Jackie Listens to Her Brother

It kind of gave me faith in the world.

Finally, I asked, "Did Suzy, I mean, with all of your help, did she ever - finally - have an orgasm?"

He looked at me with a serious expression, "Yes, it took time - But yes."

I felt my heart quicken, I was utterly fascinated.

"How, I mean - what did you do?"

And Tommy explained, and it was obvious he was NOT going to leave out anything.

"Well, I guess it happened right after Suzy's 18th birthday, and it was really wonderful. She finally let me take her pants off, and her underwear too. She was so shy, she wanted the lights out. So it was dark..."

"So, you didn't, I mean, did you?"

"What?"

I nervously asked, "Did you see her without her pants?"

I could tell I sounded worried about this, maybe even scared.

Tommy replied, "No, I actually never did see her naked. She was so shy, and wanted the lights off. But, I felt it, with my hands."

I asked, "Did YOU want the lights on?"

"Well, yes, I wanted to see, I thought it would be beautiful to see her."

My mind was racing. I thought how sensitive my brother was, but how - if it was me - I would WANT someone to see me, it would be so thrilling to have a boy see me naked.

I begged him, "Go on..."

"Okay - Here's how we started. Suzy would lay on her tummy, and I would sort of kneel along side of her, right up close."

I interrupted, "Was she naked?"

"No, she wanted to keep a shirt on."

"But her pants were off?"

"Yes."

"And, were you - were you naked?"

He thought for a moment before quietly answering, "No."

I could tell this was somehow awkward for him, and I asked, "Did you want to be naked?"

"Oh God - I did, yes, I really did - but Suzy was so scared, she asked me to stay dressed."

I could hear the emotion in my brother's voice. It was sad for me to realize how much devotion he had for Suzy, and how frustrating it must have been for him.

I whispered, "I'm sorry."

"Oh no, don't be. I was concerned for Suzy, about helping her."

I was surprised that Suzy was scared to see my brother naked, it didn't make any sense. I mean, he's been a competitive swimmer since he was a little boy. And he has an amazing body.

I asked, "How did it feel for YOU, I mean helping her?"

"Oh God - it felt wonderful."

"Really? You liked it?"

"Yes! I loved it!"

I was really delighted to hear Tommy sound so enthusiastic.

"When - when she finally came - did she - did she..." I stammered, sounding really scared.

Tommy tried to be as reassuring as he could, "C'mon, it's okay, you can ask whatever you need to..."

I thought for a moment before I inquired what I really wanted to know.

I nervously stammered, "When she finally came... Did she, I mean - Did it help her - Like, emotionally? I mean - well - when she climaxed? I mean - Did cumming make her, well - less tense? "

My brother heard the seriousness in my voice, and I could tell he wanted to give me as honest an answer as he could.

"Yes, I think it helped her a lot, it was so good to hear her achieve something so - I guess, so fulfilling. And it was good for her in a lot of other ways too, it really eased her nervousness. And, quite honestly, it simply a big relief for her. "

"Was there - anything else?"

"I think it brought us a lot closer together."

When he said that, my heart just soared. It sounded so beautiful and sweet.

I was quiet for and kind of amazed. I mean, it just felt so funny to have my brother share all these private details with me. But, I was SO curious. I mean, partially because it seemed like Tommy knew something I didn't. He had solved Suzy's anxieties, he knew how to help her. And that secret just seemed out of reach from me.

I whispered, "Okay, I feel like I need to hear everything. Please don't leave anything out."

He told me he felt good talking about this, and he was eager to share what happened.

"Good."

"I was gentle, and she told me what felt good. And eventually, after a lot of time - we both understood what felt best, and what she needed."

"You mean - like - would she would tell you what felt good?"

"Yes, but I could sense it too."

"What did you do?"

"You want me to tell you EVERYTHING, don't you."

"Yes, please - I want to understand."

"Okay - well, it's very intimate."

"Please Tommy, I need to know."

And then, the rain outside got even harder. And the beautiful noise it made on the tent got a little louder. Tommy moved just a little closer to me on his mat so could hear him more easily.

"Okay, here's what happened the night that it finally happened. I would sit next to her, in the dark. We were on her bed. Her pants were off, and I just did what she told me to do. She knew that I was there to help, that I wanted this for her. And I would do exactly what she told me felt best. She started out on her tummy, and she would hug her pillow."

"That sounds nice..."

"She needed help to get relaxed, and I would give her a back rub, and then..."

"Please, I wanna know."

"And then, I would massage her bottom."

I kind of gasped, "What? You massaged her butt? With her pants off?"

"Yes."

"And her underwear off too?

"Yes."

"Really? Did she like it?"

"Yeah, and she really seemed to love it. I did it for a long time, maybe a half an hour. It helped, it really did."

I giggled, "Wow, she's a lucky girl. Go on."

"As I was massaging and her bottom, and - she would spread her legs - when I knew she was ready - I would gently cup my hand, and let it cradle her - her..."

"Go on, it's okay - I really want to hear this."

"I would reach in - between her legs - and use my hand to cradle her vagina..."

Right then, I sort of squealed, "Ohhhh!"

Tommy asked, "I'm sorry - Was that okay, to say that?"

I replied, "YES! I mean, it just surprised me, to hear you say - well - THAT word."

"You asked me to be honest."

I begged, "I know - I know - it's okay, go on - Please."

"Okay. I would rub as slow as I could, and I would carefully build up speed, and she would tell me how fast and how hard to rub."

"Go on..."

"As she got more, well - more turned on, I could feel her clitoris. Oh God, I'm sorry - Is it okay that I say this?"

I answered, "Yes."

But, it was so weird, I mean - it kind of freaked me out - to hear my brother say 'vagina' and 'clitoris' but at the same time, it was really heartwarming, I mean - I just felt so CLOSE to him.

Tommy kept explaining, "Okay, I could feel her clitoris. It was easy to find, she was getting - well, aroused - and it felt sort of well plump, and she was VERY responsive. Does this make sense?"

"Yes, I think so. But - How responsive? How would she act? What happened?"

"It was obvious what felt good from her breathing and her voice."

"Really?"

"Oh my God yes."

"Go on..."

"And - and she..."

"What? Tell me..."

Tommy said, "That's when she told me to go faster."

"Faster, Like - how fast?"

"Well, uhhhm - should I show you?"

"Show me, how?"

"I mean, here - look at this."

Then Tommy reached out from under the sleeping bag and, in the pale glow of the flashlight, he showed me his hand and how he would wiggle his fingers against Suzy's clitoris. The image was really captivating.

I whispered, "Oh my God. Really?"

"Yeah, and she asked me to go faster and push harder."

"Like - How?"

"Here, look at my hand."

Then he moved his hand closer to me, and held it near my face for a better view in the dimly lit tent. Then, he sort of palpitated it, just like he did with Suzy. He held his palm cupped, and his middle finger was pointed almost straight up.

Tommy calmly said, "I held my hand like this."

I asked, "Wait, I don't understand. Suzy was on her tummy, and you were behind her, and you reached UNDER her, between her legs - with your hand like that?"

"Yes, and I was rubbing."

"How fast."

"Like this."

And he showed me, he moved his hand and the motion was surpassingly rapid.

I gasped, "Oh my God - you moved your hand THAT fast?"

"When Suzy asked me to - yes."

"I didn't think - oh my God, I thought it was supposed to be slow or something."

"It was, I mean, it started out nice and slow, but as it went on, this is what Suzy asked me to do, she said felt good. And she was getting wet."

"Really, she was got wet?"

"Oh God - Yes, she got really wet."

Hearing Tommy say this - about Suzy getting wet - was so weird for me. I don't know why, but it just felt so flustered. I think it was because the one time I tried to - well - to masturbate, the thing that made me stop, and sort of scared me was that I got SO wet.

I was SO curious, and I asked, "Like - How wet?"

"It was enough to make everything feel slippery, and I could tell it helped Suzy, it was like the wetness helped the sensations feel more intense."

I impatiently begged, "But - I wanna understand - How wet?"

"Well, it's hard to say, but it was sort of incredible. After it was over, and we turned the light on, there was a BIG soggy spot on her bed."

"Really, how big?"

"I'm not sure."

"Was it like, as big as a quarter?"

"Oh God, no. It was a LOT bigger than that. Like maybe, two feet around."

I was shocked, and I think I sort of gasped.

It just felt so WEIRD to hear about all these details. And - I was surprised at how moving it was to imagine Suzy's soggy bed, and to think that it was from her.

"I need to know - when you rubbed fast like that - was that when she - when she finally - climaxed?"

"Well, no. It wasn't like that."

"But you said..."

"That's how we started."

I literally begged, "C'mon - Tell me - Pleeeeeease!"

"Are you sure?"

"PLEEEEEASE!"

"Okay - but be patient with me, this might be hard for me to explain."

I squirmed in closer to my brother and asked, "I'm sorry for whining, but I really NEED to hear this."

"When I did that, what I just showed you with my hand, the fast rubbing, she seemed to get really close to - well, to cumming. But, it just wouldn't happen. I could tell she was getting frustrated. And I knew she really NEEDED to - to - well, to finally achieve this important thing."

"I didn't know what else to do, so I stopped rubbing with my hand, and I gently rolled her over, onto her back."

As he spoke his tone had changed, like this was something so meaningful, and important for me to hear.

I asked, "You did? What did she say?"

He took a deep breath and went on. "She didn't say anything, but she didn't stop me either."

"Keep going."

Tommy whispered, in a hunted way, like a confession, "And then - I spread her legs and I leaned in, and put my mouth against her - her vagina."

I let out a little gasp, but Tommy kept talking.

"I kissed, and licked - and it took some time, but eventually, she came."

"Don't just stop, I wanna hear more."

"I'm not sure what more I can say?"

"Where did you put your hands?"

"I caressed her as best I could, I touched her tummy, and her..."

"Please..."

"...and I played with her pubic hair. And finally, what felt best for her, I put my hands under her bottom, with my fingers sort of in her bum crack."

"How could you tell she liked that?"

"Oh, I could tell, she was really moaning at that point. And..."

"What?"

"It felt really wonderful, I mean, at this point she was getting REALLY wet, and the way it dripped down, it all just trickled down into her bum crack, and it made my fingers feel all slippery, and I could kind of massage her bottom - the inside of her bottom - with my wet fingertips."

"Oh my GOD, that sounds amazing!"

"And Suzy LOVED it!"

"I can only imagine!"

"It was wonderful, I loved it too."

"I don't know what to think - I have so many more questions."

"It's okay, just ask them."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure."

"What did it taste like?"

"It she tasted well, it's hard to say -- it was - really wonderful. I mean, it was moist warm against my tongue, and sort of well - salty. I loved it."

"And the smell? What did it smell like?"

"It was - it's weird, I mean -- it effected me - I think the smell made me even more turned-on, it was really causing me to get even MORE excited."

"What did it feel like?"

"That's hard to answer, I mean - Suzy would respond so intensely to certain things."

"Like what?"

"I was really - well - I had sort of abandoned myself - and I was really getting into it. And..."

"Please, I need to hear this."

"I felt like we were so connected, that I somehow JUST KNEW what Suzy wanted. And - I tried to push my tongue as far as I could into her vagina. And she definitely seemed to respond intensely to that."

"Oh my god?"

"I'm sorry - was that too much?"

"NO!" I gasped. And the powerful emotion in my voice kind of scared me.

I went on, trying to sound calm, "What was it - I mean, what were you doing -- with your tongue - when she finally, when she came?"

"When she came, I had my lips against her clitoris, and by this point it was - well, sort of hard - like erect, and I was licking it. Well, it was more like sucking. You know how a baby sucks a nipple on a baby bottle? It was sort of like that, I could suck her plump clitoris. But, little by little, I did it a lot faster, and ..." "Tell me!"

"It's hard to know exactly. But I'm pretty sure this is what finally made her climax -It was my fingers, the way they were, I rubbed with my fingers, massaging the inside of her bottom - her bum - everything was REALLY wet and slippery, and I wiggled my finger tips against her wet little - her little bum hole."

"Oh - my - god..."

"...And, when I rubbed her slippery little bum hole - that's when she came - I could feel it, with my tongue, I mean, she sort of shivered. Her whole body. It felt so wonderful."

I had to catch my breath.

Finally I said, "Oh Tommy, that was SO beautiful for me to hear. Thank you..."

The emotions in my head were kind of spinning, and I literally felt dizzy.

I had the most deeply heartfelt love for my brother. I was just so overwhelmed at how kind he could be. Everything he did for Suzy, and how wonderful he was to tell me all these beautiful details. It was a strange and powerful moment.

And I couldn't help but think how lucky Suzy was, to have Tommy as a boyfriend. He was so attentive and caring. I couldn't help but feel REALLY jealous.

"It's hard to know exactly. But I'm pretty sure this is what finally made her climax -It was my fingers, the way they were, I rubbed with my fingers, massaging the inside of her bottom - her bum - everything was REALLY wet and slippery, and I wiggled my finger tips against her wet little - her little bum hole."

"Oh - my - god..."

"...And, when I rubbed her slippery little bum hole - that's when she came - I could feel it, with my tongue, I mean, she sort of shivered. Her whole body. It felt so wonderful."

I had to catch my breath.

Finally I said, "Oh Tommy, that was SO beautiful for me to hear. Thank you..."

The emotions in my head were kind of spinning, and I literally felt dizzy.

I had the most deeply heartfelt love for my brother. I was just so overwhelmed at how kind he could be. Everything he did for Suzy, and how wonderful he was to tell me all these beautiful details. It was a strange and powerful moment.

And I couldn't help but think how lucky Suzy was, to have Tommy as a boyfriend. He was so attentive and caring. I couldn't help but feel REALLY jealous.

I wanted to keep talking, but I realized I needed to pee soon. And the feelings building inside me created a sort of impatience.

I had to ask one more question.

"Did Suzy ever, well - help you have an orgasm?"

He thought for a moment before quietly responding, "No, she never did."

I asked, "Was it - well - okay with you, that she never - well, helped you?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, were you upset that YOU didn't get the same - well, kindness, in return from Suzy."

"I don't think so, I mean, when she finally had her climax - it was really rewarding for me."

"But, weren't you - well, sort of turned-on or anything?"

"Oh my god - Yes!"

"Well, what did you want, I mean for yourself."

He kind of seemed surprised at my question, and he just sat there.

I asked again, "Please, what did you want, for yourself? I'm really curious."

He said, "I think we were both so scared about getting pregnant, that we couldn't even consider - making love, like that."

"I know that feeling. I think the reason I'm so awkward around boys and dating. It's because I'm so freaked out about getting pregnant too."

"Just like Suzy."

"But - I'm still curious, what did you want"

Tommy looked worried and awkward.

The rain outside the tent was creating a sort of building tempo. And at the same time, I was getting desperate to pee. But I didn't want this beautiful conversation to be interrupted.

I said, "Please, it's obvious you wanted something. I really want to know."

"But, it just seems so - I don't know, so perverted."

"Oh Tommy, pleases...." I begged.

"Okay, but don't think I'm some kind of a weirdo because of what I say..."

"I know you too well to EVER think that."

"You know how much I loved Suzy, and I thought Suzy was really pretty, and..."

"I thought Suzy is really pretty too, I thought so the first time I saw her when she came to visit."

"I thought that she had really lovely, well - I thought her breasts were really beautiful."

For some reason, I thought it was so warmhearted to hear Tommy praise Suzy like that, about her breasts.

I thought to myself how much Suzy and I looked like each other, and we even had the same bra size - she even borrowed on of my bras when she was at our house. She stood in my room and changed, and she seemed so nervous. But I remember, I saw her with her shirt off, just for a second and I was surprised how much we looked alike - I mean - our breasts were really similar.

I said, "Keep going..."

He went on to tell me how he had never seen her breasts, how she was just too nervous to ever let him even touch them. It was something that she was sort of confused about. It was like a deep problem for her. He sounded really understanding, but I could tell it was frustrating for him.

I said, "Oh God, Tommy, that's sad for me to hear."

"You're right, maybe it is a little sad."

I said, "If I had a boyfriend, I would let him see my breasts, and play with them too."

That was supposed to be a joke, just to lighten the mood. But Tommy still looked so serious.

I said, "What is it, there's more isn't there?"

"Yes."

"Please, you can tell me."

"Don't think what I'm going to say is too much, or too weird, okay - please."

"I won't - really, I won't"

"I wanted to climax too, I really wanted it, but it never happened with Suzy, and - deep down - I know it sounds weird, but I really needed it."

His voice sounded so emotional, I was worried he may start to cry.

I said, "Oh Tommy - That doesn't sound weird at all - that sounds like something beautiful you wanted to share with Suzy."

"But..."

"Please, it's okay, you can tell me."

"Oh Jackie, you don't understand, it's the WAY I wanted to try and cum."

"Tell me..."

He was trying to collect his thoughts, and I waited anxiously.

I wanted to comfort him, "Tommy, please - you are so kind and tender, nothing you could say would be upsetting to me - really."

He smiled, like he understood and then said, "I thought Suzy had such lovely breasts, and I used to just dream about taking her shirt off, and taking her bra off - and finally seeing them, and touching them..."

"Don't feel bad, that sounds nice."

He spoke quietly, "Suzy's skin was so pale, and her breasts must have been SO soft."

Oh my god - there was such longing in his voice, and it just broke my heart to hear him sound - well, so needy.