Lost and Found Ch. 07

Chapter 7 - Paradise

Daniel stood on the stairs, shrinking cock in his hand as his eyes burned into his mother's. She was still laying on the sofa, hand covering her pussy as she occasionally twitched and moaned as aftershocks continued to wash over her. They had just watched each other cum. There was no running away, no hiding from it. Everything Daniel had worked so hard to avoid had happened. Candy now knew what a disgusting pervert her son was, masturbating over his own mother and cumming all over her staircase. Except, she had moaned his name. Was she as fucked up as he was? He didn't have time to think about that as each second that passed felt like an hour, each terrified to move, like animals caught in the headlights of an oncoming car.

Each human has an in-built system of fight or flight. In this moment, Daniel could either own up to what happened, confront Candy and talk to her like an adult or he could do the opposite, which is exactly what he did. He turned and ran, back up the stairs and into the bedroom, throwing himself under the covers and pulling them over his head. Maybe this was all a dream after all? Maybe he'd wake up any second? As more time passed it became clearer than no matter how much he wished that to be true, it wasn't the case. Maybe Candy would just pretend like nothing happened? But how was he supposed to look his mum in the eye now? How were they ever going to be able to bond as mother and son with this huge, dirty secret hanging between them?

He froze as he heard footsteps ascending the stairs. Candy was coming. He couldn't run. "Fuck, fuck, fuck, FUCK!" Daniel whispered to himself as he waited to hear the bedroom door swing open. Would she kick him out of the house? Disown him forever? Would that be worse than having never met her? His anxiety was through the roof as he forced himself to take deep breaths, trying to calm down. She was at the top of the stairs now. Mere moments away from entering the room, but to Daniels' shock, he heard another door open and close. Based on where the noise came from, Candy had gone into the spare bedroom. Apparently she was a lot like her own child, she couldn't bear to face up to what had happened either.

Daniel spent the next hour tossing and turning, mind racing as he replayed what had happened over and over again in his mind. He was wracked with guilt and shame for what he had done, for not being able to control himself. Maybe he would just leave in the morning and never come back? No, he couldn't do that. He'd waited twenty one years to meet her, he couldn't run away now. One way or another, he was going to have to deal with this. Finally, at around five in the morning, exhaustion overtook him and Daniel fell asleep, but even while deep in slumber, his brain wouldn't let him escape from what he had done. Nightmares about being in the stocks as people pelted him with childhood toys percolated his sleeping mind. His adopted parents refusing to look at him as he was sentenced to life in what the judge described as "pervert jail." A bird pecking him in the face over and over. A never ending spiral staircase to his cell. Loneliness and despair.

Daniel woke up in a cold sweat, his nightmare still feeling oh so real as he blinked his eyes open. For a couple of minutes, the images conjured by his mind had driven out the very real images he had seen just a couple of hours earlier. Finally his memories returned. Candy lying on the sofa, fingers delving into the folds of her pussy and moaning. Him stroking himself from the stairs. Staring into each other's eyes as they both came. Him fleeing to the safety of the bedroom. Now he remembered it all.

Before he could even think he was out of bed, pulling on his clothes and heading for the door. He needed to get out of here. He was relieved to find Candy was nowhere to be seen and after pulling on his shoes, he grabbed Steve's old key from the hook, opened the front door and started walking. He didn't know where he was going, he didn't know what he was thinking, he just knew he needed to move.

After several minutes he found himself outside of a small park, the outskirts of which were lined with numerous trees, providing shade from the early morning sunshine. He decided to walk inside, following a long tarmac path between flowerbeds until he came to an open area, with the path circling around a large grassy area. There were a few people already there, a couple of middle aged women running laps of the looped path and some parents with their children. Daniel took a seat on a park bench, exhaling heavily, as if he had been holding his breath ever since he remembered the event of the previous night. As he looked around, his focus settled on a young mother and her son. The little boy must have only been about five and was kicking a football around the grass and laughing as his mum chased after him, feigning as if she was trying to get the ball and unable to do so. He couldn't help but think that this might be what he and Candy would have been like if she hadn't abandoned him all those years ago.

Tears suddenly welled up in his eyes and before he knew it he was sobbing, tears running down his cheeks as he sat in the warm morning air, staring down at the floor.

"Are you ok?" asked an unfamiliar voice. Daniel looked up and saw it was the lady that had been playing with her son, a look of concern written on her face. It made sense, a young man crying on a park bench is hardly an ordinary occurrence.

"I... I'm not sure." Daniel replied, wiping the tears from his eyes as he did his best to compose himself in front of this stranger. She sat down on the bench next to him, keeping one eye on her son as she spoke.

"What's your name?"

"D... Daniel."

"I don't want to pry Daniel, it's not really any of my business, but whatever's going on with you, you'll be ok." She looked over at him, smiling warmly. "I know I'm a stranger, but I know a lot about bad times. My brother had a lot of them."

"Your brother?"

"Yeah, he's about your age, probably why I came over to talk with you actually, you kinda look like him." She glanced over to her son again, who was dribbling the ball closer to the tarmac path. "Stay on the grass sweetie!" she shouted to him before continuing. "He dealt with depression for a long time. The one thing I always told him is that whatever's going on, you need to find someone you can talk to. Someone you can be honest with. Do you have someone like that Daniel?"

Daniel smiled in response. "Yeah... yeah I do."

"Ok, good." The kind lady replied. "I need to get back to my son, take care of yourself Daniel, ok?"

"I will," Daniel replied, "Thanks for the advice." He watched the lady walk back over to her son, sweeping him up in her arms and spinning him round. Daniel smiled as he pictured Candy in his mind's eye. He got up from the bench and started walking back towards the park exit. He knew what he needed to do now. He needed to get back to his room at the hotel and he needed to talk to Louise.

He made the walk over to the pub, heading up to his room and sitting on the bed, pulling out his phone as he looked at his open suitcase. It was hard to believe how much had happened since he had last been here and he took a moment to reflect and compose himself. Could he really tell Louise? He rubbed his thighs anxiously. There probably wasn't anyone else in the world he was closer to, it definitely wasn't something he could tell his adopted parents. She had always been so supportive, sympathetic, and non-judgemental in the past, there was no reason to think she wouldn't be now.

Daniel took a deep breath and called. The phone rang and rang and rang, before going to voicemail. "Fuck," Daniel whispered to himself as he ended the call. What was he going to do now? Thankfully he didn't have to think for long as his phone started ringing, Louise was calling him back.

"H...hey," Daniel said, answering the phone, voice wavering. Instantly Louise knew something was wrong.

"Hey, what's wrong honey?" she asked sympathetically, genuine concern in her voice. "Do you need to come home?"

"I don't know," Daniel replied sullenly. He spent the next few minutes telling Louise about what had happened the morning before. The tense breakfast, knocking out Steve and dragging him from the house and Candy's experiences with him that had brought her to that point.

"Oh god, that's so awful. I'm not surprised that it shook you up, but she's safe now right?"

"Yeah, she is, but... there's more."

He proceeded to tell his roommate about sharing a bed with his mum, waking up with his boner pressed against her and masturbating in her bathroom. He told her about the water fight, about staring at her soaked chest and sitting next to her on the sofa in only a towel. About the glances exchanged between them and the tension in the air, he told her how he thought she had looked at him changing in the kitchen.

"Wow... ok." Was all Louise could muster in response.

"I'm so confused," Daniel admitted, "and last night, it went even further." Louise listened in silence, allowing Daniel to speak. "I woke up and she wasn't in bed. I went to find her. She was masturbating on the sofa, with her eyes closed. I got hard and... and... I started masturbating too."

"Holy shit..." Louise muttered, but Daniel just kept going. Now that he had started unburdening his soul, he needed to get this finished.

"Right before we both came, she moaned my name. She opened her eyes and she saw me. We saw each other... cum. I ran back to bed and she slept in the spare room. I haven't spoken to her since it happened. I think I might have fucked this all up Louise." The line was quiet for a moment. "Are you still there?" Daniel asked.

"Yeah, sorry, just, that's a lot to take in." Louise replied in a hushed voice. There was silence for a few seconds before she spoke again. "How did she look?"

"What?" Daniel asked, confused by the question.

"How did she look? When she realized you were watching her? Shocked? Disgusted? Happy?"

"I don't know, I mean, surprised at first, but she didn't look away. She just kept staring into my eyes."

"Did she try to cover herself up? Or stop you from looking?"

"No, no she didn't." Daniel replied as realization slowly crept over him.

"Listen Daniel, from everything you've said, I think she's just as interested in you as you are in her. But you need to be careful and you need to talk to her, really talk to her. You went to her for answers and if you don't face this, you're never going to get those answers." Louise's voice was calm and rational and Daniel took them to heart.

"Yeah, you're right, thanks Louise." He paused for a second. "I guess I should go talk to her, she's probably worried about where I am."

"Yeah, you should. Call me later if you need me ok?"

Daniel and Louise said their goodbyes and with a new perspective, he started packing up his things. Once his case and backpack were ready to go, he headed downstairs and settled his bill with the landlord. They exchanged a warm handshake and Daniel was on his way. As he walked back to his mum's house, suitcase trundling along behind him, he pictured what would happen in his mind. He didn't know how it would play out, but he needed to do this. For himself and for Candy. He once again stood outside that familiar door and taking a deep breath, he pushed the spare key into the lock, swinging the door open and stepping inside.

Candy was in the middle of the living room, hoover in hand as she vacuumed the carpet. The noise from the domestic appliance meant that she didn't hear Daniel enter and he took a moment to look at her. She was wearing a pink top which she had tied up to show off her midriff and a pair of small denim shorts that only covered just below her ass, showing off her curves beautifully. Her hair was tied in a tight, messy bun so she could keep it out of her eyes as she worked. As she turned her body towards him, he could see that the top had a plunging neckline, showing off ample amounts of cleavage, making him think back to the day before when he had laid on top of her wet body. From looking at her, it seemed like she had made an effort to dress provocatively and he couldn't help wondering if it was because of what had happened last night.

Finally she turned and noticed Daniel standing near the door. She jumped slightly before relief washed over her face. The hoover was discarded and it toppled to the ground as she rushed across the room, wrapping him in her arms and covering his cheek in kisses. "I was so worried!" She exclaimed as she hugged him tightly, "don't disappear on me like that!"

Before he could think, Daniel replied, saying, "I guess I learnt that trick from you."

Candy pulled back, looking a little upset, before taking it in stride. "I guess I deserve that. I think we need to talk."

"Yeah, we do." Daniel replied nervously. Candy took Daniel by the hand and led him over to the sofa. The very same sofa he had watched her masturbate on last night. They sat down next to each other and it was clear that neither of them knew where to start. Finally, Daniel spoke up. "Candy?" he asked, taking his Mum's hand. "Why did you do it? Why did you abandon me? Didn't you love me? Didn't you want me?" He started to well up, but used every ounce of strength he had to hold back the tears that threatened to come. He had waited so long for this, he needed to hear the answer. He looked at his Mum, whose face was covered with regret and anguish, she took a second to compose herself before replying.

"I was very young. I met a boy. I ended up pregnant. He didn't want me to keep the baby. To keep you." She reached out, taking Daniel's hand in hers. "We argued about it and he dumped me. I was devastated. He was the first boy I ever loved and I felt lost without him. My parents refused to help me, they were ashamed of me, they said that I'd brought it on myself. I decided to keep you, but after a few months I was lonely and had no money, no support. He came back to me. He said we could be together again..."

Candy sobbed gently, scrunching up her eyes. "I regret it so much. I have done every day since I left that hospital." She looked into Daniel's eyes earnestly and he knew she was telling the truth.

"He said that he would support me until you were born, but that we had to leave, leave you, behind." Candy pulled Daniel close, wrapping her arm around his back and resting her head on his shoulder.

"I was young and stupid. Leaving you in that hospital was the worst thing I ever did. I moved away with him, away from my parents, away from everyone. I didn't know at the time, but he was already using drugs, hard drugs. When we moved, it got worse and worse, to the point he would do anything for his next fix." Candy trembled gently as she spoke." Eventually, he tried offering me to his dealer, as payment."

Daniel scowled in anger, balling up his fists. Candy felt his body tense and started to rub his back soothingly. "That was when I left for good. I realized he didn't care about me, just the drugs. He wasn't the person I once loved. Once I got settled in my own place, I tried looking for you, but by the time I found you, the adoption process was complete. You'd already been through enough and I didn't want to tear you away from people that wanted you. I hated myself y'know. I had discarded you, I didn't feel worthy of being a mother, of being your mother and so I did my best to forget about you, but I never could." Candy tried to keep talking, but words failed her, instead pulling Daniel to her chest and cradling his head in her arms as she gently kissed him on the head. They stayed like that for a couple of minutes, just enjoying the closeness and security of each other's embrace. "I'm so sorry Daniel." Candy said, voice faltering and quivering with emotion, tears starting to form.

Daniel pulled himself from her motherly breast, bringing his face in line with hers, mother and son staring deep into each other's baby blue eyes. "It's ok Mum, I forgive you, it was a long time ago and I'm just glad you're in my life now," Daniel said. His words caused Candy's tears to finally fall as she pulled her baby boy into her arms, squeezing him as hard as she could, as if she never wanted to let go.

After the tears had stopped, Candy released her embrace, dabbing at her eyes with a tissue before a serious look came over her. "That isn't all we need to talk about though son, we need to talk about last night too." A shiver went down Daniels spine, he'd totally forgotten about what had happened during the emotion of the moment, but now the anxiety was back and it was back with a vengeance. "We're both adults and I think it's clear that you're into me sexually. I've spent so much of my life making other people happy and doing what I'm told. Never taking a chance, a leap of faith. No more. From now on, I'm taking what I want, and right now, I want you"

Candy got up from the sofa, standing in front of her son. Her tears were gone and she looked powerful and confident as she stood before him, in a way that Daniel had never seen before. "You've treated me so well, better than any man ever has before." She got on her knees, pushing apart Daniel's legs and running her hands sensually along his thighs, closer to his crotch. "I won't lie, I'm into you too Daniel, more than a mother should be into her son" her hand completed its journey and met Daniel's member through his jeans and she started to rub him slowly, causing him to swell. Daniel went to speak, but Candy pressed her finger against his lips, gently shushing him. "I want to show you how much I appreciate you son, all you have to do is tell me to stop," Candy lent down and started covering the bulge in Daniel's pants with kisses, "and I'll stop." She looked up at him, waiting to see if he would stop her, but he didn't. She squeezed his shaft, smiling up at him with a naughty grin and Daniel left out a soft moan of approval.

Her lithe fingers moved to Daniel's belt buckle, unfastening it hurriedly as she raised herself up on her knees, leaning towards Daniel and planting a soft kiss on his lips. Daniel's body initially tensed, his heart leaping into his throat as a shiver ran over him, finally relaxing into the softness and warmth of his mother, starting to kiss her back. As they kissed Candy's hands undid the button of his jeans and started to slowly pull down his zipper as they each got familiar with the other's taste. The arousal in Daniel was starting to build and he parted his lips, welcoming Candy's tongue into his hungry mouth, the two of them exploring each other for the first time. Candys eyes fluttered and she moaned softly against him as she melted against her son's strong frame, forgetting about his hard cock for a few seconds, lost in the lust and excitement of the moment.

When their lips parted, they were each short of breath, staring deep into each other's eyes, foreheads pressed together. The power of the moment was overwhelming as they each breathed in sync, hearts pounding in their respective chests. They had both wanted this, but now that the moment was finally here, it was hard to believe. "Last chance," Candy whispered sensually as her hand slid inside the band of Daniel's boxers, "are you sure you want this?"

"Please..." Daniel moaned softly, eyes flicking between Candy's face and her hand, squirming in his seat as he waited impatiently to feel her soft skin against his throbbing member for the first time. Candys hand started to slowly slide inside of the small cotton undergarments separating her from her son's sex. She smiled at Daniel, lust and arousal in her eyes, enjoying the power she felt as she saw the neediness etched across his face. This couldn't be any more different from when she was with Steve, she felt in control, confident and safe and she loved being able to tease Daniel so exquisitely. Her digits slid down his pelvis, enjoying the warmth of his skin, feeling him tremble gently under her touch, listening to every soft inhale of breath as she got closer and closer. Finally her fingertips met the base of his shaft, Daniel letting out a long, low moan of satisfaction as Candy wrapped herself around him, using her other hand to pull him free of his boxers.