Pledging Tau Geta Delta Pt. 07

Waking up in my own bed was its own kind of rude awakening. All by myself, alone with my thoughts. I had so much to think about. I'd gotten used to the breasts and the emptiness between my legs. My new anatomy still felt strange when I thought about it, but my mind was on other issues today.

Today was the last day of my initiation week, my last day as a girl before the fraternity president would turn me back into a guy and officially let me join Tau Geta Detla. I'd been a girl for the whole week, ever since the opening ceremony when the spell was cast on me.

I usually wasn't one to lay in bed and ponder things. This morning was different though. The truth was, I had a dilemma. I'd never been faced with this big of a choice before. It was probably worse for the fact that I hadn't really considered that it would be a choice when I started. Right after being turned into a girl, I figured it was a small price to pay for becoming a Tau. Hell, I even looked forward to it as an adventure, or at least an experience I'd couldn't miss. Curiosity alone required that I not quit.

The fundamental point though was that I never considered staying a girl. Naturally, I'd get to try out being a girl, all the way through having sex. It was crazier, and yet more fun than I would have expected. The sex was amazing, and I found wearing skirts enjoyable. Heck, it was almost fun teasing guys, with my new sexy curves. I wasn't some outrageously gorgeous girl. I was a bit short, and thin, with an almost elfish face and big ears, but a nice pair of breasts. I didn't need to worry about attracting guys, and for the first couple days, as weird as things were, I enjoyed myself.

That didn't mean I wanted to stay a girl though. A little fun experimentation was one thing, but living the rest of my life like this? It was almost out of the question. Then came my encounter with Max. My fourth challenge as a pledge was to sleep with a friend, and he was the one I choose. After that, everything flipped on its head.

When I started, I'd been given a set of memories of my new girlish self, the life I'd lived as Alison, as if I'd been born a girl. The memories were complete down to every detail. At first, my male side had dominated and I simply called up those memories of being Alison for help with specifically girly things like putting on a bra or makeup. As the week progressed, I found myself thinking more and more as Alison and less as the guy I used to be.

That was the trouble with Max. In my old life, we'd been friends. We hung out together, played games, shared what passed for secrets between two guys. In my life as Alison, we'd done much the same thing, but there was more too it than that. We had feelings for each other, but due to the flukes of life one of us was always dating someone else, at least until now. When the challenge pushed me to sleep with a guy friend, the part of me that was Alison pushed for her wishes to be fulfilled, and the rest of me followed along, not knowing just what would happen.

The sex was amazing, but there was more. Feelings I'd only thought I'd felt before. As Alison, I loved Max, the truth had been buried behind a deep friendship and the fact that I didn't like to mess with other people's relationships, but those details changed nothing. Sleeping with Max, and enjoying every moment of his hands roaming over my bare flesh had laid bare my affection for him.

I tried to deny it, but now, two days later I was left staring up at the ceiling fretting my choices. Did I want to go through with this? If I changed back into a guy, I'd lose this chance at love. The very thought of losing Max made my stomach twist. It had taken this long to get him, I couldn't very well let him go again. Could I?

I shook my head. Trying to clear out those girly thoughts. If I just let myself be Alison, I knew what choice I'd make. My guy side was screaming out for attention as well. Staying a girl would mean an entirely different life. Some things wouldn't be so different, but there were serious disadvantages as well.

I'd always considered myself a bit of a feminist in that sense. I could see the stuff women put up with, and did my best to knock the heads of other guys who spouted off especially rude things. In my time as an actual girl, I noticed it as well. It wasn't just the catcalls and casual harassment. There was a general condescension. I knew some was done with chivalrous intent, but some were simply unadulterated contempt.

Naturally, that wasn't even the biggest thing. If I stayed a girl, and I wanted a family it meant that I'd be a mother. That whole notion felt almost insane. I'd have a kid grow inside me, and then I'd have to give birth to it, nurse it and all the rest. My casual thoughts of marriage and family turned a lot more intense when I was going to be the one handling the baby end of things. Even for my girly half it was somewhat frightening thought, though, as Alison I sensed a bit of excitement as well.

I tossed off the covers. This line of thinking was just making me tense all over, and I decided I might as well get up, get dressed and find out what everyone else was thinking. A bit of group therapy was just what I needed.

For the first time in days, I sat back and just enjoyed the shower. The glorious feeling of warm water flowing over my naked, sensitive body. I couldn't deny that I'd come to enjoy my girl form quite a lot as the week went by. Sure, I could sense that Alison had some body issues, but from a guy's perspective, I knew I had a rocking bod.

I still hadn't gotten over the softness of my breasts, or just how tender they were. I could get myself to moan and whimper with barely a few squeezes. It wasn't as intense as rubbing my pussy, but it was a nice comfortable feeling. Naturally, it was better when it was someone else's hands and I had to endure the mystery of just how they would move next.

The fact was I felt kind of like a dead man walking. If I chose to be a Tau, this would be my last shower as a girl. My soft breasts would be replaced with a flat and lightly muscled chest and the fleshy folds between my legs would return to the floppy cock and balls I'd been so fond of before my transformation. It was hard deciding if I wanted to try rubbing one out right here in the shower, maybe my last orgasm as a girl, and if nothing else, I knew I'd miss the feeling of a feminine orgasm.

I decided not to. Given the way the week had gone, I suspected that the Taus had something special planned for the closing ceremonies. I didn't doubt for a moment that it would be overflowing with sex. I certainly wanted to be ready to enjoy that to the fullest.

Getting dressed for my last day was almost the hardest decision. In the end, I couldn't keep myself from choosing a nice girly blouse and skirt combo. I went colorful today, with a nice baby blue top, rainbow striped skirt and nice long socks that went half way up my calves. I made sure my underwear selection was bordering on scandalous as well. The panties were thin and lacey, and hugged tight enough that my pussy lips were easy to make out. My bra was pink lace as well, with a thin mesh over the top so that my nipples showed through lewdly between the flower patterns. I didn't know what I'd be getting into, but I knew I was going to be ready for it.

The dinning room was near to packed this morning with other pledges. I was actually surprised that everyone had gathered here, but then I realized that this was the last day, and a Saturday, so there were no classes to pull us away. No doubt, the president was probably waiting to make an announcement. I grabbed a quick bit of food, spotted Alex and headed over.

The lively blond and her friends had made this week a lot easier for me and I was happy to see them again. It had actually been a few days since we'd all met up at the same time. The life of a pledge was sufficiently crazy to keep us all going in separate directions.

"And finally, Alison drags herself out of bed. I know you came in late last night." Alex smiled at me wickedly.

"How do you know that?" I gave her a playful scowl.

"Because I was half a block behind you." She giggled. "It took me half the day before I managed to corner my guy yesterday and well, I'll never quite think of the top floor of the library in the same way again."

"What? You didn't? Where did you?" I stammered. The top floor of the library was just book shelves, row after row of shelves. Unlike the other floors, there were no study areas, desks or even chairs. There wasn't even a bathroom. The only thing up there was books.

"Between the stacks. He carried me around, pressed me into a wall and just humped until we heard someone and then he'd carry me somewhere else with his big cock still inside. It was crazy. I think I about had a heart attack like ten times, but god when I finally came, it was insane!" Alex blushed a bit, but it wasn't hard to tell that she'd savored every wicked second of it. Her friends were blushing just listening to it, and no doubt they were thinking about how they'd met the last challenge as well.

"So how did you make out yesterday?" Alex turned things around. Now that she'd told us her kinky story, there was no way that I could hold back. I covered the details about how I took Max to the side of the library, got fucked, got caught and then released by campus security and then proceeded back to his place for a wild afternoon in bed.

"You know, girls. I think our little Alison has a crush on someone." Alex giggled as I finished my story.

"Hey!" I blushed about three shades deeper just from the suggestion. It didn't help that she was right.

"It's okay, Alison, I know how you feel." Brittany blushed from her side of the table. The little redhead was looking stunning in a sundress this morning, but she was red from the face down. From the way we looked, you'd think we were all about to die from terminal embarrassment. I guess it went with the territory, but it still was absolutely crazy.

"You too, Brit?" Alex looked a bit surprised and turned towards her friend. "Who did that to you?"

"You know Stan, right? My old roommate, well, he so sweet to me when we did it the other day, and last night we even went out..." Brittany's color nearly started to match her hair. I understood the feeling. It was more than just being in love, it was the fact that she was a girl in love, a girl who hadn't always been a girl.

That left Alex speechless, which was a feat that didn't happen nearly often enough. Thankfully, a hammering came from the other side of the room to distract us from this terribly awkward turn of conversation. It was time to find out what our final day as pledges would be like.

"Pledges! Congratulations, this has been one of our best years, and I'm sure you can see that most of you have made it this far. I want to commend you all for your flexibility and willingness to try new things. As you might have guessed that was a lot of what this whole process was about. We want our members to be open to the world and to understand other people better. What better way than to make you live a different life." Our illustrious President stood on a chair at the far end of the room as he spoke. Hamilton Prescott was every bit the preppy standing there. I was a bit concerned that he seemed to have enough of a sweater vest collection to wear a different one every day.

"Now, I'm sure you're all wondering just what your final day as women will entail. First, there are no more challenges. Tonight we'll have our big welcoming party, and conduct our final ceremonies with our sister sorority the Delta Kappas. As you all know, now that you have completed the initiation rites, you can choose to become a Tau or a Delta. That is what you need to do today, make up your mind. For some of you it will be easy, but if experience is any guide, I know that some of you are struggling with it." Prescott held up a small box so that everyone could see.

"In this box are tokens. Each pledge may take one, and you can give it to anyone you like. The person who gets this token will remember the world as it was before you changed as well as what they currently remember. I know sometimes advice from a good friend can be invaluable. You don't need to use the token, but everyone should take one, and then we'll see you at the party tonight." He started to turn away from the crowd and then switched back. "Oh! You are also free to bring a date! Now make the most of your day!"

Prescott started walking around the room and handing out tokens. I turned back to the other girls. Everyone seemed lost in thought for a moment.

"So, have you all decided?" Alex was naturally the one to break through the quiet.

Not that it worked. Everyone just glanced around at each other. I think I was pretty much matching Brittany's level of red as we blushed together. Megan seemed a bit more confident, but Alex was the one smiling from ear to ear.

"Did you?" I finally asked. It really seemed like she was about ready to burst, but didn't want to blurt it out.

"Yep, totally Delta, all the way." Alex proclaimed. The fire in her eyes left me with no doubt that she meant it. As focused as I was on my own decision, this was straight out of left field.

"What?" Megan gasped. She was pretty much speaking for all of us. Sure, Alex had gone all in on the whole embrace the experience thing, but she never hinted for a moment that it was anything other than a wild adventure for her. The implication that she would change back was always there. The thought that she wouldn't was just shocking.

"What? How could I give up this?" Alex waved her hands over her admittedly awesome curves. "I've never had such great sex, and it is just awesome playing guys for chumps."

"But, what about like babies and periods?" Brittany broke in. Staying as a woman meant going along for the whole ride, including the icky parts. It wasn't all just sex.

"Hey, being a mom could be cool and I can handle periods if it means I get to enjoy getting bent over and having my pussy hammered till I faint." Alex replied. There wasn't a hint of doubt in her voice. That part wasn't surprising, at least. If there was one thing about Alex that was true, once she made up her mind, that decision would stand.

"So, how about you?" Alex looked at Brittany and the red head blushed right down to her cleavage.

"I... I don't know. I mean, I liked being a guy, but I like being a girl too. And then there's Stan." She squirmed in her seat. I didn't need to ask to know just how she felt about this guy. I had the same issue with Max. The girl part of me loved him fully, and the guy part of me loved him in the awkward way that guys had when they loved each other platonically. I never had any issues with being a guy, but there hadn't ever been an option.

"I'm going Tau." Megan tossed in. I knew she was just interrupting to get the fire off of Brittany. Then she turned to me. "What about you, Alison? Going to keep the boobs?"

I just had to look down at that. Over the past few days it had actually become normal to see the twin mounds of flesh jutting out in front of me, and to feel them jiggling pretty much any time I moved. They were nice, soft and round, and my girly side was always happy I'd grown such an attractive pair.

"They are pretty nice." I giggled and then cupped them and gave my chest a little bounce. Someone had to lighten the mood. "I don't know either. It's been a crazy week, and well, I guess I have a use for my token."

That was what summed it up. The whole notion was freaky scary though. If I gave Max the token, he'd remember everything, what I had been, and what I was now. I didn't know how he would react to that. If I just stayed Alison, he'd never know I'd been anything different unless I gave him the token.

Lucky enough that was the moment Prescott walked by with his little box. "Ladies, here are your tokens."

Everyone reached in to grab one. I felt the strange warmth in the little piece of metal just like the spell book so many days ago. I turned it around in my fingers. Aside from a few dark runes carved in the middle it looked like a slightly weathered slug of steel.

"Will the person I give this to always remember everything, or just for today?" I asked.

"They will remember until the ceremony tonight. After that they'll forget again, unless you want them to remember. We do have an exception for one person for each pledge. They'll have to take the same oath to never reveal our secrets though." Prescott explained. I nodded. It made sense, and I was glad they were so accommodating.

"Thanks." I felt a bit relieved. As always it seemed like they had an escape valve programmed into their system. For me, it made this all the easier. If I gave him the token and freaked out, I could just let him forget again.

"Oh, and I should have mentioned this before, but the spell that allows both sets of memories comes with a bit of a reaction limiter to keep people from freaking out completely." Prescott added before he wandered off to the next table.

"So, I guess I'll get to find out what you two chose tonight." Alex shot me and Brittany both a look and then dragged Megan off before we could say anything else.

"I think she wants us to have a chance to talk." Brittany flashed me a weak smile.

"Or she wants to make arrangements to sleep with Megan after she changes back." I giggled. I wouldn't put it past Alex. That was the kind of kinky thing she'd go for in a heartbeat. I imagined there would be a lot of that going on tonight after people started to change back.

"That would be Alex." She nodded. "I still can't believe she's so sure to stay a girl though. I mean, I knew she liked all this, but wow."

"I know, but she never goes half way does she?" I smiled. "But then it's up to us now. I never thought I'd be making a choice like this."

"Yeah, but it's crazy. I guess you're going to give your token to your guy friend right?"

"Yep, I really do care what he thinks. We've been through a lot together, from both sides and I have to admit I've kind of fallen for him." I squirmed a bit at that admission. It was easier to tell Brittany since I knew she was going through much the same thing.

"I know. I never thought I could get a crush on a guy, but here I am. I just feel kind of silly staying a girl just for that though, you know? What if he dumps me, and then I'll still be a girl and can't change back." She explained.

"Exactly. No matter what my feelings are for him, it's about more than that. Do I want to be Alison forever, no matter what?" That was the truth, even if it didn't feel that easy. Having found someone I really loved didn't make it easy to just walk away, no matter what happened.

"Well, there's only one thing to do, now." Brittany got up, and I followed. "I'll see you tonight."

"You too. Take care." I turned to her and gave her a big hug. We both needed it. It was still a bit weird though.

"Wow, too much boobs." Brittany giggled as we jiggled against each other for a moment. I laughed with her. It was just a crazy feeling, but I felt my mood lighten just like that.

"Yeah, but we have to enjoy them while we got 'em." I agreed. We parted ways. There was still a lot to do today, and standing around here wouldn't get it done any faster. I turned the token around in my fingers and then reached for my cell phone.

It didn't take much to get Max to agree to an early lunch. After the last few days I knew he hadn't gotten enough of me. I'm sure he was swirling in a wild flurry of sexual daydreams by now. If that wasn't enough, I was about to throw him another huge curve ball.

I didn't let the token leave my hand. It was just too important, I couldn't let it get lost somehow. So I spent the rest of the morning running it over my fingers like one of those Chinese worry balls. I hadn't felt this anxious in years. It wasn't just Max, it was myself. I didn't even know what I wanted. My old life as a guy hadn't been bad or anything, but I'd never really had a choice, it was just the way things were.