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Step By Step


Brenda looked around the room at the other people in the circle, wondering if they'd felt the same as her the first time they'd come to one of these meetings. There weren't many of them--just four plus "Heidi K", the woman in charge of the group--but even admitting her problem to just five people made her blush hotly with shame.

Only the expression on their faces kept her from running. She looked at them and saw not just sympathy, but understanding. They knew how she felt; they knew what kind of chaos her life had become. Maybe they'd felt just as nervous as her when they'd attended their first meeting, maybe they'd also gotten sweaty palms and butterflies in their stomach, but they'd stuck it out and come back. If they could do it, she could do it.

Brenda stood up. She took a deep breath, trying to calm herself, but the memory of taking deep breaths to calm herself had too many associations that made her nervous all over again. The others in the group smiled encouragingly at her, and Heidi said, "It's all right, Brenda. Nobody's here to judge you."

Brenda nodded. "Hi," she said. "My name's Brenda, and I'm addicted to hypnosis."

"Hi, Brenda," the rest of the group chorused.

After saying that first part, the rest started to come a bit easier. "I guess I really started to get interested in hypnosis as a kid," she said. "Not just hypnosis, mind control in general. I was a big comic book fan when I was little," and she saw the two guys both nod their heads in sympathy, "and there were some stories in there...I was too young to really understand what I was feeling, but it made me feel funny in a way that I couldn't describe. I'd read about evil supervillains controlling the minds of beautiful women, and I wondered why they'd always just use them to rob a bank or try to kill the hero instead of..." She shrugged. "I didn't know what 'instead of' was, back when I was eleven, but I knew there was something."

That got a few chuckles from the group, but they didn't interrupt her story. "And then when I was a teenager, I started reading vampire stories." That got everyone nodding, even Heidi. "Most girls my age were fantasizing about the New Kids on the Block--me, I had my first orgasm masturbating while reading Bram Stoker's 'Dracula'." She felt the blush creeping all the way up her face to her forehead, but Brenda knew she had to be honest with somebody if she was ever going to beat this thing.

"And for a long time, it was just like that--a fantasy I had. I'd imagine a sinister man with dark eyes, eyes that swallowed me up and made me go all...blank and empty..." She saw it on their faces, that little twitch as they tried to control their own arousal at the thought. Some people hid it better than others. Lois, the girl with the glasses, visibly pressed her knees together and sat up ramrod straight in her chair. "I had fantasies about vampires--that was when I first realized I was bisexual, when I read 'Carmilla'. But it was all just make-believe, just harmless, and it stayed that way for a long time."

Even with what she'd already admitted, the next bit was difficult for Brenda. She swallowed hard, and said, "Then I discovered the Internet. I mean, I knew it existed before that, obviously, but...I found some websites, stuff about hypnosis. I found some forums, and I..." She let out a long, trembling breath. "I found out that there was such a thing as real erotic hypnosis. There were people out there who could really hypnotize you, just like in all the stories I'd read...and written...and it really turned them on too, just like it did me. Like it does me."

Just remembering it right now turned her on, even if fear and shame conspired to mute the feeling a little. "I found my first hypnosis mp3 about six years ago. It was by a man calling himself 'The Operator', it was supposed to bring you to orgasm. I...I listened to it without even checking to see if there were any hidden suggestions. I just couldn't help myself; it was all my fantasies come to life right there, a guy hypnotizing me and making me cum with just his voice, and it was right there in front of me. It worked, too." Her gaze grew slightly distant as she remembered just how intense that orgasm had been, the silky-smooth voice coaxing her hands to rub her clit, the way that his words had seemed to caress her nipples as though he had invisible hands...she broke away from the memory with an effort.

"I remember noticing that there were other suggestions in there, ones that reduced my resistance and increased my susceptibility to hypnosis. I told myself they didn't work, that I just liked getting off on the fantasy. I listened to it three more times that day, and at least once a day after that." She saw Sasha, the dark-haired girl, seeming to gaze off into the distance herself, and wondered if she'd heard the same recordings and if she was remembering them right now.

"After a while, he started putting up other recordings, and I listened to those, too. By then, I wasn't even really remembering what he was suggesting to me. I just remembered that it felt good. But after a few months, I started getting these really strong urges to email him and thank him for the files. I fought it for a few days, out of shyness and a little bit of worrying about talking to strangers over the Internet, but...I gave in. I didn't know it until later, but that was one of the post-hyps he'd put in his files."

She remembered typing the email, signing off with the phrase, 'With spiral submissions, Brenda.' She had thought it was her own idea, just a quirky little signature, but it was actually her subconscious telling the Operator that she'd emailed him as a result of a post-hypnotic suggestion instead of doing it of her own volition.

"Within a few days of that, we were chatting regularly. We even talked on the phone sometimes. It was..." She remembered everything she could, but it was mostly just flashes--kneeling on the floor with a hands-free headset on so she could pinch her nipples with both hands while she sank deeper for him, ASCII designs that instantly sent her into trance, phone calls at work from a seeming stranger who asked if she'd forgotten her panties and the blushing realization that she actually had... "It was intense. I don't know how much of it was the hypnosis and how much of it was just the power of having all those fantasies realized, but I loved to give myself to him." She didn't have to tell everyone just how many orgasms she'd had during those months. She could tell they'd all been there.

"And one day, he gave me an assignment. He told me to go out, find a random man, and bring him back to my apartment and fuck him senseless. And..." She shivered. "And I knew it was a bad idea, I knew that I might get an STD or that I might wind up letting some crazy guy into my apartment or...or any of the other reasons it was a bad idea. And I kept telling myself not to do it, but every time I'd move towards the door I'd get so fucking horny at the thought that I couldn't stop myself from doing it even if it was a bad idea, and the more I thought about how hot it was to be that deeply controlled, the hotter I got, and pretty soon I was so horny I needed a good fucking anyway, and..."

She sighed. "And I found some guy, and I dragged him back to my apartment, and I fucked him senseless. Just like I was commanded to. And then afterwards, I freaked out. I uninstalled my chat programs, deleted all my hypnosis mp3s, and removed the Operator's email address from my friends list. I hung up every time he called, I deleted all his emails unread...it was hard, it was hard for months, but I did it and I swore I'd never let that happen again."

There was a long pause. The members of the group looked at each other, uncertain as to whether or not that was the end of the story. Heidi just looked straight at her, though, and said, "But it did, didn't it?"

Brenda looked away--she still had a hard time looking attractive women in the eyes without fantasizing about what it might lead to--but she nodded. "A few years later. I told myself it'd be all right if I just listened to some mp3s, if I didn't get involved with actual people. I found some female-voiced ones; I thought that maybe women were more ethical than men. I always listened to the last half first to make sure I knew what was getting into my head. I thought I was being smart."

The expression on Lois' face was one of pure agonized sympathy. Luke, the guy with the red hair and watery eyes, looked the same way. "That lasted about six months. I was doing all right, just listening to the recordings and going under--but it was so easy to go under. All those sessions I'd had to make me a better hypnotic subject had made it so hard to resist hypnosis at all, and I started wanting more. I started lurking on mailing lists and forums, and some of the women just seemed so nice...and I'd been listening to women hypnotizing me for months, and it was making me, y'know...itchy. So I sent one of the dommes an email, told her I'd been burned before but I wanted to try some casual, no strings erotic hypnosis."

Bryan, the other guy, frowned in understanding as she continued. "And there I was, reinstalling my chat programs--under a new ID, I wasn't about to let the Operator get his hooks back into me--and letting SuzyQ do text trance sessions with me. And it was nice. She was nice. No amnesia suggestions, she let me keep the chat logs so I always knew what she was putting in my head...and then one day, I found myself buying a webcam and I didn't know why I thought it was a good idea."

Brenda wished she could believe that everyone else in the group didn't know exactly what she was glossing over when she recounted this. But they probably all understood that when she said, "I bought a webcam", she meant, "I bought a webcam and then SuzyQ tranced me through voice chat, and I was staring at my own image on the webcam and watching my eyes get glazed and vacant and dreamy as her voice stilled my mind, and seeing myself go into trance made me go deeper, and then I watched myself take off my clothes and it was so hot to see an obedient, mindless sex slave stripping naked and fingering herself for her Mistress and knowing that it was me."

Instead, she just said, "It took me almost a year to get out of that. I'd keep telling myself it was a bad idea, that I was giving too much of myself away and getting sucked in too deep, but then all those layers of programming would--" She shook her head. "No. It wasn't even the programming. I was getting off on it, that was why I wouldn't stop. Mind control makes me horny. I wanted to get sucked in too deep. I wanted to give myself away. That was why it all worked."

The others actually applauded at that, briefly. "That's a big step," Heidi said, "understanding that you have a need to be mind controlled. It's important to understand that you've wanted that as long as you can remember."

Brenda smiled a little at Heidi's praise. "But I finally got away from SuzyQ. I swore it would never happen again, for real this time. I tried experimenting with other kinks and fetishes, getting into the local BDSM scene to see if I couldn't satisfy that part of myself some other way. But...about three months ago, I found this video on YouTube of a girl getting hypnotized. And I couldn't help it, I started picturing myself sitting in that chair instead of her. I wound up finding tons of videos like that, bookmarking them and watching them over and over. I would read all the local fetish listings every month, looking through the doms and dommes to see if I couldn't find one, just one that talked about hypnosis. I'd even started downloading hypnosis mp3s again. And then I saw your ad in the back of 'Minnesota BDSM Monthly'. I couldn't believe it at first; I thought I was alone."

She remembered the ad again as she talked. 'HYPNOSIS ADDICTS ANONYMOUS', it had said. 'Do you have problems separating your hypnosis fantasies from dangerous realities? Are you worried that you're letting mind control take you over? Are you afraid of losing your mind or just giving it away? We can help! Attend our meetings, and free yourself from your worries about erotic hypnosis once and for all!' She'd almost cried when she saw it. It felt like a lifeline in a life that was spinning out of control all over again.

"You're not alone," Heidi said. "We can help you. We're here to help you." She looked around at the rest of the group. "I think it's time for us to go over the Twelve Steps again." The other members nodded enthusiastically, and Heidi looked back over at Brenda. "Since this is your first meeting, you won't be able to join in the recitation. Just focus on me, and follow along as we go through the principles. Next time, you'll find yourself joining right along."

Brenda nodded. "Good girl," Heidi said. "Now, the First Step, everyone."

The group repeated as one, "I admit that I am powerless against hypnosis, and that my life has become unmanageable."

"Very good!" Heidi said. "It's important to take that first step, and understand that you have no power to resist hypnosis at all. There was a time, perhaps, when you thought you could participate in hypnosis without giving in completely, when you thought that you could fight those commands and live your own life, but now you know that you cannot manage your own life. You need someone else to do it for you."

Brenda furrowed her brow in slight confusion as she looked at Heidi's radiant expression. Was that really how it was supposed to work? She thought it meant that hypnosis was making her life unmanageable, not that--

But they were already chorusing the Second Step. "I have come to believe that a power greater than myself can restore me to sanity."

"That's right," Heidi said soothingly. "You understand now that the only way to restore your mind is to give in to a power greater than your own. You're powerless and helpless, the First Step taught you that, so now it's time to find a greater power and submit to it completely. By giving your mind to that power, letting it order and arrange your thoughts, you will find it very easy to think in the patterns as you're told to, and let that other, more powerful person manage your life for you."

Brenda tried to shake her head, to say that this wasn't right, that something was twisted and confused about the way Heidi was explaining things...but her tongue seemed thick and clumsy in her mouth. The more she tried to analyze Heidi's statements, the more she tried to think about how they reminded her of the inductions she'd heard, and the more she remembered those inductions, the more she remembered how well they'd worked at putting her into trance. Those trances and the post-hypnotic suggestions to be a better, more controllable subject came easily to mind and made her head feel hazy and fuzzy as she focused on Heidi like she'd been told to.

"I have made a decision to turn my will and my life over to Heidi," the group chorused, their words echoing in Brenda's mind as she stared into Heidi's eyes. She'd never felt anything like this, the way that the whole group just seemed to think it was perfectly natural and right to submit and obey and go deeper, and the pressure it created on Brenda to go along was practically unbearable. Everyone else knew this was logical and sensible, and the parts of her mind that she'd been trying to suppress so hard for so long agreed. She had a need to be mind controlled. She'd wanted that as long as she could remember.

"Very, very good," Heidi purred out. "Every meeting helps you to understand that more and more, showing you all the ways that giving your mind over to me, that making me the higher power in your life makes that life so pleasant and so fulfilling. It feels good to obey, it always has, and I'm here to help you by making sure you have someone perfect and powerful to obey. That's why you've always been afraid of giving in completely to erotic hypnosis for so long...because you were waiting for me to control you."

Brenda tried to block out Heidi's soft, seductive voice, but she was also trying to stand on legs that felt weak and rubbery, and she was trying to keep her eyes open when they felt like they weighed a ton, and it seemed like she didn't have enough energy to do everything at once. So she just let Heidi's words drift in through her ears like fog to blank out her sleepy brain, knowing that she could no longer deny how aroused all this was making her. It was a fantasy come to life, and that made it impossible to fight even if she wasn't such a pliant, suggestible tranceslut...

The group spoke again, "We have made a fearless and searching inventory of our minds, and rooted out all resistance to Heidi's will."

"Yes, and you're doing it again right now, aren't you?" Heidi asked. Brenda felt her knees give way as she slumped back down in her chair, unsure of whether to fight the mental battle or the physical one and losing both as a result. "Every time you repeat these Steps, you find yourself going deeper into your own minds, finding any resistance you might have missed and wearing it away. Over and over again, each time going deeper, each time becoming more obedient. And every time you try to resist, these Steps come to mind again, up out of the back of your mind where they sleep, to help erase that resistance completely before they sleep again and you forget."

Heidi's deep, hypnotic eyes seemed to flicker and dance in Brenda's vision as she felt her eyelids flutter with strain. It was no good; she was too deeply conditioned from years of longing for hypnotic submission. Heidi had chosen her victims well, all of them. "We have admitted to Heidi and ourselves that our obedient trance makes us aroused, and that being helpless makes us horny," the group responded, and Brenda knew the words were sinking deep into her mind like venom pumped from a snake's fangs.

"That's right," Heidi said, "and as you get more and more aroused, it becomes harder and harder to stop yourself from expressing that. Because you have no resistance to that arousal, no resistance to those commands, no resistance to my will." Brenda felt herself squirm on her chair. She wasn't as deeply conditioned as the others, but recounting so many erotic experiences had left her primed and needy, and her pussy was already tingling as her hands twitched in an unconscious urge to masturbate.

"We are ready to have Heidi satisfy these urges through sexual intercourse," the group husked out, and Brenda couldn't help herself anymore. She lazily pulled her t-shirt over her head, letting the cool air caress her flushed and warm body. It was hard to take off her bra, because her hands kept getting distracted by the feel of her breasts; but she felt someone behind her helping her out, and then more hands on her body assisted her in taking off her shoes and pulling off her jeans and panties.

"Very good," she heard Heidi say, and her eyes opened hazily to see that the whole group was naked now, including Heidi. "And you're so ready for that now, so ready to give in and pleasure each other, pleasure me at my command, at my will." She heard Lois panting, saw Sasha's fingers trembling with lust. Luke and Bryan were both hard as rocks, their cocks dripping with precum. The sight aroused her more, but did nothing to free her from trance. She'd been too well-conditioned for that.

"We humbly beg Heidi to allow us sexual pleasure," the others chorused, and even though Brenda didn't know the words, she agreed wholeheartedly with the sentiment. It felt like the only things her empty mind could still register were obedience and lust, and only the former kept her from giving in completely to the latter.

"You may," Heidi said magnanimously, and Brenda's fingers plunged into her own pussy and began to pump mindlessly. Next to her, Luke leaned over and put his mouth on her nipple, suckling at her breast and flicking his tongue over the aureolae in a way that made her whimper and whine like a puppy at the sheer bliss of it all. Bryan got onto his back so that Heidi could straddle his face with her thighs, and Sasha climbed onto Bryan's cock and began to ride him with a look of mindless pleasure on her face as she stared dreamily into Heidi's eyes.

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