My Voyage of Submission Ch. 19

"The same with the others who've become my submissives since. I now consider them permanent additions to my family. Beth was the first person I ever worried about losing to another person. It's part of the reason I wanted to marry her, to bond to her for the rest of my life. Not only did she refuse my proposal and insist I marry Miranda, she told me she didn't need marriage and was willing to stay with me forever anyway, she didn't need marriage to make her mine.

All four of them are committed to their submission, so even though I now share them with others, including other men, I'm not fearful of losing any of them to someone else. I know they won't cheat on me in the conventional sense, that nothing will ever be done behind my back or without my knowledge and permission. On the other hand, having four beautiful, delightful women who enchant me and need me to meet their sexual and emotional needs is difficult. It's part of why I let them have sex with others. I can't possibly meet all their sexual needs all the time. I'd be having sex all day. Allowing others to do some of it, makes it easier on myself. It's still at my direction and control, so I feel I'm the one satisfying their sexual cravings, even though I'm using a surrogate.

"I suppose if I had to do without Francesca and Belle, I could, but I don't want to. I can no longer lose either Beth or Miranda. They're both a part of my heart and my life. To lose either would be like losing a part of myself. I can't express how deeply I feel for both of them."

"Would you agree with both Beth and Joshua, Miranda?"

"Absolutely. I feel attached to everyone on board this ship more than anyone else in my life except my sister. They've loved me, cared for me, saved me, in so many different ways. Being a single woman in Washington was a loveless, joyless experience. Every moment since becoming Joshua's submissive has been better than all the moments before."

"What do you do when you're away from your husband?"

"Joshua sees to it my sexual needs are taken care of by others, at a time and in the way he wants. Some of it is with other people; my maid, gardener and personal fitness trainer answer to him and see to most of my needs. Other times he controls my sexuality by using sex toys which he can control remotely. Sometimes he watches, other times he doesn't, but I never have sex with anyone he has not told me to; from the number of orgasms I can have to how they have sex with me or I with them. I'm trying to have a child now, and anyone having vaginal sex with me but him, must use a condom. He'll be the only person to give us a child. The others are on birth control at the moment and aren't limited in that way."

"I see. This is very odd to me and completely outside of my experience and frame of reference. Felicity told me last night that she wants to become my submissive. She actually got down on her knees and asked to become mine. As aroused as it made me, I dismissed it out of hand initially, thinking there was no way I could remain a Muslim in good standing with Allah if I accepted such a request. Beth pointed out to me this morning that if Felicity and I developed our own rules of Dominance and submission in accordance with the Qur'an, there might be a way for this to work. Part of my hesitance in doing so, is that to the best of my knowledge, Felicity has never been exposed to Dominance and submission in reality. She has an idealized fantasy in her head of what it would be like; a romantic notion it would be all flowers and sunshine, and perhaps sex.

"Initially, I was thinking of asking Beth to join us for a few days so she could see what the reality would be like, but I realized it wouldn't work without a Dominant, as I can't be Beth's Dominant without committing adultery or some other sins too numerous to mention. I have another notion instead. Are you an honorable man, Joshua?"

"I like to think so. I try to conduct myself honorably."

"That was my impression in dealing with you and some of the women you've helped. That you try to act in such a way you don't harm anyone else."

"Glad you think so. Where's this going?"

"I want you to Dominate my wife for a few days...." Felicity gasped, her hand over her mouth.

"Sir, if you think that having me at your home would be haram, leaving Felicity here would be that, a hundred times worse," I said.

"Let me finish. There are conditions. She can't have sex with anyone, man or woman, but she can watch you have sex. She can watch you be punished. She should be punished herself, at least once. She should witness everything about your submission so she knows all that's involved in it. How can she make a decision about something so important without knowing exactly what is involved. I just think..."

"Dr. Sadiq, I understand what you're trying to do," Master said, "but I don't think you understand, my slaves go naked. Not in the middle of London, out on deck, but elsewhere on the ship."

"Fine, she can be naked, as long as it's in your quarters and not anywhere she can be seen by others. Just no sex. "

"And that includes punishment if she's disobedient. I'm to lay hands on her naked body? To spank her on her bare buttocks?"

"If that's how your submissives are punished. She should witness it and she should experience it. It's not some fantasy she's asking for, it's a reality. She should know what it's like."

"But not our reality, Dr. Sadiq. It was my impression that if you wanted to accept Felicity's submission," I said, "it would be with rules you developed so as not to violate your religious tenets, to abide by the laws of the Qur'an. As part of establishing Dominance over us, Master feeds us naked in his lap while caressing us, he makes us do things like masturbate for an audience. Often we're punished in front of others as well. Sex toys are used on us, both those designed to make us orgasm, and those which keep us on the edge of climax but prevent us from releasing. He's taking control of our sexuality, so much of my submission is wrapped in the trappings of sex.

"Even if Master promised he would not have sexual penetration with your wife, she may be given orgasms. I've orgasmed from being punished as odd as that might seem to you. All of my sister slaves have. There's a certain bit of sexual excitement which comes from being naked and often humiliated in front of others, for submissives anyway. If Felicity is truly submissive, she would feel it too. She might even feel it more because of her religious traditions. She's expected to be more modest than we would normally be, so being naked in front of other people might be more arousing, because it's more taboo. Even before my submission, I was used to wearing brief bikinis to the beach or pool. Going naked isn't as large a step for me as it is for Felicity. Honorable intentions or not, your wife would receive pleasure from other people, not her husband. That would seem like a violation of your faith to me. Ask her, right now, what this discussion is doing to her. How thinking about being naked in front of all of us is making her feel. My guess would be, it wouldn't take much to make her orgasm."

"Is this true, Felicity?"

She lowered her eyes. "It's true, husband. The thought of it is very stimulating to me. I'm very aroused right now."

"Part of the allure of submission is surrendering control to another person and 'made' to do things we wouldn't normally do. Felicity would be mortified to be undressed in front of others, to be paraded naked about the ship. She couldn't do it herself, but under the guise of submission, she'd be forced to do such a thing, which has tinges of danger, of shame, of loss of control. It's like a shot of adrenaline straight to the heart. My pulse is racing, my hands are sweaty, my mouth is dry, but my sex is wet. I'm close to my flight or fight response, and it goes straight to my sex.

"When I first came aboard, and we were at sea, I was led about on a leash. I had to find someone to lead me somewhere and then surrender to their touch for a minute for them taking their time to take me where I wanted to go. Sometimes, only a minute of stimulation was enough for me to orgasm because I'm so keyed up from behaving this way. It's why you need to develop your own rules. Master's rules are designed to make us orgasmic sluts. I'm not sure if that's what you want for your wife, unless it's directed at you."

"Is this true, Joshua?"

"I don't think of it in those terms, but it's fairly accurate. All submissives tend to develop increased sexual libido under submission. They tend to be easily aroused and more orgasmic. That's part of why I enjoy it. Beth is right, being with us wouldn't be her reality either. It's still a fantasy. She can't live like this without causing problems in your marriage."

"If I might make a suggestion, Doctor Sadiq," I said. "Don't leave your wife in a position of submission to anyone here. It would be better if you perhaps saw some of the things we did and then practiced them in the privacy of your home. That way, what you practice doesn't violate your religious beliefs or moral code, nor your wife's. If you think your wife should witness a punishment, let Master punish one of us, then you punish her, so she knows what she's in for. It allows you both to see what Domination and submission is like, as we practice it. And practice anything which wouldn't violate your rules on each other. You can witness how Master can punish me or Miranda without risking our safety or materially harming us in any way, because harming your loved one is not the goal. It's to establish your Domination and control, and the feeling of subservience and submission in your sub.

"The other thing which we should discuss is what you hope to gain out of the relationship. As a submissive, I'm fairly certain what your wife gets out of it, but what do you want? Do you wish her to be more compliant in the bedroom, to be more open about her needs and desires? To tend to your every need and hunger? My Master wishes me to be available to him at all times, sexually, to refuse him nothing he wants within the parameters we established before my submission began. What would you want your wife to do?"

"If we weren't having this conversation right now, what would you be doing?"

"Easy one. Miranda and I would be naked, competing for the affections of our Master, attempting to get him to fuck one or both of us."

"Might I observe what that would be like?"

I looked at Master and he nodded. I removed my clothes, as did Miranda. We both knelt in front of him and removed his cock from his pants. We took turns sucking him and had him erect in no time, Each time we switched, I watched Mahdi and Felicity. He was also erect. His religion did not affect his biological response to visual stimuli. He might not seek out pornography, but he wasn't immune to it. We were putting on a live sex show. Felicity was flushed and had a sheen of perspiration, though Master's cabin wasn't warm. Her hands looked as if they wanted to touch herself but she restrained her impulses.

Her eyes were wide when she saw how easily both Miranda and I could take Master down our throats. While Miranda sucked his shaft, I spoke.

"I learned to do this during my training period when seeing if I could be submissive. My Mistress at the time thought it would be beneficial for me to know for my potential Master. I taught what I knew to Miranda and the others. This is relatively easy for us despite his size. We've done larger ones as well. I learned a few things about Islamic rules regarding sex so I could consult with the two men who married freed slaves. I figured a freed slave would do whatever she'd been trained to do, but it would be against all of her upbringing if she did things in opposition to her faith. That would be a warning sign if she willingly did something antithetical to her beliefs.

"Please tell me if I'm wrong, but I learned oral sex is okay as long as it's part of foreplay and not the goal. If this were you, Felicity, you would have to stop before making your Master orgasm, and proceed to reproductive intercourse. Is that right?"

Her mouth sounded dry when she answered, "Yes," almost a whisper.

"That would be a primary difference in your submission and ours. Master frequently uses our mouth for more than foreplay, nor is he shy in doing the same for us, although we frequently use each other for oral sex as well."

While Miranda finished off Master, I licked my sister slave. Miranda was ripe and easily ready to climax when Master was.

"Master," Miranda begged, "may I have permission to cum?"

As I imagined, Master would also wish to demonstrate a punishment, so he declined her permission. She attempted to resist my tongue, but could not for long, squirming through her climax as Master orgasmed into her mouth. As she sucked his cock clean and tucked him away, I continued speaking.

"We have surrendered our pleasure to Master. He gets to decide if and when we orgasm. We don't have control all the time, though we do make an effort to obey. If we cannot obey, we're punished. We'll demonstrate that for you. The purpose is so we know we owe our pleasure to our Master. We can't have sex without his approval. He can deny it, allow it, allow it while denying orgasm. One of the worst punishments we suffer is from a device called a Slave Trainer. It keeps us on the edge of climax but won't let us achieve it. Orgasms are a good way to control us as we want them frequently, but may not have them without permission. Other punishments effective in applying discipline include a harsh word, being denied access to our Master, say by confinement under the bed while he enjoys another slave, and humiliation. Being punished in front of others is more humiliating than being punished in private. Then everyone knows we've been disobedient, which is shaming to us.

"A second difference between us as far as I could determine is anal sex. It's prohibited in the Qur'an, but we enjoy engaging in it. Henderson wasn't having anal sex with Maahnoor, because he was trying to comply with Islamic traditions for his wife. She desired it and had it with a man who didn't respect her marriage and Master's orders to deny any requests for sex by the wives or any freed slave who hasn't been cleared for sex. I would assume you would not engage in anal sex?"

"No," Dr. Sadiq said, though Felicity looked as if she'd be willing to try.

"This is where I don't clearly understand Islamic law. It appeared that use of some sexual toys may be considered okay, but others are prohibited. I'm unsure where the line is drawn, although I read mention that toys which penetrate the sexual organs are considered more haram than others, and that the use of sexual toys alone to achieve orgasm might be frowned upon. A suggestion for you. To avoid anal sex but still take advantage of the many nerve endings available for stimulation around the anus, perhaps an anal plug could be used to simulate anal intercourse, while having sex together. Having a plug in while engaging in regular intercourse provides extra stimulation to the male organ and the female because she feels so full. Since I'm unsure of the forbidden nature of the act, this would be something for you to determine together.

"If sexual toys alone are haram, then perhaps using them in conjunction with regular intercourse might be possible. For example, using clitoral stimulators in conjunction with intercourse to increase the pleasure received. Of course, using sexual stimulation while denying your submissive an orgasm gives reason for a punishment. Master enjoys a squirming slave over his lap as he administers swats to her bare bottom. It frequently leads to more sex after. Contrary to what either of you might think, punishment is as often a form of foreplay as much as it is punishment. Master, how would you like to punish Miranda for cumming without permission."

"Over my lap. Bring me The Enforcer and I'll use my hand for some and the paddle for the rest."

As Miranda maneuvered her naked buttocks on Master's lap, I retrieved The Enforcer.

I handed him the device and asked him to discuss punishment.

"Beth mentioned punishment as sometimes being as much foreplay as penalty. Punishment is never administered in anger. Tempers should be allowed time to cool before punishment is administered. I do not want to leave bruises or mark skin or make scars. I love these women dearly and anything which actually harmed them offends me and when observed in others, angers me. There are only a few people I trust to administer punishment to my subs, and they're usually other Dominant's I've approved of and have witnessed and monitored in the past myself. I don't consider myself a Sadist, nor do I let anyone I consider a sadist near my women.

"Because some punishments are harsher than others, I frequently give an orgasm either before, during or after the punishment to mitigate any pain they feel. An instrument of punishment is usually chosen for specific areas of the body. Heavier paddles only for the bottom, lighter ones may be applied to other meatier parts of the body, light whips anywhere but the face. There is pain feedback between my hand and a bottom. I can tell how hard I'm striking someone by how much it hurts my hand. If I use anything other than a hand, there's no feedback, so I use the instrument on myself first to test it. I won't use anything which hasn't been tested on me first.

"Miranda, I'm going to give you five swats with my hand, then ten more with The Enforcer. Since you'd normally only get ten for cumming without permission, I'm asking permission to give the other five. Is that okay?"

"Yes, Master."

"Count for me and thank me for each one."

"Yes, sir."

Master gave her five swats with his hand. After each, she counted the stroke, thanked him and asked for the next one. When they were done, he used the handle of the paddle and gave her another climax. Miranda squirmed wildly over his lap, a truly lewd display. Felicity seemed to be holding her breath, Mahdi to be breathing heavier. I don't care what religion you practiced, this was sexy stuff.

He used The Enforcer four times on her bottom, once on the backs of both her thighs, once on the inside of both thighs, and once to each of her breasts, fucking her with the handle to a third orgasm when he was done. The handle was dripping with her orgasmic fluids.

"How are you, love?" Master asked.

"Wonderful, sir," Miranda asked.

Master then cuddled her in his lap. As he did, I explained. "While this was quite tame compared to some, if it's really intense for the sub, we can experience what is called sub drop. There are lots of different chemicals and hormones released in the bloodstream during a scene such as this, including adrenaline and endorphins. As those chemicals begin to be eliminated from the blood stream, there's a period of mild depression, almost like coming off a drug high, for the sub which a good Master wishes to address. This usually consists of cuddling, stroking, words of love and encouragement and praise for being good, or strong or pleasing. This allows us to come down slower and have fewer negative affects. This is what Master is doing now, though because it was so brief, Miranda doesn't really need it. You should see how it's done though. Master, why don't you use the whip on me, twenty strokes, all to my front."

He said yes and I got the flogger, the cat we usually enjoyed. Master fastened my wrist and ankle cuffs to the bed posts, spreading me out. I was aware of my juices leaking down my thighs. Felicity couldn't stop staring at one drop which was headed for my knee. Master told Miranda to give me two orgasms. Miranda was soon lapping at my core, catching the leaks including the one Felicity had followed so closely.