02 - Always, Yours

WARNING: This story contains graphic sexual content as well as BDSM. This story also contains a wide age gap. (Dominant 21, Submissive 35).!!!This story contains mourning the loss of a lover from suicide.!!!

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C A S P I A N

Caspian smiled and glanced over at Hayden, meeting his eyes. Hayden looked gorgeous, his deep blue eyes looking around the back patio of my house in Bristol. It was mid-summer, warm outside. Hayden was lounging back against the lawn-chairs by the pool, looking out over the secluded backyard, trees hiding them from the closest neighbor entirely. Caspian had picked out this house, nearly nine years earlier, because of how beautiful and secluded the place was. He loved the way the sun bounced off of Hayden's beautiful skin, how his blond hair seemed somehow lighter in it.

"What?" Hayden asked, smirking at Caspian. Caspian blushed and pushed up his sunglasses so that they completely covered his eyes and he couldn't peek over the rim of them. He took a slow sip of wine as he observed Hayden's dark blue eyes peer at him in curiosity.

"Nothing just saw a bird over at the trees." Caspian fibbed, smiling teasingly at Hayden. Hayden cocked his head to the side and grabbed Caspian by the arm, pulling him forward and onto his lap. Caspian straddled him immediately, giggling a little and shaking his head. "Be careful! Don't spill my wine!" He cried out, trying to keep from spilling his wine all over the towels, but failing miserably. He couldn't help but laugh and wrap his arms around Hayden's neck.

Hayden gripped his hip in one hand and his cheek in the other, pulling his face down so that their lips met. Caspian smiled against his lips, letting him lead them in a slow and teasing kiss. Hayden had two modes, sexually speaking, it was somewhere between a romance movie and a porno. Caspian never minded, the spontaneity was a huge turn-on for him. Caspian whimpered and parted his lips as Hayden slowly ran his tongue over his bottom lip. Hayden slipped his tongue into Caspian's mouth, slowly and deliberately searching every corner of his mouth, seemingly memorizing it.

Caspian smiled and blushed a little when Hayden pulled away from him and grabbed his sunglasses by the sides and gently pulled them off of his face. Caspian bit his lip and lowered his eyes a little, feeling embarrassed at how bare he suddenly felt in Hayden's arms. They were so close now, he could smell the shampoo that Hayden used. He could see the tiny little imperfections he'd come to love. The little razor-thin scar on Hayden's forehead, barely visible just at his hairline, the crooked nose that somehow fit perfectly there, a few littered acne scars... Caspian had fallen in love with each of his little imperfections. Hayden pulled Caspian back down and kissed him again.

"Marry me," Hayden murmured, looking into Caspian's eyes. His eyes were scanning, watching Caspian closely.

"What?" Caspian asked, his eyes widening and tears springing to his eyes. Hayden just pressed another gentle kiss on his lips and smiled a little.

"Marry me," Hayden murmured again, his lips brushing against Caspian's as he said it. Caspian leaned forward and kissed him for a second. "I love you Cas. Marry me." Caspian sucked in a deep breath, and he nodded, a simple little movement that caused Hayden to smile really big and lean up a little bit, kissing him again. "I want to hear you say it." Hayden's lips began trailing down Caspian's neck, making him whimper. His mind fogged over a little bit, his heart racing in his chest.

"Say what?" Caspian whimpered as Hayden trailed kisses down his chest and settled over his nipple, sucking a little bit. Caspian moaned, his dick jumping to attention.

"Say you'll marry me," Hayden murmured after a moment, his warm breath ghosting over Caspian's hard, slightly wet nipple, making Caspian whimper again. Caspian nodded again.

"I'll marry you, asshat. But only if you can find me!" Caspian teased a little, standing up and running towards the door. Hayden paused for a moment, taken aback before he smirked wickedly and stood up.

"Game on," Hayden hollered, chasing after Caspian. Caspian had the advantage because he'd visited the house plenty of times, but the fun was in the chase, not winning. Despite having been able to hide in the countless compartments that could've probably hidden him for hours, he runs straight towards the farthest bedroom, Hayden right on his heels. Caspian had already made it halfway up the stairs when he felt Hayden's hand graze him. He smirked a little. He purposefully sped up a little, acting like he was going towards the bedroom.

At the last moment, he turned and took the first door around the corner, slipping it silently shut behind him, and giggled. He knew he'd eventually be found, could even hear Hayden's footsteps right outside the door, before they seemed to disappear. He turned his back and looked around the room. The sound of the door opening and hitting the wall carelessly made him jump, but he didn't have time to react or run because within half a second of the sound of the door flying open, he found himself flying through the air towards the bed, landing with a quiet bounce looking up at Hayden.

Hayden got down on top of him and smirked, pushing the hair out of his eyes and cradling the side of his face. "I got you." Hayden teased, tweaking one of his nipples and leaning down to kiss him.

"Mhmm!" Caspian hummed, pleasure thrumming through his body at the touch. Their lips were moving together slowly, Caspian noticed finally that his dick was achingly hard. "I let you get me, so... what's my prize?" Hayden smiled mischievously and looked down over Caspian with a heated, lustful gaze. Hayden didn't really have to say anything, Caspian knew just what his prize was.

Hayden.

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Caspian was standing beside Hayden, Hayden's arm was wrapped possessively around Cas's waist, his fingers digging into his slender hip. Caspian was holding a glass of wine in one hand, and his other arm was laced around behind Hayden, his hand slipped a little into the waistband of Hayden's pants. The pair were standing up in front of their friends and family at the reception. They'd had a small ceremony that only family was invited to, but the reception was open to anyone who they knew.

The whole wedding planning, ceremony, and reception was bittersweet for Caspian. He was thrilled about being married to Hayden, but the whole process brought up memories from marrying Jeffrey. It'd been three years since Jeffrey had died, he'd mourned and picked up the pieces but some days he still couldn't shake missing him. He'd loved it with Hayden, had felt elated the whole time, invited everyone he still talked to. But he still missed Jeffrey.

He had actually had a really amazing day, he'd spent the night before and the morning curled up in bed with Hayden, not really doing anything but spending time together. They'd finally managed to force themselves out of bed just before nine, and showered, then dressed and headed towards the venue together. They had opted out of all of the traditions, just going for something simple that made them happy. They didn't really want a huge fancy wedding, they just wanted something to solidify what they both already knew. It was nothing near as glamorous as Caspian had initially thought it may have been, but it was perfect. He loved the simple ceremony, felt that it was more intimate that way.

Amanda was sitting at the first table up by the front of the room, smiling at Caspian. Jeffrey's mother Teresa was beside her, and his brother as well. Caspian could see a few of their friends from before the accident wandering around, probably having seen the notification on Facebook or someone tagged them in the initial post. Caspian saw Adam and Miranda sitting at the table next to Jeffrey's, with Caspian's parents and little brother.

Caspian's little brother, Cecil, was twenty and adopted. He'd been abandoned at the church his parents went to, and they'd taken him in and raised him from the time he was two weeks old. He was a brown-haired, blue-eyed kid with the intelligence of the next Stephen Hawking. He was a prodigy, playing three instruments and speaking six different languages. He went to an elite boarding school in the states during the school year and came home only on holidays and summer vacations. He had excelled past everyone in the school and was graduated by sixteen with enough credits to start as a junior in college.

Caspian giggled as a familiar song played over the stereo system, and Hayden pulled him out to the center of the floor. Hayden wrapped his arms around Cas's waist, and Caspian wrapped his arms around Hayden's neck, letting Hayden lead him in a dance. They were so close together a piece of paper couldn't have slipped between them, Hayden's forehead resting on Caspian's shoulder. "You're mine, now," Hayden said, his hands clutching a little bit tighter at Cas's waist. Cas giggled a little and rolled his eyes.

"I'm yours now," Caspian agreed, pressing a little kiss against the base of Hayden's neck.

"God, I want to fuck you," Hayden said, lowering his voice to a whisper so that only Caspian could hear him. "Push you up against the nearest wall and just ravish you." Caspian sucked in a deep breath, the feeling of Hayden's warm breath ghosting over his ear made him shiver and a blush rush to his face. He quietly whimpered.

"Everyone's looking at us," Caspian murmured shyly, glancing around the room. He noticed several people watching them and he couldn't help but feel like they knew just what Hayden was whispering in his ear.

"Let them watch," Hayden said quietly, putting his hand on Cas's chin and leaning down a little to kiss him. Caspian's face flooded with heat, but he didn't even try to escape, he met him halfway and kissed him just as eagerly as Hayden kissed him. Hayden controlled the kiss, his tongue slipping into Caspian's mouth and lightly playing with Caspian's tongue. Hayden was keeping it as innocent as he could, but it didn't stop Caspian from quickly unraveling.

Hayden pulled away just in time for his Aunt Martha to come over and put her hand on his shoulder and start talking. Caspian couldn't focus on a single word she was saying because of the lust coursing through him was not allowing him to think about anything but when he was going to get to be alone with Hayden again. Caspian absentmindedly grabbed a glass of wine off a tray as one of the drink carriers came by and fanned himself discreetly, his bright red cheeks cooling down slightly. A gentle hand on his shoulder made him jump and he turned his head to look at the hand touching his only to see Hayden's hand on his shoulder.

Caspian immediately smiled and put his free hand on top of Hayden's. "I'm sorry, I got distracted," Caspian said immediately and Hayden shrugged a little.

"Aunt Martha was just saying how she is the one who gave us the tickets to the Bahamas," Hayden said.

"Oh, thank you so much, the Bahamas are beautiful. It'll be a lot of fun." Caspian said, smiling at Hayden's aunt. "I apologize, it's a little warm in here, isn't it?" Caspian asked, and she nodded a bit and smiled.

"Oh you are perfectly fine, I imagine you're probably a little scatterbrained after a long day." She said kindly and Caspian smiled gratefully and nodded his head. He was relieved that she thought he was just tired instead of the real reason, which was that Hayden had him stiff as a board between his legs.

"Definitely very scatterbrained," Caspian said, and Hayden laughed a little quietly. Hayden pinched Caspian on the ass, and Caspian smiled and shot him a dirty look. Hayden laughed again and rolled his eyes. Luckily, Martha didn't get a chance to say much else because she got swept away by a couple of guys who went to college with Hayden. Caspian had met them before, they came over to watch the super-bowl with Hayden and had slept over in a couple of the guest bedrooms. Hayden had like five guys over, made it like kind of a party and they all watched the game together. They were nice, taller, with broader shoulders and defined jawlines, they looked like a couple of linebackers.

"Congrats man didn't think you had it in you." Jason teased, grabbing him by the neck and playfully rubbing on his head. Hayden groaned and pushed him away.

"Thanks, man, don't mess up my hair though," Hayden said, and Jason laughed and shook his head. "What'd you mean? You're the one who couldn't keep a girlfriend for a month!" Hayden poked him and Jason shrugged.

"My hose likes to test out different spouts sometimes, what can I say," Jason said, and Hayden sighed and rolled his eyes.

"You know what they call that don't you?" Mike chimed in, smirking a little. "A man whore. You're a man whore."

"Guilty!" Jason laughed.

"All jokes aside though, congratulations," Mike said, patting Hayden on the shoulder. Hayden smiled, glanced around meeting Caspian's eyes. Hayden looked really happy, and Caspian couldn't help but hide his smile behind his wine glass and glance around the crowded room, more than ready to disappear into the car and fly off to the Bahamas.

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"Cas, you home?" Hayden called, and walked through the living room and into the kitchen, glancing around. Cas walked down the stairs, coming around the corner and into the kitchen, lightly tapping Hayden on the shoulder. Thirty seconds later he was pressed up against the edge of the counter, Hayden trapping him there. Before Cas could open his mouth to say a word Hayden was kissing him fiercely, taking his breath away. Hayden was pressing him against the wall and held him there, his tongue teasing Cas's tongue and his hands running all over Caspian's back.

Caspian pushed him away, sucking in a deep breath and looking over Hayden's face. "What's happened to make you so happy?"

"Guess who got a job at a doctor's office," Hayden said.

"Really, wow! Which one?" Caspian asked, and Hayden's smile got a little bit bigger.

"At the pediatrician's office. I'm going to be running labs all day." Hayden said, and Caspian smiled and nodded.

"So, a pediatricians office?" Caspian asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah, I love kids. I always wanted one, but I was gay and that isn't usually a possibility." Hayden said.

"You want kids?" Caspian murmured, turning around and grabbing a coffee mug off the hanger and the coffee pot out of the machine, pouring himself a cup of coffee and turning back around, looking up at Hayden again.

"Well, yeah. I know it's not really possible for us to have them though." Hayden said, and Caspian shrugged.

"It'd be possible once you graduate college," Caspian said, looking up at him with green eyes. He'd always wanted a child when the time was right, but Jeffrey had despised children so he'd just pushed the thought aside. He wasn't really one of those people who could handle the constant crying, the mess, and the lack of sleep.

"Really?" Hayden asked.

"Yeah, I've looked into adoption before, about five or so years ago. It's only about twenty to thirty thousand to adopt, and if we wanted to pay for a surrogate that'd be possible too." Caspian said.

"Why didn't you adopt before?" Hayden asked, and Caspian shrugged a little.

"Jeffrey wasn't really a kid person. He was a little bit too anxious, I suppose. I always wanted a child." Caspian said. "But, I was okay without one."

"I would be okay without one too, but if you want a child too, I'm definitely cool with it," Hayden said and ran his fingers down Caspian's cheek.

"Alright. Well, do you want to go out to celebrate your new job?" Caspian asked. Hayden smirked.

"I had a better idea of how to celebrate." Hayden pulled him close, ran his nose down the length of Caspian's neck. Caspian moaned silently, biting into his lip and blushing brightly.

"Oh really?" Caspian asked quietly.

"Definitely," Hayden said, and picked him up by his hips, placing him on the counter, slipping between his legs and wrapping his arms around Cas, leaning down and kissing him. Caspian wrapped his arms around Hayden and clutched onto him, letting Hayden lead their kiss. Hayden pulled away from his lips, kissing his cheek up to his ear, where Hayden licked the shell of his ear.

Hayden's hands came and began pulling at the hem of Caspian's shirt, pulling it off of him and throwing it out of the way, his right hand going to play with Caspian's nipple, tugging it lightly as he kissed him deeply, running his tongue along with Caspian's teeth slowly, tasting the coffee on his lips. Hayden trailed his other hand down Cas's spine, pulling him closer to his body, letting his hands move, and gripping him as close as he could.

Hayden was holding him as close to him as he could, kissing him as hard and as passionately as he could. Cas moaned, feeling Hayden grind their packages together, the fabric of their pant's the only thing separating their bodies from rubbing together. The pants were painfully tight around Caspian's dick, the material keeping him constricted, but the grinding of Hayden's hips allowed him to ignore it.

Hayden's hands dropped from his hips and began working the button of his pants. Caspian pulled back for a moment and glanced down at the hands that were now tugging anxiously at his zipper. Hayden didn't let them part for longer than a couple of seconds before he was slipping his hand into Caspian's pants and rubbing his erection slowly but deliberately, teasing the head with his fingertips before he palmed him through his underwear. "In the kitchen?" Caspian gasped out, his hands moving to Hayden's shoulders, gripping him as pleasure rushed over him in waves.

"Right here," Hayden growled into Caspian's ear, the sound sending little shockwaves of pleasure through him as he held on tight to Hayden. The pressure in his groin was building up, his dick getting harder and harder, his underwear tenting in the front between his open zipper. "Right now." Caspian whimpered, nodding his head desperately. He was so horny, the only thing he could think about was getting Hayden naked.

Caspian's hands tugged on Hayden's shirt, reaching down and grabbing the hem, pulling it over his head and tossing it carelessly to the side. Caspian ran his fingers over Hayden's smooth, toned abdomen, trailing his fingers lightly down to the waistband of his pants. Caspian unbuttoned and unzipped Hayden's pants, slipping his hand inside and into his boxers, cupping Hayden in his hand and slowly working his erection in his hands, matching the pace that Hayden went. While Caspian was stroking Hayden's dick, his other hand ventured up and began tugging at Hayden's nipple, moving his lips against Hayden's desperately.

Hayden pulled himself away and pushed his pants and underwear down, stepping out of them and pushing them out of the way. Then, he lifted Cas up and put him down on his feet, getting down and pulling the pants and underwear off of him before lifting him back up and pressing against his hole, and lightly pushing the tip of his dick at it. Caspian whimpered, wriggling down and pushing back.

Hayden sank into Caspian, and buried his face in his neck, biting down on him to stifle his moan. He didn't waste a moment and began fucking him, clinging onto Caspian tightly. He rocked their bodies, the rough and determined thrusts hitting Caspian's prostate with each movement of their hips. "You're mine," Hayden groaned, kissing the bright red hickey he'd left behind before trailing his lips up again and started kissing and biting at a spot right below Caspian's left ear. Caspian moaned, weaving his fingers through Hayden's hair. Caspian moaned out an agreement, unable to think about anything other than Hayden's dick moving in and out of him.

The feeling of Hayden's teeth on his skin, biting him--marking him--made Caspian whimper and press himself as close to Hayden as Possible. A gentle kiss atop his sensitive skin that Hayden had just finished biting on made Caspian let out a quiet whine.