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Click hereAuthor's notes: Some (many?) struggle with the knowledge that those closest to us disapprove, in one way or another, of our fantasies and some aspect of ourselves. Fantasies that most would not consider perverted nor deviant, but simple, every day fantasies. I wrote this poem as my own attempt to deal with that, hoping that the writing would help me shove the problem aside, if not solve it. Writing the poem hasn't helped in the long run. And I don't know how to solve the problem. But here is the poem.
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One day a door closed,
And another opened.
I struggle to forget the fantasies that lie
Behind that closed door.
I strive more to explore
The promise beyond the open door.
I peer ahead as through a prism,
The light refracted by objects of my desire,
Awash in waves I do not sense, nor scent, nor hear.
Behind me, forbidden to my yearning,
A magnet’s pull, unrelenting,
A dark seducing tunnel
Beckoning with want, need, greed.
How can it be so overwhelming, or I so weak?
At last, resigned, I turn away, close all doors,
And speak no more.
Lock memory and need inside,
And hide…
Until next time.
I've just read some of your poetry and you are extraordinarily literate and articulate. That's usually the product of a highly intelligent and observant person who reads.
Denying is a curious poem. It's clearly about your decision to self-sacrifice about something. I have no idea what that thing is and therefore can't pass an opinion about whether it's a worthy thing to abandon. I nevertheless feel compelled to say that maybe you can have it both ways. I think that too much self-sacrifice isn't good.
So it's a poem that caused me to react. And I'm not sure why.
Cheers,
Blair
It is not just your writing style but also your choice of subject matter and philosophy that I am enjoying in a number of your poems 5ed