!" His left leg wrapping over mine, right knee splitting my cunt wide open, slaps produced tremors from my clit to the rest of my body, covered his hand after many blows forcing his fingers in my vagina. Not satisfied until four fingers curl tightly capturing my pubic bone.

Lost control of my legs, spastic feet dancing in the air, my spine has turned to jelly. His jaw clamped on one tit my own hand mauling the other, pain contrasting the waves of pleasure overtaking my reality. "Alex I need youuu!" How could I say that?! Palm covers my mouth, pinch my nostrils, so I won't utter any more insane thoughts, rainbows appearing from the droplets emanating from my groin. Expelling all the air in my lungs with a muffled scream "Raaayy!"

Confusion settles my soul, loudest voice in my head is the manic bitch, does everybody have a dark side? Whiney little girl wants to be a boy, life isn't worth living, sobs turning to wails of despair. Female piano artist cowering in the corner, precision and style hidden in the maelstrom. Woman of intellect dejected, surrendering and sneering at the hordes, condescending. Murmurs of a cocktail party, many conversations blending to a low resonance. The presence of a little boy, can't speak, absorbing, synapses forming at an alarming rate...an eerie feeling.

Pull my hair harder! Ecstasy and agony, cock scrambling my guts, constipation ready to explode. Fist splitting my pubis, steady stream flooding our genitals, my thumb and index finger pinch my nostrils. Intense buzz cancels the jabbering in my head, lightning bolts firing from the prod in my ass, lungs screaming at my digits, my rebellious fingers laughing with impunity. Vision contracting to a small patch of ceiling, blissful as the little death overtakes..

Slaps me again clearing my vision, heart and lungs with a desperate rhythm replenishing my body, tour of the universe cancelled. Magical levitation transports me to our bed of clouds, his smile so wide at my struggles to form the words, 'Love you' on my lips, "Love you more than life Li.." Quivers as nerves reconnect, "we made a mess." His body my pillow, covers insulating us from the world, "wherever you go I'll follow..."

*****

"Some times it happens, they say the pill is ninety nine percent effective." Office mother was so happy that I had chosen to take the position in the Chicago office, our beloved boss was staying. Noticed me in the restroom, unexplained nausea, delivered the home test after her lunch break, unusual that she left the office at lunch. Constant tut-tutting forced me to piss on the stick before she left at the end of the day, end of my world.

Men don't have this problem, my tits are so sensitive, why can't I vomit the vermin out of my belly? If I was born a man my daddy would love me. Feel so powerful with my fake penis, made so many macho men cry, busting their ass. "Think you are tough! A real man! Try having a baby fucker!" Accounting major that Alex brought home is the one that started the rumors in college, his ass bled for a week, he didn't tell that part of the story.

"What's the matter Li?" Second time this week he came over as soon as he got home from work, found me playing piano, he almost never got home before five o'clock. "Work problems.." Cute girl next door has been regulated to my shadow self, strong powerful woman have always ruled men, ask Eve...Fuck men! Fuck men up the ass! Men are stupid!

Dumb bastard hasn't figured out I haven't been to work in a week. Chicago office was a little too arrogant, over a video conference insisted I only wore dresses to the office, preferred braless. Didn't even need my own lawyer, second million dollar settlement from that office. With bonuses and the stock options, over ten mill to hold me over.

Noticed the leasing office ladies wanted the new young girl, cute and naive, to deal with 'Bitch from building fourteen'. Taught those mean girls a lesson, single mother is responsible for coordinating the movers, sold her my regular car for a dollar and other consideration, sworn to secrecy regarding my forwarding address. Spitefully signed over my damage deposit over to the single mother, shrews panties were twisted in a bunch.

Single mother, little head popping out, her cunt must be ruined. Do estretch marks ever go away? Six or eight pounds sliming out between her legs, ultimate pain and pleasure. First suckling of teats, ten little toes, ten little fingers, lungs taking their first breath, crying out into this cruel world. Diapers and rashes, burping up on my shoulder, late nights taking care of his every need. It's a boy, I know it.

Boys have it so easy. When I got to the age of thirteen, the terrible teens, first time of the month, the cramps and menstrual flow. Mother setting me down to have the talk, boys that had one thing on their mind, slinging the sperm that could destroy your life. My dad's magazine he hid in the barn those beautiful woman, glamorous, men drooling over the breasts and pusses. "God Alex I need you!" Did I say that out loud?

Sent a message to Alex, 'Not sure of my schedule but I will be in New York in a few days, can't wait to see you, I have a surprise!'. My appointment at the clinic is tomorrow, they will have a car waiting for me at the airport, why are one way tickets more expensive? Refuse to use that other word, Dilation and curettage, tie my tubes or get a full hysterectomy? Will removal of ovaries end my periods? My lottery winner from the office will be here at four, driving me to the airport in her new car, engagement ring and key on his table when he get's home from work...