Sinful Faith

Elizabeth looked away, far from being as confident as she was before.

"W-Well when you say it like that is sound weird."

"Don't be embarrassed." Answered Sukebe with a smile "It really makes me feel alive. And to be honest, it was way better than when I was doing it alone. I didn't even touch myself, and yet I still had an orgasm." Sukebe chuckled slightly, before looking at her cup once again "My first orgasm with you..."

Elizabeth looked at Sukebe, a bit confused. She wasn't sure whether it was the right moment to ask, but she felt like she would look dumb if she didn't.

"What's... An orgasm?"

It was Sukebe's turn to look confused. But she giggled like a child after realizing how innocent Elizabeth was.

"I'll show you next time, don't worry. But you really never had any experience with it before?" Elizabeth shook her head, surprising Sukebe "You acted like you knew what you were doing, you're sure you are a virgin?" She asked with a playful smile.

"As virgin as the mother of Jesus. I don't really know how, I just acted by instinct."

"Your instinct is way better than I would have imagined. I never imagined you would go that far for me, and if you did, I thought you would be the one that would be too shy to do anything." Sukebe kissed gently her lover, before patting her head "Next time, I'm going to give you pleasure."

"I'd love to, Sukebe."

Elizabeth finished taking care of her job, which would probably be the last time she did. She waited patiently, until father Benedictus finally arrived. His presence was enough to fill the empty with an uncomfortable wind. With a firm and strong voice, he started to talk for the silent nun.

"Sister Elizabeth, I suppose that you haven't forgotten yesterday's conversation we had."

"I haven't, father."

"Good, we haven't decided what we'll do with you yet." Benedictus slowly approached Elizabeth, and continued talking in a voice full of judgement "But you know, you're innocent. In the end, you just protected someone."

"If you have something to say, just say it." Answered Elizabeth with a cold tone.

"She's really having a bad effect on you, you weren't like that before." Father Benedictus talked in a harsh tone, trying to make her feel. But when he saw that she barely gave a reaction, he continued like nothing happened "Sister Sukebe is being a bad influence on you, but if you accept to not see her anymore, we might go back to how everything was before."

Elizabeth stared at him without showing any emotion. After a few uncomfortable minutes passed, she decided to finally answer his proposition.

"I'll wait for you until you find a task I can do, in the meantime, I have a garden to take care of."

Elizabeth was about to leave, but right after she turned her back, Benedictus raised his voice once more.

"Even if it means leaving this monastery? Would you leave God?"

Elizabeth stopped at those words and turned back to him. Father Benedictus expected her to apologize, but was surprised when she started talking.

"Sister Sukebe is more important than this monastery for me. And as for God, I think it's a bit pretentious to say that being here is the only way to love the Lord. No matter which path I take, I'll love both God and sister Sukebe."

"Love Sister Sukebe?" Asked Benedictus, shocked by those words "Are you implying that this woman is as important as the Lord?"

"I'm not implying, I'm pretty clear on it. Now if you excuse me, but these plants have a very strict watering schedule."

Elizabeth turned one last time, and left the man speechless in the room.

Sukebe and Elizabeth both spent time together in the garden. There, she explained what happened with father Benedictus. As she told the story, Sukebe felt visibly worried.

"Does he want to exile you from the monastery?"

"He won't." Answered Elizabeth "He would have done it before if he really wanted to."

Elizabeth continued to take care of her plants under the attentive eye of her beloved. She was doing so without a single worry in the world, but she noticed that Sukebe wasn't feeling as carefree as her. Gently caressing her cheek, She asked with a soft voice.

"Are you alright Sukebe? Are you worried for me? It will be alright, I promise."

"No, it's not that." Said Sukebe, with a bit of sorrow in her voice "It's just that they're right, I only bring sorrow... If I wasn't here, you would still-"

Elizabeth put her finger on Sukebe's mouth, stopping her in her words.

"If you weren't here, I wouldn't have found out this wonderful feeling. And I'm glad to say that you are the one that showed it to me."

After saying those words, she leaned in for a short kiss, making Sukebe blush a bit. Even after a few days, she felt as happy as the first time their lips touched. She never felt so loved by someone before, she took Elizabeth in her arms out of nowhere, with tears on her eyes.

"You're so perfect Eliza, I love you so much."

"I love you too Sukebe."

Elizabeth caressed her love's back gently, and slightly chuckled to herself.

"Eliza... Isn't it what you called me last night?"

"It's cute... Isn't it?.."

"It is, but I think that last night you said that because you couldn't finish your sentence. But it was cute, hearing you say my name and being cut by your own moan."

Sukebe took a step back, her face was all red and even hiding her face behind her hands wasn't enough for Elizabeth to not see it.

"Why do you keep reminding it to me? It's so embarrassing..."

"Isn't it what you wanted? It seemed like it made you happy."

Elizabeth smile softly, and caressed her lover's cheek while losing herself in her violet eyes.

"Am I interrupting something?"

The two women turned toward the source of the voice, surprised to not be alone.

It was Maria, she looked at the two nun together with a look full of judgement.

"You two seem awfully close. Forbidden kind of close if you know what I mean."

"You needed something, sister Maria?" Elizabeth talked with a very cold tone in her voice, wary of Maria.

"They're searching for sister Sukebe, I think she's supposed to do her job. I knew you two were close, but it seems like you were even more than I thought."

"Is it a problem?"

"For me, no. But I'm not sure how father Benedictus would feel about two nuns falling in love. And even if I'm mistaken, he'll be more than happy to believe me. I'm sure he's just waiting for the day Sukebe leaves this place."

"I think you mean sister Sukebe." Elizabeth kept her voice as cold and steady as she could. She couldn't accept seeing her lover being disrespected in front of her.

"Why does it matter? Soon, she won't be 'sister' anymore."

"Sister Maria, please stop-"

"Stop it!" Maria yelled, with frustration in her voice "God, sister, faith! You don't care, do you? You've fallen for the devil Elizabeth, You are far from the faithful woman you were!"

Everyone stayed silent after Maria's outburst, not knowing what to say. The woman slowly calmed herself, but seemed visibly mad and on the border of tears. Sukebe took a deep breath, and took a step forward to the surprise of the others.

"Don't say that of Eliza, she never stopped believing in the Lord, not even once."

"Stop talking, demon. And why are you so calm now? You always opposed everyone, rebelled about the rules, and now you want me to believe that you're a faithful nun?"

Sukebe looked back at Elizabeth, and after pausing her gaze on her for a moment, replied to Maria.

"I think... I just found faith. I feel at peace now, and I think I understand why peoples give their lives for someone, since I feel the same now."

Maria showed a face of disgust at Sukebe, and turned her angry gaze at Elizabeth.

"Is that the person you replaced me with? What does she have that I don't?.. Why did you leave me Elizabeth?"

"It hurts me too." Answered Elizabeth with sorrow in her voice "I wish that I still had my friend with me, the one that I talk about most things. But I saw the ugly truth, you are not as pure as I thought, you reject everything that you don't want, without even trying to understand." Elizabeth got closer to Sukebe, and took her hand while still staring at Maria "I found someone that I love as dearly as God, and even if we took different paths, I hope that you too, find your light."

"I don't need to find light, unlike you, I'm faithful to God."

Without another word, Maria left like a storm. Elizabeth looked where she was standing for a moment, lost in her thoughts. Sukebe took her in her arms, and softly asked.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, don't worry. It just feels weird, I've seen sister Maria mad before, but seeing her mad against me... It's like I realize how she really was. But it's alright, I just need you and God, the rest doesn't matter."

"Do I really make you so happy?"

Elizabeth smiled softly, and gave her beloved a slight kiss on her forehead.

"More than anything. Now we should go, I'll help you cook today too."

The two women headed to the kitchen, and worked together like last time. But this time, Sukebe seemed a bit distracted. Not only her reaction time was slower, but she also forgets what she was doing and what she was supposed to do.

After finishing everything, they started eating in the kitchen. Elizabeth decided to take this opportunity to confront Sukebe.

"Sukebe, is something the matter? You've been acting weird lately."

"Oh... It's just..." Sukebe was taken by surprise, and couldn't think of an answer right away. It took her a few minutes to collect her thoughts and finally give an answer

"Do you like living at the monastery?"

Elizabeth seemed surprised, it was a weird question to ask so suddenly. But she still ended up answering, with her calm and soft voice.

"I like being here, it's not always easy, but I'm glad to show my faith to God."

"... I see." Sukebe didn't seem really satisfied about the answer. She seemed lost in her thoughts for a moment, but Elizabeth wasn't going to let her feel sad without trying to understand. She went closer to Sukebe, and took her in her arms while talking gently.

"For me, all that matter is you and the Lord, I've said it countless times. This monastery is just a place where I can live and show God allegiance."

"Do you really think so?"

Elizabeth took delicately a strand of her hair and took it out of her wimple, just like Sukebe likes to do.

"I only obey God's rules, and I only follow your heart. The rest doesn't matter to me."

Sukebe smiled a bit, before plunging in her lover's arms. Elizabeth still wondered what she meant when she asked about the monastery, but she was ready to wait until Sukebe is comfortable to talk about it. In the meanwhile, she would love her all she could.

Like every night now, the two lovers went together to Sukebe's room to spend the evening. But unlike last time, Sukebe wasn't playing her guitar, and just leaned onto Elizabeth. They silently stayed like that for a moment, enjoying the feel of the other. But even if everything was being peaceful, Sukebe couldn't help but feel troubled in her heart. She looked into her significant other's eye, took a deep breath, and started talking with a worried tone.

"Elizabeth, I wanted to talk to you about something."

"What is it my dear?"

Sukebe seemed saddened, and stayed silent for a moment. Seeing the state she's in, Elizabeth took her in her arms, and pressed her tightly against her body. Sukebe still seemed in a bad mood, but tried to go past that and express her feelings.

"I don't feel like a nun, I don't feel like it's what I want to do. I went to the monastery because it's the only choice I had, but now, I feel like it's not what I want."

"And what do you want?"

Sukebe looked at Elizabeth with shining eyes, and gave her a quick kiss on her lips. Her arms found their way under her beloved clothes, caressing her soft body.

"I want you."

After saying those words, Sukebe removed her lover's clothes, revealing the upper part of her upper body. Her gaze moved all around the body, while Elizabeth was just looking at her face with amusement. Sukebe's hand move along the shape of her love's body, touching with the tip of her fingers. Her hand went from Elizabeth's shoulders, passed by her breast and stomach, only to end on her thighs. She gently removed pants, leaving her beloved completely naked.

"You really want all of me~" Elizabeth said with an excited voice and a smirk.

"Yes, I want all of you. Especially since... It's maybe the last time I can."

Elizabeth was confused, but before she could ask, Sukebe kissed her deeply and started to gently rub the outside of her private part.

"Don't say anything, don't think too much. I just want to make you happy tonight, Eliza."

Sukebe continued to rub her beloved's vagina, and caressed softly her hair, paying close attention to her face. Elizabeth frowned, and made a face that amused Sukebe, it seemed pretty obvious that she never had any experience like that before. She was panting, and held her lover close to her.

Sukebe could feel her beloved's heart pounding, only exciting her more. She felt happy that she could make her Eliza feel like that, it was the happiest memory she would keep. Focused on Elizabeth warmth, Sukebe circled her finger around her lover's clitoris, which made her breath even more heavily.

After continuing to caress her private part, Sukebe removed her finger, leaving Elizabeth a bit confused.

"Why... Why are you stopping?"

Sukebe looked at Elizabeth in the eyes, and put her fingers in her mouth with a seductive stare, slowly licking them.

"You taste good, Eliza..."

"Isn't it a bit nasty? Are you sure-"

Sukebe kissed Elizabeth before she could finish her sentence, embracing their tongues together.

She then got her face closer to Elizabeth's kitten, and observed it with attention while caressing it.

"Sukebe... It's quite embarrassing."

"Don't be embarrassed, I'm glad that it's so wet for me."

Sukebe leaned toward it, and gave it a gentle kiss while caressing her lover's body. She proceeded to lick her lover's privates, and took her time while doing so. She made sure to go as deep as she could, while not making it uncomfortable for Elizabeth.

"It's... Wonderful~"

Elizabeth said, with a swaying voice. Her body had light spasm, while her hips moved on their own. Sukebe felt really excited by hearing her lover's moan, and touched herself slowly while licking her lover's pussy.

"Sukebe... I feel weird... I think you should stop."

Hearing those words only made Sukebe's happier, knowing how she felt. She grabbed her lover's hips, and pushed her tongue in her deepest part. By reflex, Elizabeth grabbed Sukebe's head, pressing her against her vagina. She let out a loud moan, as her eyes rolled upward. She tried her best to contain herself, but she couldn't help with the overwhelming feeling of pleasure that took over her. All her muscles suddenly relaxed, while she was panting with an empty mind. After realizing what happened, she looked at Sukebe with worry, and asked with an exhausted voice

"Are you okay? It was so weird, I'm so sorry..."

Sukebe licked her vagina one last time, and licked her lips seductively while looking at her lover.

"It was delicious, I loved every part of it."

After that, she lied on Elizabeth, with her crotch on her lover's leg. She had her eyes half closed, and her mouth still opened.

"I'm sorry Eliza, I'm a too naughty girl."

Elizabeth caressed Sukebe's head slowly, and gently smiled to her.

"I love my naughty girl."

Sukebe moved her hips on her lover's leg, and sucked on Elizabeth's boobs to keep her mouth busy. Even despite that, she couldn't help but moan softly. She seemed to enjoy the moment so much that she even had tears on her eyes, she felt in heaven. She continued sucking on her lover's nipple for a while, but was suddenly surprised when her mouth started to feel with a hot liquid. She stopped, surprised for a moment, but she quickly looked at her lover with a pervert smile on her face.

"Is that milk? I think I just want to feed off you from now on."

"My dear... You're really a pervert." Elizabeth chuckled slightly, while looking at her lover's horny face.

"I'm sorry... I can't help it..."

Sukebe continued sucking on her beloved boobs, still moving her hips on Elizabeth's leg. Elizabeth lovingly caressed her hair, happy to see Sukebe so happy. After a short moment, Sukebe suddenly moved her body with more energy, and grabbed her lover's body firmly while making a cute sound. When she finished, she relaxed her body, and kissed her Elizabeth softly. But when she was about to move away, Elizabeth grabbed her head, and kissed her deeply. The two women lied next to each other, exhausted as they caressed each other's body. They stayed silently in that position for a moment, enjoying the intimate moment like nothing else mattered.

Sukebe had a tear fall from her eye, but this time, it was out of sadness. Elizabeth noticed it, and wiped the tear out of her cheek. She took Sukebe close in her arms, trying her best to comfort her.

"What is it my dear? I can see that something is troubling you."

Sukebe took a long moment to think, and finally found the courage to tell what she wanted to say for a while now.

"I want to leave, I'm not a woman of faith, and I can't get along with peoples here. I feel like I can't be happy here, but... I don't want to leave you, I don't know what I should do."

"So that's what is torturing you." Elizabeth caressed her head gently, while softly talking to her "You should leave, I don't want you to be unhappy. And others here don't seem to treat you like you deserve to be."

"You're right... But it's too hard to leave for me..." Sukebe's voice started to waver, while she still tried holding her tears.

"Don't worry, we'll find a way to live. I'm sure it will be hard at the beginning, but we can find a way to make money, and we'll find a place to be safe."

"We?" Asked Sukebe, with hope in her eyes "You'd... Leave with me?"

"Of course, I don't want to be away from you at all. And like I said, there are many other ways to show my faith to God."

Sukebe held Elizabeth tightly, with tears all over her face.

"I love you so much Elizabeth, you're too good to be true. You're the best person on earth, you're a blessing!"

"Haha, calm down, you weren't thinking that I would just leave you alone like that. I really love you too, and I don't want to be away from you."

"But... Will you really leave the monastery? You lived here for most of your life."

"Yes, I lived here for maybe ten years now, but we're still young, we have a future to build."

Sukebe felt really happy, but still hesitant. She took a moment to organize her feelings, and tried to explain herself the best she could.

"Are you sure? You want to leave for me?"

Elizabeth smiled softly, and started to talk in a ceremonious voice.

"Though you are incomplete, I love you completely. Though you are imperfect, I love you perfectly. Though you may feel lost and without compass, my love will encompass you the best it can. I love you, even if you are flawed, rejected, awkward, sorrowful, or broken." After she finished talking, she gave a bright smile to Sukebe "This is how God feels about all of us, but it's also how I feel about you. I love you truly, and want you by my side, until the end."

Sukebe held her lover tightly, and answered with a sleepy voice.

"Not until the end, always."

"Always then."

Elizabeth made her way to the chapel where she used to pray, where father Benedictus was waiting for her, arms crossed. Sukebe also came but stayed silent, witnessing the scene that was about to happen. None of the women wore their usual nuns outfit, instead wearing civil clothes. Benedictus stared at them, with a tone of judgement and shame. The quietude of the room was heavy, making Sukebe uncomfortable just by her presence. Elizabeth on the other hand stayed calm, not letting the least emotion shown. After minutes that sounded like hours, the man finally broke the heavy silence that lied in the room.