by OceanviewFtLaud
Great that you have thought so carefully about the feelings and events relating to sexuality in your life. In my view, we are simply sexual beings with a capacity for pleasure, sensuality and, unfortunately, guilt brought on by peer pressure and a
desire for acceptance into society as we perceive it. In reality, the so-called norms we believe in exist largely in our minds.
I have enjoyed sex with men and women but have only one preference, to be truly loved and accepted by my partner. Currently, I am in a relationship with a woman who knows I enjoy sex with men and has indicated she is okay with it, though she does not want me to have sex with other women. I haven't strayed because she has my full attention and I love her more than I have loved anyone in my life. But it could have happened with a man.
Recreational sex is lovely but can't compare with true love! Best to you and be careful.
I really enjoyed reading about what you were going through in your mind back then. I also went through a lot of thinking about sex with other boys and men when I was younger. My closest I came to have sex was with a friend while we were camping. He told me about him and a couple of out other friends sucking each other's cocks. I tried to talk me into it and I finally agreed to just take it in my mouth just to see what it was like. He took my cock into his mouth first and I was so nervous and scared that I didn't get hard. Then it was my turn and I had to take his cock into my mouth. I was scared and didn't want anyone to think I was queer which is what everyone called gays. His cock was about twice as big as mine and it was hard. I liked the way it felt in my mouth and wish I had sucked his cock that day, but I chickened out and just said I didn't like doing it so we stopped. I have thought of that day many times over the years and wondered how things might have changed if I had sucked his cock that day. Would I have become his cocksucker on a regular basis. I finally got the nerve to suck by first cock when I was 62 during a threesome with a couple. I loved it and have sucked a few more since then. I would suck a lot more if I could find them without my family and friends finding out. I really did enjoy your story and the feelings and memories it triggered in my mind.
hey1 WOW you describe extremely well a miss moment if one of you had just the courage to have done one small move , i'm pretty sure you would have discover extremely fast the joy of kissing , sucking and ass fucking in a moment when your whole body is at is peek of desperately wanting sex, becoming a very eager learner with that big man , still it is never to late for sensual slow dirty sex with all your favorite partners , with LOVE and LUST the best combination