pvtfun

marriage1: lost virginity to my wife. over 15 years was cheated on, cucked, & sexually broken. for survival, converted angst/sadness into shame/arousal.
marriage2: very different than m1, but after medical op, wife has been totally sexless over 15 years. NO sexual intimacy. resorted to compulsive masturbation for my pleasure. find myself incessantly reliving & fantasizing scenes/experiences with my ex.
i'm sexually submissive and underendowed. since all i have is fantasy, i enjoy a nice head fuck.