As the sun went down in the distance, a tear rolled down my cheek. I smiled, thinking about how great it was the first time I watched the sunset from this viewpoint. No matter how many times you've seen it, there's just something special about watching the sun going down from the rear deck of a cruise ship. Kathryn had loved it. I guess it was only fitting that this would be one of the places that she'd want some of herself to be forever.
Kathryn had been the love of my life and I seriously doubted that I'd ever find her like again, though supposedly I had many years to try. She'd left a hole in my heart that had a particular size and shape that would be difficult if not impossible to fill.
The thrumming of the ship's powerful engines as we moved inexorably towards our next port was almost musical as I contemplated the task before me. This would have been difficult for a man of any age, but at only 31 having to do it was even more so. Especially since she'd been the very first and only significant love of my life.
I thought about her and it immediately brought a smile to my face. Somehow I could never be sad when I thought about Kath. That gave me the courage to reach into my jacket and pull out the small anodized aluminum container that this trip was about.
"I love you Kath," I said. Then a slight breeze kicked up blowing some of the salt spray over me. I unscrewed the top and could go no further. There was a giant sized lump in my throat. Suddenly my legs could barely support me. For a second I almost put the top back on the container, but two hands grabbed the container and my hands lending extra support.
"You can do it Dad," he said. "It's what she wanted."
"I know," I told him. "But it just feels like I'm pouring her out. Or...or throwing her away. It just feels wrong. I feel like I should keep her with me." I was crying like a baby. The tears were moving unimpeded from my eyes, down my cheeks and making little marks on my shirt.
"What would you do instead, Dad?" asked my 50 year old son. "Keep her in an urn on your mantle?" He looked at me with sympathy in his eyes. "We both know that isn't what my mother wanted. I understand exactly how you feel. You need some physical part of her that you can touch or see, to hold onto. I knew you would Dad. So I cheated just a tiny bit." He handed me a gold chain with a glass pendant on it.
"There's a tiny bit of her in here that you can keep forever," he smiled.
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I'll bet that after reading the touching scene you've just read you're confused as hell. What do we have so far? A 31 year old man and his 50 year old son. About a third of you are thinking, Oh shit, StangStar is doing another time travel story. Close to another third are thinking God Damn that guy and his typos, he needs to get a new editor, that literary idiot mikothebaby let a big mistake get through again. The last third are just wondering how the hell I'm going to get the Mustang on this boat. Well all of you are going to have to keep your shirts on because in order to understand this heart wrenching and emotional tableau, we may as well start at the beginning.
In the beginning there was Heaven and the earth and...
Sorry...wrong beginning. Let's try this again.
My name is Raymond Jordan. When this all started I was 20 years old, in my third year of a four year program in architecture. I was leaning back in a big comfortable chair in my dorm room while my girlfriend and the love of my life at that point sucked my dick.
My eyes were closed and I was straining to avoid cumming but the tingling in my nether regions and the simultaneous curling of my toes were making it difficult.
Kathryn's head bobbed up and down nastily as her mouth worked its magic. The slurping and gagging sounds she made only added to the experience. I was almost there. "Oh yeah baby, just a little more, "I said. Then she stopped.
"Ray," she said smiling at me. "I need a favor."
Why the hell was she doing this to me if not just to be cruel? She already knew that I'd probably do anything she asked. Kathryn, like me was twenty years old. Where I was a normal twenty year old guy she was the stuff dreams are made of.
She had long blond hair that fell halfway down her back, the clearest blue eyes you've ever seen and lips that were just made for sin. She was tall at 5' 8" and had the body to go with it. She was slim but everything on her was perfect for her size. Boobs that were just a handful and long coltish legs completed the view. Her waist was small enough for you to get both of your hands around it and her butt was so tiny and tight that you could bounce a quarter off of it and get 2 dimes and a nickel back in change.
There was no way that I or any breathing male could refuse her anything.
"Ray, I know that this is our 6 month anniversary and it's a really important day for us, short term. But in the long term picture, it really isn't that big of a deal. When we're married and have kids we won't even remember today. Anyway, I know you wanted to have a little celebration and go out, but baby if I don't meet with my study group tonight I won't pass my Econ final," she said.
I knew that she'd been having trouble with that class and was just hoping for a "C."
"So, Sweetheart," I said. "Go to your study group. We'll celebrate a different night. Now where were we?"
I wanted my dick back in her warm wet mouth badly.
"Uhm, Ray, that's not the favor," she said. Suddenly my Spidey senses were tingling and the tingling in my nuts was fading.
"Remember when I told you about my Grandmother?" she asked. My Spidey senses were off the chart.
"Well she came into town today," she cooed. "And I kind of told her that you and I would go with her, to this thing she's doing. But since I really need to study, I was hoping that you could take her for me." She looked at me with those puppy dog eyes and made that mouth that I still wanted wrapped around my peter, pout.
I still can't believe that I was stupid enough to agree to it. I also can't believe that she never did finish my blowjob.
Anyway, two hours later I found myself on her parent's porch. I was extremely pissed off but trying to hide it. I knocked on the door, wearing the only suit I owned. In the back of my mind I hoped that granny would take one look at me, find out that Kathryn wasn't coming and cancel.
I made up my mind that there were just several things I would not accept. Number one; under no condition would I accept the old bag drooling on me. Number two; there would be no fondling allowed. I'd heard that a lot of these old women take liberties with young guys. Number three; there would be no holding onto my arm and pretending that we were an item. Old women tended to do that to make all of the other old biddies think they had something going on. And lastly, this was a one time thing, done only to help Kathryn out. Those were my rules and I was sticking to them.
I only hoped that the old bag didn't babble too much and didn't have that C/T look. You know how a lot of very old ladies wear too much make up and look like a cross between circus clowns and transvestites. God, I hope I wasn't going to have to help her walk, or worse still, help with her walker or her wheel chair.
Kathryn's Mother, Mona, whom I'd met many times opened the door and invited me in.
"Thank you so much for doing this, Ray," she smirked. I'd always thought that Mona didn't really care for me. She always spoke to me as if she knew something that I didn't, like I was the punch line in a really big joke. But she spoke to her husband in the same tone so I'd accepted that it was just her way.
It no longer bothered me because I thought that she was funny as well. Have you ever encountered a parent who just hates you? A person who no matter how much you kiss their ass just makes you feel that they don't think you're good enough to date their kid. Mona's attitude didn't bother me anymore because I had the perfect comeback for her in my own mind.
Whenever she looked at me or spoke to me condescendingly, I just thought, "Mona, it doesn't matter what you think because I'm fucking your daughter, a lot!"
She'd look at me when I showed up at a party and she didn't like the outfit I was wearing. While she looked down her nose at me, like I should be wearing Jodhpurs, I'd smile and imagine her daughter sucking my dick and my sperm blowing right down her throat. Try it sometimes and you'll discover an all new tolerance for your mother in law.
"She'll be right down," smirked Mona, looking over my suit and pursing her lips. I just smiled back at her while running my mental picture.
Kathryn's father on the other hand was a great guy. We genuinely got along great and I liked him.
"Hi, sorry to keep you waiting," said a very musical voice from behind me.
I composed myself to be polite to granny and turned with a fake smile on my face. The smile got bigger and more real as soon as I caught sight of her. It was all I could do not to break my own drooling rule as my jaw dropped and my dick rose.
Standing before me was probably...definitely the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen.
She was more petite than her granddaughter but curvier. She stood about 5' 1' maybe 5' 2" early in the morning on a good day.
She had blond hair, the same shade as her granddaughter's and though shorter, just below her shoulders, her hair seemed better. Shit everything about her seemed better.
Her hair wasn't bone straight like her granddaughter's. It was wavy and just seemed to flow and tumble with each movement of her head. Her eyes weren't blue, they were green and fiery. Only very small crow's feet in their corners gave any clue as to her age.
Her entire face just radiated joy. Her body was sculpted. A thin and tiny waist supported large breasts that had to be natural from the way they moved. Her ass wasn't slim and boyish like her granddaughter's. It may have simply been due to age and gravity but her ass was rounder and fuller. Her legs were perfect and even her feet were beautiful inside of her spike heeled pumps.
"I'm Kathryn," she said smiling. I almost swallowed my tongue trying to reply which made her giggle again.
"K-K-Kathryn," I managed to stammer.
"The original," she smirked, looking me over. Energy just poured from her.
I had to revise all of the rules I'd made.
"Often imitated, never duplicated," she laughed. "Of course you can call me Grandma, since you'll probably be marrying my namesake. Come on we'd better get going. We don't want to be late."
Once we got outside, she took my arm and leaned into me. I got a brief whiff of a light floral scent and nearly swooned over her again.
"We can take my car if you'd like," she said pointing at a silver gray Jaguar. She handed me the keys and I forgot all about my 14 year old Chevy S10. The Jag was a dream to drive. It was however a rental. She told me that she always rented one because it was the same model of car that she drove back home so it felt familiar.
We ended up going to a concert by the local symphony. They performed a smattering of pieces by Mozart with several guest conductors and soloists. I was never really into classical music but I have to say that I enjoyed myself and Kathryn did as well. We talked during the intermission and I found out more about her. She introduced me to several friends of hers as her "date."
I had no problem with it and tentatively put my arm around her, which she didn't rebuff.
"I wish you'd done that earlier," she said. "It's really cold in the auditorium."
The gentleman in me came out and I wrapped my jacket over her shoulders. The look she gave me was worth several million bucks, and I blushed embarrassingly.
"My granddaughter's taste in men has improved," she whispered to me during the second half of the show. She constantly whispered to me then and drew several angry stares that she just deflected by smiling. We have to go and get ice cream when this is over," she said and I nodded. Truthfully I didn't want it to end. During the last piece of the evening, her favorite, she grabbed my hand and held it. I'll never hear Eine Klein Nacht Musik again without remembering that night.
Then we drove to her favorite ice cream place. I guess I was expecting some out of the way mom and pop store. We went down to the riverfront and hit a ColdStone creamery. We sat on the grass and ate ice cream as we watched the big boats slowly passing by in front of us with the stars over head.
"Ray," she said to me. "I've thoroughly enjoyed myself tonight. And to think I was going to try to get rid of you." She started laughing after she said that.
"Don't look at me like that," she said. "You just don't understand the situation. My family is weird as hell. First off there are my sons. I have three of them. They're all married. They all worry about poor old Grandma. They don't want me to either get hurt or get into trouble, so someone has to watch me. My sons all love me, especially Thomas, your future father in law. But they're all busy raising kids of their own and have lives of their own. So sometimes they end up passing me off to someone else. Mona and I don't get along..."
"Imagine that," I interrupted. "I think she's jealous of you."
"What are you talking about Ray?" she smiled.
"Nothing," I said sheepishly. This woman made me as bashful as a virgin.
"So anyway, a lot of the time, I get handed down to Kathryn or one of her cousins. This time when I found out that even my granddaughter was handing me off, I was a little perturbed. But it all worked out really well from my viewpoint. I can't remember having this much fun in a long time," she said. "Thank you."
"Are we done already?" I asked.
"What did you have in mind?" she asked smiling impishly.
I didn't tell her what I really had in mind. "Want to go dancing?" I offered.
"Oooh!" she squealed. "I haven't been dancing in...." she smiled again.
"A very long time. But these shoes wouldn't be good for that. I'd end up falling all over you," she said.
"I wouldn't mind that," I said quickly. She smiled again. This woman could easily own me with just that smile.
"Wait, we're not very far from Katt's apartment. I'll just borrow some of her shoes," she said.
"Uhm she's not home," I said. "She's cramming with her study group."
"Well don't you have a key to her apartment? She has a key to your dorm room," she smiled.
"Well I kind of don't," I said.
"Why not?" she asked. "Well it doesn't matter, I do. Let's go."
We were actually only about 8 blocks from Kathryn's apartment. "Doesn't it get confusing with both of you being named Kathryn?" I asked.
"Nope," she smiled. "Among the family, I'm Kath and she's Katt."
That fucking Jaguar's ride was so smooth that it was spoiling me. There's something to be said for a classy, well made automobile that simply cannot be overstated.
We took the elevator up to Kathryn's apartment. I'd told Kath that I wouldn't be much help in finding the shoes she wanted because all I know about women's shoes is that they're smaller than men's and more expensive.
We weren't particularly quiet, as we opened the door to the apartment. But then since they didn't hear us, it didn't really matter. The door to Kathryn's apartment faces her bedroom. There on the bed, my Kathryn was bouncing up and down on some guy I'd never seen before. Another guy was fucking her ass at the same time. Meanwhile Kathryn was giving a far better blowjob than she gave me earlier to a third guy.
Just as the guy getting the blow job turned his head, his eyes met mine. I just waved and closed the door.
Kath looked at me and said, "I guess I'm gonna have to dance in these shoes huh?"
I slowly nodded. "Kath," I began. "I'm not sure I w..."
"No way, Raymond Jordan," she said. "You asked me to go dancing. So you have to keep your word. Let's go."
We got back in the car and I started driving woodenly towards the club I'd planned to go to.
"Ray, sometimes life does really shitty things to you. Stronger people learn to put all of those little things in boxes and keep all of the boxes separate," she said. "Yep my idiot granddaughter is doing something terribly bad to you. You have to make a decision about what you're going to do about it. But the thing to remember is that life is very short. When you get to be my age you'll realize that no one ever dies thinking that they had too damned much fun. They always wish that they'd done more."
"Whether you break up with my granddaughter or not, it has nothing to do with us going dancing. When you look back on this 5 years from now, do you want to say, "The night I found out that Katt was cheating on me, I went home all depressed and went to sleep." Or do you want to say, "The night I found out that skank was fucking around on me I put her out of my mind and went out and danced my ass off."
She held out her hand in the car and I took it. "Let's go dance our asses off Kath," I said.
The rest of the way there Kath kept singing and letting little laughs out.
"Are you laughing at me?" I asked. "I guess I am kind of a sucker."
"No sweetie," she said. "It's just that you told me that she was cramming with her study group. You were almost right. It looked like her study group was really cramming it into her."
Kath and I danced until they threw us out. The music was loud and soon as Kath suggested, I just put all of my pain and hurt over what Katt was doing into a box in my head and forgot about it until I needed to deal with it.
Kath quickly learned that dancing today was very different from they way they'd done it years ago. You didn't learn how to do certain dances and practice them and finally perform them. You just got out on the floor and shook your ass to the music any way you wanted to.
Kath had the ass for shaking and she got a lot of compliments. She refused to dance with anyone except me. In the dimly lit club I don't think anyone knew how old she was. That is except for me and I didn't care. Several of my friends came over to me and let me know that they'd seen me. I knew that a couple of them would probably report back to Kathryn that they had seen me here.
When I drove her home Kath gave me the nicest hug I'd ever had on her son's doorstep. I'm not sure whether she intended to press her breasts into me when she did it, but it got my salmon swimming upstream. She laughed at my embarrassment.
"I'm probably not going to get to be your grandma, am I?" she asked.
"Probably not," I said. "But I really enjoyed tonight. You're a very special lady."
"Good," she said. "I'd have been a shitty grandma for you anyway. Talk to you soon."
I was too preoccupied with my growing misery to even register what she'd said. I climbed into my truck and drove back to my dorm, missing the Jag's smooth ride all the way.
When I got to my dorm, I noticed that the message light was blinking on my phone. I looked at the screen and saw that I had a couple of messages from my Kathryn. I listened to the first one, I hoped that she'd be telling me about a bunch of guys who'd drugged her and raped her. No such luck.
"Hey man of mine. I just wanted to thank you for watching my old granny. Hope she wasn't too much trouble. I love you soooo much and I will make all of this up to you. I feel so much better about my class after tonight. I'm sure that with just a few more study sessions like tonight I'll get my "C." I owe it all to you. Call me."
Then I remembered where I'd seen the guy she was blowing. He was the TA in her Econ class.
The second message was even stupider. I was thinking that maybe the guy had told her about seeing us. But then I thought about it. If I was fucking some hot chick, would I tell her that her boyfriend had been there watching her? If I hadn't had my turn, probably not. I could tell by the message that she still didn't know. But I was sure the guy was laughing at me, bit time.