Dear Diary Ch. 04

"As long as she wants us to, lover. I want her as badly as you do right now, but this is her show. Maybe," she said, looking up at me, "Can we get closer?"

I nodded as I went back to rubbing my pussy through my panties. "You can get on the bed with me, just no touching."

Julie licked her lips as she bent over the end of the bed so she was looking up between my thighs before looking back at Bruce. "You can take me from behind, but remember this is about her." They moaned as he sank into her, but their eyes were on me as he slowly started thrusting into her.

My fingers trailed up over the top panel of my panties before slipping under the waistband. They could watch my fingers rubbing over my slit, but they still couldn't really see anything. After having seen me naked so many times you would think they could picture what I was doing in their minds, but their eyes were glued to the sight of my hand moving under my panties.

I couldn't believe how hot it was making all three of us. My pussy was on fire and my nipples were aching as I started stroking my clit. I was watching them grow hotter as I teased myself closer to climax. I'd been holding myself on the edge for a while now, and their moans and ragged breathing told me how close they were to their climaxes. We were all ready to cum, so I rubbed my clit harder as I brought my other hand down to stroke my slit. I pushed my panties to the side, finally exposing my pussy as I shoved two fingers deep inside myself.

The strength of my climax caught me by surprise. My legs snapped together as I screamed and rolled onto my side, unable to even pull my fingers out of my pussy because I was clenched up so hard. It was a couple of minutes before I could catch my breath and stretch out. Rolling onto my back again, I saw Bruce and Julie, half-collapsed on the bed, still watching me.

I slipped my hands out of my panties as I smiled down at them. "That was probably the hottest thing I've ever done. Did you guys get to cum with me?"

Julie nodded, but her eyes were still burning with desire as she stared at my crotch and licked her lips. "Definitely the hottest thing I've ever seen. Can I..."

I nodded before she finished her question. "Just be gentle with me. Seeing how hot I had you two made that far more intense than I expected and it kind of wiped me out for the moment."

Bruce just flopped on the bed and watched as she crawled up between my thighs. She licked over my panty covered lips before slipping my panties off and gently licking me clean. After planting a kiss on my now hairless mons, she kissed her way up my body. "Thank you, it looks perfect completely smooth. That was amazing. If that was a sample of what you're going to do on stage, you're going to be very popular."

"Wait, what?"

I glanced down at my brother's confused look and shook my head. "That modeling job was only part of the offer I got today. I really want to do this, but you have to approve before I'll move forward with it. Let me grab my laptop and we can explain everything."

He didn't look very happy, but he nodded. Retying my top, I got out of bed and ran downstairs to grab my purse before grabbing my laptop. Sitting down at the foot of the bed, I waited for the laptop to boot up then pulled up the website. I was greeted by a picture of myself in a schoolgirl outfit leaning over a counter like I was talking to the person holding the camera. Signing in, I let Lastpass set my new password before hitting the home page and turning the laptop so my brother could see it.

"You look really cute there, but I'm not sure how it relates to you doing live sex shows."

"The website is run by the shop we stopped at to get our sex toys. That's who I'm modeling for," I explained as I pulled up my shoot and clicked on the shot of me bent over, looking in the fridge. "The idea behind it is to show a more innocent sensuality, so the shots will be set up to look like I'm accidentally exposing my bra and panties to the camera, but there won't be any actual nudity."

"I can see why you want to keep doing this already," he said, pointing out the comment section. "You do have a cute butt, but you've always had issues with how you look. If you need comments from strangers online to help you realize you're adorable, I'm not going to object to it."

"I kind of figured you wouldn't have a problem with that part," I said as I clicked the link to the member access area. There was an Alice among the first few names, so I clicked it figuring it was Johnathan's stepdaughter and pulled up a shot of her topless with her arms crossed over her breasts. The next shot was one of her completely naked and dripping wet, reaching for a towel with a surprised look on her face. "These would be the next step, where I'm naked or partially naked, but they're still supposed to look like I was accidentally exposed."

"And this is something you want to do?"

"I do. It would help me get over my body image issues and we could use the extra money. It would also help some men in a rather difficult situation," I told him. Flipping through several of the models, it was easy to see what I had in common with them. "The men this site was designed for are drawn to younger-looking women, but it's difficult for them to find legal outlets for that desire. The shop has a live performance area where I could do shows for them like the one I just did for you."

I could see him about to object and put my hand on his leg. "Before you start judging them, I just proved it's not all that uncommon a desire. I played up the image of an innocent young girl exploring her sexuality and you loved it. This is the first time in my life I've felt like my body could actually be a blessing to someone. I could give them an illicit fantasy in a legal way and make a lot of money doing it."

He was thinking about it, so I just waited as he flipped through the pictures of the other models on the website. Eventually, he came back to mine and I could see he was reading the few comments I'd already gotten. "Are you sure you're going to be safe if I agree to this?"

"I had the same concerns, so we checked out the theater area," Julie told him. "There's no way someone watching could get on the stage, and the performer's changing room door opens into the main part of the store. That first girl she pulled up, Alice, is the owner's daughter. It's safe enough that he let his daughter do performances to help pay her way through college."

He looked at the two of us. "How far do you plan on going with this idea?"

"I'm not thinking anything more than doing live performances at the shop or pictures. I mean, I may take special requests for outfits or what I do on stage, but this is strictly a visual performance thing. There's only one man allowed to touch me, and he's right here in bed with me."

He shook his head again and laughed. "I can't believe my little sister wants to be a porn star, but if this is what you want I'll support your decision. Just try not to get so big that people approach you everywhere we go. It's going to be hard hiding our relationship if we're both well known."

"Did you notice the screen name I picked? If people know me as Matilda Lynn, they won't see me as Matilda Renolds. It should help keep people from automatically assuming we're related."

He glanced down at the screen again and his eyes screwed up. "Did you know this site has messaging capabilities? It looks like you already have fan mail."

I turned the laptop and saw the mail icon in the corner had a little 1 on it, so I clicked it. "It's from Vanessa. She's the shop owner's wife and webmaster for the site," I explained as I clicked the message to open it.

"Looking forward to serving you, Mistress?"

Julie looked at me and smirked as Bruce read the message out loud. "Johnathan said that would happen. Vanessa is very submissive and enjoys working with the models during their photoshoots. That kind of leads into something else I wanted to discuss though. That deal we had in high school, how would you feel about extending it?"

"I'm not sure I'll be able to keep up with the two of you on top of school and my training schedule, so I really don't need to find another girlfriend. Or is it you're worried I won't be able to keep up and think you may need another boyfriend on the side? I can't promise I won't get jealous, but I don't feel I can say no after the past four years if you want to experiment."

I could hear the hurt in his voice and we both scooted closer to hug him. "You do have the right to say no, but that's not what we're talking about. I can safely say you're the only man either of us is interested in. We're just asking permission to play around with other women on occasion and saying we wouldn't mind if you did the same. You don't have to do anything, but we won't be able to make all your away games, so if some hot little coed invites you to her room after the game you don't necessarily have to turn her down."

He looked at us and rolled his eyes. "I take it Vanessa is hot and you both want to play with her? I'll admit the idea of you having sex with other women doesn't bother me the way you having sex with another man would, but what about your relationship?"

"We haven't met Vanessa, but apparently she offers to go down on all the models to help them relax before their photoshoots. We love each other enough to know it won't affect our relationship and we're aroused by the idea of watching another woman pleasure our partner. I guess you could say we both understand we have voyeuristic tendencies and aren't afraid to indulge each other. Your sister's right though, you can say no to this if you're not comfortable with it. This isn't a majority rules situation, all three of us have to agree for it to move forward."

"I'm not sure that argument's valid with this one," he said, squeezing me against him. "She usually brings me around to her way of thinking eventually no matter where I start. Thankfully I'm really okay with this. If you two want to seduce half the girls on campus, I'm fine with it. I might ask to watch on occasion, but I'm not going to object to you two having a little fun."

Julie laughed as she turned his head and kissed him. "We're more likely to invite you to join us, and I think Matilda found the perfect way to hide the incest issue, she just isn't taking it far enough. Tilly, we're in LA now, where hundreds of people change their names every year as they try to become a star. You can begin calling yourself Matilda Lynn right away and look into the process of having it legally changed. The two of you look nothing alike, so no one would guess your related, and changing your last name would make sure there's no reason for them to look. You wouldn't have to hide your relationship in public anymore."

She looked confused when I shook my head. "I don't want to advertise he's my brother, but I don't want to hide our relationship either. Not having to hide my relationship with you will protect us more than people not knowing he's my brother. Here I can openly claim I'm a lesbian and admit the three of us share a bed. The laws about incest are very specific in California."

I reached between us and started caressing his cock. "As long as no one sees this giant cock slide into my tiny little pussy, we're not doing anything illegal. Between me being a lesbian and the size of this thing, no one would believe we were fucking unless we did it in front of them, and anything else is just playing around."

"Wouldn't you playing with my cock kind of invalidate the whole lesbian thing though?"

I rolled my eyes. "Lesbians wouldn't need dildos if they didn't like penises. Most of them would probably enjoy having a real penis to play with if it wasn't for the man attached to it. Remember when I first asked to play with you? How I said I could find another man to do that with but they would want more? That's why people will believe I feel safe playing with your cock even if I'm a lesbian. They'll believe you don't expect more from me."

"When did you find all this out," Julie asked. "And what prompted you to look it up in the first place?"

"Last night, after you guys fell asleep. When you mentioned how you felt about us having to hide our relationship, I decided to look up the incest laws and see exactly what was considered incest. For California, only marriage or sex that can lead to pregnancy is criminalized between close relatives. Anything other than that is legal, so if we do invite someone else over to play for a night and they watch me give you a blowjob it's not legally incest. We're going to have to stick with that legal kind of loving tonight actually. I'm not usually this sore until after you make love to me."

"Someone's discovering just how much of an exhibitionist she is," Julie laughed as she leaned over to kiss me. "I may have to carry you to the dressing room after your performances. If you cum that hard with the two of us watching you, imagine what it will be like knowing the booths are full."

"I'm going to love it, but I know that seeing how hot the two of you were definitely pushed me higher than a group of strangers would be able to. The adoring approval of strangers is kind of nice though," I said, nodding to the screen.

We were looking at what was quickly becoming my most popular picture, with over two hundred views and a couple of dozen comments so far. I was sitting sideways on the recliner with my legs dangling over one arm and my head hanging back over the other as I talked on the phone. Johnathan had captured a dozen shots of this pose and this one was the perfect tease. He'd angled it so you could see just the lace edge of my panties and the outline of my bra where my shirt stretched over my chest. It looked like the view you would get if you were sitting on the couch next to me and glanced over.

It was cute, innocent, and just sexy enough to make a father realize his little girl wasn't exactly a little girl anymore. It was perfect, and I was looking forward to my photo shoot next week so I could do it again.