My Naked Soul

Dear Sweet Readers:

How did I become a prisoner to someone else's fears and jealousy? Gradually over time is the simple answer, it becomes normal to be berated, beaten, to feel worthless, I even came to like/crave the pain. How a successful, smart, strong, beautiful woman like myself became a meek, scared, abused woman may be the more important question to ask. Mistaking abuse for love, tenderness, losing my own identity, but that's not the interesting part of the story, the real story begins when I crawled up, fond strength, survived, that's when I found out who really loved me and who just loved the idea they had of me.

Surviving, finding comfort in others who've been through similar experiences, learning to trust again, growing as a person. I hoped when I started writing here that my stories would convey my struggle, my rebirth, my confusion, my emotions. If even just one woman would read my stories and know she's not alone, that defines success to me, I found pleasure exploring my inner thoughts, feelings, fantasies, so if you don't understand me by now, the rawness, un-edited me, you never will.

I'm not here to be perfect, a good author, what I write, the way I write it, I'm giving you my soul spilled out before you. Read don't read, like don't like, I can't change who I am and if that threatens your idea of yourself that is your problem. I'm secure and happy with the woman I've become, I have nothing but love to share, giving my all in everything I choose to do or everyone I choose to do.

Ann asked if I was upset, her words could never cause me pain, after all the shit I've been through, I've felt the pain, real pain of abuse. Sometimes I feel better when I'm drinking, the wounds don't seem to cut as deep, sad, lonely, no when I lay down by myself I just masturbate. My beautiful body in the mirror writhing in pleasure, my cute toes curling, bouncing, bucking, loving myself.

I don't want to miss a thing, a moment, I lay awake just to watch her breath, new loves, new life, being the person I always dreamed I could be. I truly, sincerely, thank those who have reached out after being touched by my stories, you are my rock, my foundation, the reason I keep writing. Emily came to me quite by surprise a friend, a lover, a mentor, someone I respect - who respect me, we know the pain and the long road back. Exploring a new life, a new way, so if you don't understand me, that's fine, I do it for me.

I still remember the that March day, me in your robe, you said it looked better on me than it did you. Only wish you knew how much I liked you, but I watched your eyes, Why would you ever kiss me? A gorgeous ashy blonde with those beautiful green eyes in those tight shorts. My Sweet Lisa.

Why would you ever want me? I'm not even half as pretty, For better or worse, I'll always love my neighbor Lisa. Sitting here your cute feet in my lap painting those beautiful toes. Wanting to suck them, savoir them, worshiping you. Lisa if you only knew what I wanted to do. Bury my face in your sweet goo.

Blowing on your nails, so close, to those cute feet. Panties getting wet, waiting for a sign, feeling the growing heat. Hoping you like what you see, please, please touch me. When your fingers found my face, I was ecstatic, like being shot in to outer space. Looking up into those beautiful eyes, seeing what I hope to find that hidden desire, same as mine.

Kissing those lips sent shivers up my spine. Your hand on my breast, is this a dream or are you mine. Pushing it farther, touching my wetness, light as a feather. Fingers moving inside me, thrusting, moaning for more. Did you always know the score? Bucking my hips fucking your hand, kissing. tongues dancing, this had always the plan.

I remember that March day we became lovers, you gave me orgasms like no other, Lisa my lover. Come with me now as we push those limits, to explore, for our mutual pleasure. Passion and pain as I scream your name, licking your ass, loving the taste, feeling no shame. Giving up control, following commands, I am your slut to tame.

Your beautiful pussy inches from my face. using my tongue down your wet lips, picking up the pace. plunging inside leaving no trace, you and I are like leather and lace. Shaking in pleasure, knocking over the vase.

Panting those beautiful toes silently worshiping my neighbor Lisa. Kissing her neck, moaning, sighing, making beautiful music together. Tickling her feet with a white feather, her love makes my world better, oh Lisa my lover.

Blowing on her nails, so close, to those cute feet. Panties getting wet, waiting for a sign, feeling the growing heat. Hoping you like what you see, please, please touch me. When your fingers found my face, I was ecstatic, like being shot in to outer space. Looking up into those beautiful green eyes, seeing what I hope to find that hidden desire same as mine.

Playfully kicking me, giggling, sharing a tender moment. Opportunity, climbing up on top, tickling, she wiggles under me laughing hysterically. Our faces so close, lips meeting, I'm kissing my neighbor Lisa, tongues dancing in each others mouths. In that second, taking that leap, laying arms around each other, no turning back now. I loved her for so long all that pent up desire just pouring out. My hand finding her sweet pussy rubbing ever so gently, slipping in my fingers, moans escaping from her mouth. "Cheryle, what are you doing, ohhh please don't stop"

Rock my naked gypsy soul, just like way back in the days of old, magnificently we will float, till the fog horn blows. We were born younger then the sun, finding my beautiful one, has we sail into the darkness on the unknown.

Love me, use me, Never let me go. Quench this unbearable thirst, this fire in my soul. Give me orders I need your control, something to fill this massive hole. How did you find me, how did you know. I saw you in the front row, just Laying back watching the show. I am here naked going with the flow.

I can be dominant or submissive, depending on how I feel in that moment. Which doesn't mean I necessarily like to be dominant as often as I'm submissive. I spend most of my sex life being neither of those things. All it means is that sometimes I do like to take a dominant role and sometimes I like to take a submissive one. I can also be tender, sweet. loving or I can be a moody bitch. I've found I'm many different things a lover, a daughter, a lawyer, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a musician, victims advocate, a mentor but none of those things define me. I define me every day by being loving and caring, thoughtful and helpful, each day I am reborn anew with hope.

Use me, hate me, ravage me, destroy me, as long as in the end you make me come alive. For your approval I will always strive, spank my butt, slap my tits, anything to please. Grab my neck, hold me down, pull my hair, only my screams and moans will be in the air. I need it, I want it, I have no fear, please don't mind my tears.

Stroke me, pluck me, play me like a guitar string, tighten me up, slap my face, so I scream your name. I want to feel passion, I need to feel pain, you know I have no shame. Lick me, tempt me, push me, pull me, throw me to the bed, ride my face, make me sing. I want to pass your test, I want to get my wings.

Hold me down, shatter me, make me taste your dirty ass, pew. Pick me apart, to rebuild me, I only want to please you, on my knees, waiting to serve, needing your love too, you've awaken something inside me one of the few. Giving you all my secret clues, singing songs of lost and lost, the lonely blues.

You found me beaten, empty, useless, now fixed, filled full in your love. Oh, please bite my nipples, I long for your nibbles, may I kiss your feet, suck your sweet toes. The pleasures you have helped me know.

Please don't leave me I promise to obey. Hold me strong, till the crying stops, so my pieces don't stray, knowing my punishment, oh how I'll pay. Here in you arms forever I will stay. Bodies entangled, caressing my face, giving soft kisses, here's where we lay. Watching the sunrise over the bay.

I love the world today.

Love, Cheryle