Hesitant Ch. 03

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Hesitant 03

They say that the sad news spreads quickly. Unfortunately, we also received such news. When we hurried out of the hotel and got on the plane, we both looked like idiots. The news of my brother-in-law's accident and the fact that we were not given proper information created a dark feeling in us. Everything I dreamed about for years, came true, but it was as long-lasting as soap bubbles. When we returned home from the airport, the scene we encountered further devastated us. Unfortunately, my brother-in-law passed away in that accident.

My father was sitting on the sofa in the living room, my mother was crying in the kitchen. Everyone was hugging and crying. My mother was trying to comfort my sister by stroking her hair and saying, "My beautiful daughter was widowed at a young age. My unfortunate daughter, don't be sad." Similar things happened after my brother-in-law's family came. My brother-in-law was the only child of his family, they were completely devastated.

I was trying to console my sister, but I couldn't get close to her even though she was heartbroken. I was also very sorry for my brother-in-law. He died at such a young age.

Was the thing over between my sister and me. How it was going to happen, I was undecided. How to approach, I had no idea. A week passed, my brother-in-law's dead body came back to the country and it was buried. My sister was still staying with us, as she could not bear to return to her own house.

My sister's father-in-law said that the house and car they lived in, belonged to my sister and that they considered my sister their own child. When her father-in-law said that they would leave the compensation they would receive from my brother-in-law's company to my sister. Our family did not want to accept it at first, but they would not hear it, they insisted. They wanted my sister to live without needing anyone.

I think after twenty days, or so, my sister and I went to her house and cleaned up. While I was packing my brother-in-law's things in the bedroom, my sister sat on the bed and started to cry. I squatted down in front of her and kissed her hands. "I'm always with you, whatever you need," I said.

Thinking she was going to slap me, she, instead, grabbed my hand and pulled me up to the bed. I went behind her and hugged her. After stroking her hair for about five minutes and smelling it, she turned towards me. "I'm glad you're here. I'm in the void, and I'm falling," she said, so innocently crying, that I couldn't stand it.

"I didn't know how to approach you, I wasn't with you enough, forgive me," I said.

She smiled...

I hadn't seen her smile for a long time. She pulled my head by my hair towards her and kissed me. I started stroking and kissing her in return. The arrow had come out of its quiver. I pulled off her tights and panties. I tried to lick her vagina, but she continued to kiss me by pulling my hair. I unbuttoned my jeans with one hand, I wasn't completely naked. I took my penis out and slowly moved it inside. I was inside. An 'oooh' sigh came from my sister.

I was going in and out at a slow pace, my sister was pulling me to her with one hand on my neck, and sticking hers to my lips. She said, "Fuck me faster." I was hitting it as fast and as hard as I could, each time. She started shouting, "Fuck me, fuck me, my love!" She closed her eyes. Between moaning sounds, I ejaculated inside her vagina. "Why did you cum inside me, stupid? I don't have a husband anymore, what will happen if I get pregnant?" she said.

At that moment, I froze again, unable to speak. She threw me off and went to the bathroom.

On the way home, my sister was driving the car, I was playing with the radio, changing stations.

"Ahh, this is your indecision, your freezes are driving me crazy. Now, grow up, keep your decisions consistent, act mature, be a man," she said.

These words made me sad. "Should I be a man? Don't you climax screaming every time I fuck you? I fucked you in your bed before your husband's body got cold," I said, angrily.

She slapped me.

I said, "Stop, I'm going to get out of the car." She slowed down, pulled over. I unfastened my seat belt.

She said, "Okay, I'm sorry, don't be a kid, let's go home," while I was opening the door.

I said, "Fuck you!" and slammed the door, and walked away from the car.

At about eleven that night, my mother called. She asked where I was. I told her something like I would be late, I was with friends, not to wait up for me. My sister wouldn't have told them about the fight between us. I took care not to get together with my sister much that week. Honestly, she made it clear that she saw me as a loser, while I wanted her to see me as a man, and not as her brother. I would have fucked her two or three times maybe, but for the first time, I was determined. Even if I was going to lose her, I was determined to turn things into love. She was the woman I loved and wanted to be with. Maybe I was crazy and perverted, but I wanted my sister to be mine.

On the weekend, my parents were going to another city for a relative's wedding. They called my sister, too, but my sister didn't want to go. After seeing them off on Friday evening, I retired to my room. I was acting coldly to my sister on purpose. How I missed her. We've been through a lot in this one month. I lay down on my bed. There was a knock on my room door. My sister was standing there, in a short, white nightgown.

"Are you offended? Can I come in?" she asked.

I nodded and got up and sat on the bed.

"I'm so sorry if I hurt you. I'm so sorry. I'm going through a very difficult time and sometimes I don't realize what I'm doing or saying. I'm sorry for hitting you," she said.

"I'm sorry, too. I shouldn't have spoken to you that way, but your words hurt me. I've always been in love with you. We've become closer than we've ever been, this past month. We became each other's. We were no longer brother and sister. We are lovers, but I was devastated when I heard those words from you."

"Ohh, my stupid lover. I didn't want to upset you. Do you want to be my lover or my boyfriend? Look, it's not that easy to pick me up, little man, you have to try hard," she said, with a laugh.

I hugged her and said, "I agree with everything that comes from you, I will bear it, as long as you give me a chance. I don't see what happened between us as fun or just sex, I want to be with you all my life, I want to live our lives together."

"Hmm... I need to think about this. You're being cold to me, but I wonder if my romantic man doesn't want to have sex with me tonight?" she said.

She stood up and put one leg on the bed. Her short nightgown was bunched up at her waist. There was no underwear beneath it. I stroked her leg and gently pulled her into my lap. We were both burning with desire, as our lips met. "I love you so much, I love you so much," I repeated. I could feel the heat of her vagina, while my sister was sitting on my lap. I took off my boxers, as she took off her nightgown and threw it on the floor. She didn't let me get up. She got on top of me. She took my dick, into her mouth first, and started to give me a blowjob. After licking and sucking my dick, she placed it in her vagina. It was wet. She took me to my paradise again, and started to rise and fall gently.

I was holding and squeezing her breasts with my hands. My sister was throwing herself back and forth, moving her hips harder and faster. She climaxed, screaming as the pleasure peaked. "Was it good, baby?" she asked.

I was able to say, "You are so beautiful, my love." I was enjoying having my older sister.

She was acting lightly. She said, "Tell me when you're going to ejaculate, don't cum in me."

When I realized that she was getting tired, I grabbed her waist and laid her on her back on the bed. I pumped my beautiful sister with her legs spread out for me.

"You're my girlfriend now, aren't you?" I asked her.

She said breathlessly, "Yes, I am yours."

At the last moment, I took my cock out of her cunt and ejaculated onto her belly. I lay on her belly for a while, until my breathing got better. Then I threw myself to the side and lay down. My beautiful sister was, from that moment, my woman. We lit a cigarette together, and she rested her head on my chest.

"I've had different feelings for you since the holidays. I don't know. I like it when you say you love me, and you take care of me. Look, I mean, even before my husband's tomb got cold, I gave myself to you again," she said.

I took a breath from my cigarette and kissed her, saying, "Now, stop thinking about the past, a brand new future begins for both of us. You're mine now, everything will be better, trust me."

Our family wouldn't be home for two more days, so we would be alone--together. We took a shower together. I made her wear one of my own shirts. I made her toast when she said she was hungry. She was helping me in the kitchen. It was like we were newlyweds. We watched a movie on Netflix with sex scenes, together. While watching the movie, I smothered her with kisses and hugged her tightly with my arms. Occasionally, I was stroking her legs, groping her breasts through the open buttons of her shirt. Finally, she was on fire. Before going to bed, I fucked her again doggy style on the sofa in the living room.

We had breakfast in the morning, and then went out. We drove to the most beautiful places in the city, and toured hand in hand, together as lovers. We spent the whole day together. I didn't think I'd ever had a happier day than this. At dinner, my sister said that she had a lot of fun, that I made her very happy, that she wanted us to spend more time together. When my parents called and said that they would come back tomorrow morning, we both felt sadness. I persuaded her to go out to the bar to clear our minds.

She was wearing a mini-dress that showed off her beautiful legs again. I couldn't help stroking her legs in the car, until we got to the bar. The music and the dancing had put her in a good mood. We danced together and had fun. We returned home with her head well scattered. She jumped into my lap as soon as I walked in the door.

"I love you, my love." she said, as she smothered me with kisses.

I carried her up to the bed and helped her unzip her dress from behind. She was sitting on the edge of the bed. I took off my boxers and put my dick in my sister's mouth.

I said, "Lick it, bitch."

Cursing her must have turned her on because she was sucking better than she ever had.

"How do you want me to fuck you?"

When I said that, she stopped licking and moved towards the balcony window. She opened the curtains. At that hour, most of the neighbors were sleeping, so she was acting comfortably. There was a light on the lower floors in the opposite apartment. I turned off the room light and turned on the night light, so it was dim. She put her hands on the sill and moved her hips back.

I took my place right behind her and entered her wet vagina. I was hitting her hard by holding her hips. My sister was also moaning. The risk of getting caught made me even more excited, and I was both enjoying it and trembling because someone might see us.

"My love... my love..." my sister didn't seem to care about anything. She climaxed with a loud moan. When I felt her feet trembling, I pulled her to bed. Since her hips were out, I took her legs on my shoulders and supported her from the ground, and went in and out harder. She was scratching my arms with her nails. When I realized that I was going to ejaculate, I pulled my penis out and ejaculated on her vagina. At that moment of pleasure, I was still rubbing my penis into her vagina.

Afterwards, I got up and took a shower. Tomorrow morning, if my parents were to come home early, they might catch us in the same bed. I took her by the hand and said, "I don't want to sleep without feeling and hugging you."

She said, "We will think of something, we will find a solution, It will be like it is now. Believe me, I want to sleep in the bed with your scent, my dear." I hugged and kissed my sister before going back to my room, and wished her goodnight.