Melon-colly

//Melancholy(n.) sadness, gloom, depression.//

Darkness surrounds me.
Makes me see... Absolutely
Nothing.
It controls me.
At least..
I think.

Two years ago, that's when
You proposed.
Now you seem to have
yourself caught up in
Someone else's hair.
While I watch you out my window
The sight I cannot bare.
But that was then..
Now I'm a lot more thin.
I wonder where the end is..
Or is there any end?
I am in Melancholy world.
A world blackness,
Nothingness,
Uncleanliness,
Selfishness,
Sinfulness..
Everyday is a day without
My High Power.
Because I do not have one.
As day passes night
As night passes day,
It doesn't matter
The darkness mad it clear
"I'm here.. To stay."
My lip will quiver at the ends
Of my dreams,
I fall apart at the seems.
Just going by ripping things.
Torturing dogs,
Starving them,
Beating them,
Burning them,
Giving them my mark of
A "D",
Just to make them mean.
Just because I haft to go through
This pain,
Your first birth would have been
In vain,
Because now because of you
I'm so insanely insane,
That I swore to myself,
When your first born came,
It's life would be mine,
Because It's the one
will take.  
To break your heart
as you broke mine.
Then you too,
Will do aimlessly
Roam,
Roam in the dark.
And never will you hear me
say again:
"I warned you, Clark."