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Click hereI had been blind. Stupid. Selfish. I had endangered Connor because I couldn't keep myself to myself, and because I let my feelings cloud my judgement. Connor deserved to know, she was right about that as well.
But she was wrong about one thing. Bringing Connor further into this, that wouldn't protect him. It would endanger him even more. If our closeness was what endangered him in the first place, then there was only one thing that would keep him out of harm's way.
There was only one thing I could do to protect myself, and to reverse the mistake I had made in getting close to Con. Gran's words still rang through in my head:"You could have refrained from engaging in anything more than a professional relationship with him!"
And that was it. That was the mistake that had put Connor in danger. That would be the cartel's motivation to get to him, to use him as leverage to get to me.
There was only one thing left to do. To finally, once and for all, save myself and everyone around me from the illusion that I could possibly live anything close to a normal life.
One thing left to do. Break a heart to save a life. My own heart, for Connor's life.
I didn't hesitate one second.
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Connor's POV:
Okay, so maybe Leo wasn't really the best actor I'd ever seen. He was really good, granted. Maybe better than me, if his casting video was any indication. But this morning? That was one of the worst performances I'd ever seen.
Whatever Leo was up to, it wasn't just a trip to a medical clinic to pick up the results of an STD test. His entire mood and demeanour had changed when he came back to my room this morning. It felt uncomfortable, forced and strained. There was definitely something else going on, and I didn't like the fact that he felt like he had to hide it from me. Even if it was none of my business, or something that he just didn't want to tell me, I would have felt less worried if he'd just told me that. Now I didn't know what to think.
I couldn't stop myself from thinking all sorts of things.
Had he gotten bad news from home? Did he have to go back? I almost didn't dare imagine the worst, what if Leo had second thoughts about last night? About what he wanted us to be?
Fuck.
I wouldn't be able to handle that. No way.
But I was getting ahead of myself. And besides, what we did last night was real. Fuck if it wasn't. I knew what I felt, and I knew that he felt it.
Never in my life had someone made me feel like that. Maybe it was intense, maybe a little too much so. And maybe it had scared Leo a bit. But no I'd be damned if I was going to let that pull him away from me.
He was mine now.
The knock on the door startled me a little bit. By the time my hand reached the doorknob, I'd already made up a textbook of arguments on why whatever Leo was thinking was completely wrong.
"Leo, listen we-"
Leo stood there in front of me, holding up his hands. The look in his eyes was stoic and crestfallen. It certainly didn't promise anything good. And it kept it's promise too.
"Con... We uhm.. We need to talk."
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Author's Note
So, this is where it really kicks off. There will be more than enough smut and fluff and whatever you guys are checking this website for on a daily basis, but this story is big and comes from a special place and I want to do it justice.
Stay tuned, because I'm back.
Question for the author. It’s been 1.5 years since the last chapter and I am not angry but do you know if you have time and desire to finish? I can see you are well liked but I’ve been stuck in too many permanent cliffhangers with the better gay romance stories so I usually unfortunately check for an ending before I start. They are my personal favorites but I know it’s harder for an author but I feel a bit broken with a great story but an unknown ending. I’ll check back later to see if you have plans. Thanks.
These days, early summer 2022, when I find a story like this, untouched for over a year, I worry that harm may have come to the author during the on-going pandemic. This is my second reading and now I remember why I didn’t comment and rate. I discovered this novel when this chapter posted. Read from the beginning and with the “stay tuned” in the A/N I decided to do just that. Now I’m following you, rightside27, with hope that you are well and that someday we’ll hear more. Talented storytelling without a doubt.
Great story, so far.. BUT where are the upcoming new chapters? I know it's a hell of a lot of work to write a good story, edit it over and over, and make it 'true' to the plot and ongoing story..
BUT: Maybe you are intentionally torturing us? LOL. ?
Anxiously anticipating.
DV19
To : rightside27 Do you have any sense as to a rough timeframe to complete your story series. I just got caught in another romance cliffhanger from 06 that I thought was completely done. I was so disappointed. Thanks in advance.