Raging Love Ch. 09

"He's your son!" Granny hollered. "Sean is Travis and your son. When I was staying with them, I found out that Travis was pregnant when he left our house six years ago."

Antonio felt so scared that his hands began trembling. "No, granny. I think you're not completely fine. Travis is a man. It is impossible for him to get pregnant or give birth. Sean is Travis' son but he's not my son."

Eduardo nodded. "I agree. It scientifically...."

"It is but it is possible with the almighty. I don't know how but he got pregnant and Sean is the product of that pregnancy. Sean is your son."

Antonio's body felt really cold. He froze where he stood, staring at granny like he was going insane. There was no way Sean was his son. It was impossible, right? It couldn't be the truth.

"You need to get him back. He's your son. You cannot lose Travis."

Antonio was feeling really cold but then fear took control of him. Images of his first encounter with Sean started forming in his mind. He remembered how he had felt the first time he had laid eyes on him, the peace he felt and how emotional he got. But most of all, he remembered the connection that he had felt.

'Handsome uncle!'

Antonio gulped and stood up slowly, tears flowing down his cheeks. He looked at granny once again and couldn't still believe it. "It is impossible. Sean's not my son. I... I...."

"You need to get him back." Granny pleaded. "If you think I am lying to you then... why don't you go and ask him?"

Antonio took a deep breath, getting back to his senses. He rushed to his confused looking brother. "Where is Sean's room, Eduardo? Where?"

"Room 554!"

Eduardo didn't even finish his sentence and Antonio was already running out of that room like the hounds of hell where after him. He ran through the hospital like a crazy man, not caring who he bumped into. All he wanted was to reach Sean's room and get an explanation from Travis.

Antonio didn't take long and he reached the room, badging in like he was crazy. But unfortunately for him, he found one of the nurses busy arranging the room.

"Nurse!" He gasped. He was out of breath. "Where is the little boy that was admitted into this room?"

"Oh sorry, sir!" The nurse apologized. "They went home an hour ago."

"Fuck!" He cursed and started running out of the room.

He was gonna find Travis one way or another. He wasn't gonna stop.

***

Travis felt at peace when he finally entered his house together with his family. He got really happy and relieved and he also thanked the almighty that Antonio hadn't come back. He was holding his son in his arms tightly, rubbing on his back. He was happy that his son was at least fine except for the healing process which remained.

"Here we are." Vanessa said, taking a deep sigh. "Would you like anything?"

Travis sat on the couch with his son on his lap. He looked at him and the boy smiled. Travis couldn't help but smile. His son was a really strong boy. Since working up the second time, he hadn't cried or complained of pain. In fact, he had been the one who had even wiped Travis' tears when he had cried.

"Baby, is it hurting?" He asked, slowly looking at the bandage on around his head. And when Sean shook his head, Travis smiled and kissed his cheeks. "Would you like anything to eat? Daddy will cook for you anything you want."

"Chocolate!" Sean giggled. "I want chocolate and ice cream."

Travis chuckled. "I will give you chocolate and ice cream later, baby. Right now, you need something warm. You haven't had anything."

"But I want ice cream." Sean said.

"Hmmm..." Travis moaned. "Okay, why don't you go upstairs with granny to freshen up? Then daddy will make you soup and after that you can have all the chocolate you want. Deal?" He stretched his hand.

"Okay, daddy!" Sean shook Travis' hand and kissed his cheek. Travis couldn't help but get emotional. His son was back. It was a pity he had a wound.

"Alright!" Travis hugged his son, getting up from the couch.

But before Travis could even give his son to Vanessa, a maid came rushing inside. "Excuse me Sir. Travis, there's a man causing trouble outside looking for you."

Travis frowned as he gave Sean to his grandmother. "Who is it?" He didn't remember giving anyone his address.

"I don't know, sir."

Santiago rushed to the door and once he glanced outside, he felt a shiver go down his spine. He quickly came back to Travis, looking at him in fear. "Travis, it's... it's Antonio."

"What?" Travis gasped, feeling his heart jump in his chest. "What is he doing here and how did he find me?"

"Celine!" Vanessa felt really scared. "She's been here before. I think she gave him the address."

Travis gripped his hair, feeling really mad. He had no idea what he was gonna do. And he had thought that he had gotten away from Antonio once and for all. The idiot followed him home.

"Sir, the guards tried to stop him but he grabbed one of their guns and forced himself inside. He's calling for you."

Santiago clenched his fists. "I will go and face him. He needs to leave you alone."

"No!" Antonio shook his head, staring at his aunt who was holding Sean tightly. "Aunt, please, don't let Sean come out. I will go and face Antonio. Take care of Sean."

Vanessa agreed and started rushing upstairs together with Santiago. Travis took a deep breath and got out of the house. He found Antonio holding out a gun while shouting his name like he was going out of his mind.

"Why are you here?" Travis said harshly. "What the hell do you still want from me?"

Antonio quickly turned and dropped the gun when he saw Travis standing there looking stern but very sexy. "You!"

He started rushing to him, getting closer. But Travis started taking steps backwards, getting away from him. His pain slowly started coming back and he retaliated when Antonio tried to touch him. Antonio on the other hand could see the pain on Travis' face and it hurt him like hell.

"You're the reason why I am here, Praveen."

"Don't touch me!" Travis warned. "Stay away."

He tried to touch the boy but he retaliated again. "Praveen...."

"Don't you touch me!" He warned, his voice sounding a little bit weak. He had no idea why he suddenly got weak. "I am warning you, Antonio!" He raised his finger. "You won't like what I will do next if you don't leave from here."

"But why?"

"If you don't, I will have you arrested for trespassing. Why can't you leave me alone? Go back to your family."

"I can't. Can't you see?" Antonio was getting weaker. His heart was racing and he was tearing up. "I love you so much, Praveen. I know I was a fool but put yourself in my shoes. I am helpless here. I am still your husband and..."

"Stop it!" Travis warned, his eyes becoming glassy. "You're not my husband. For the last time, I am not Praveen!" He yelled and then started walking away angrily. "What do you want me to do so that you can leave me alone? I don't want..."

But as Travis was still talking, Antonio pulled on his arm abruptly and the next thing he felt was the man's lips locking on his. He felt like he'd been connected to a cable of electricity when Antonio's lips started sucking on his, kissing him tenderly and passionately. Travis felt really weak to the point where he couldn't do anything.

The way Antonio was holding his waist tightly while he moaned as he kissed him... the way he pulled him closer, leaving no space in between them and the way he smelt, it all made Travis even weaker. But then his emotions started taking over and he started responding, closing his eyes. But before they were completely shut, he tore his mouth away from Antonio's lips and pushed him away furiously.

Then before the guy even realized it, he gave him a really hot slap.

"How dare you!" He roared, trying to fight his tears. "You're despicable. Get lost and..."

He raised his hand to slap him again but got surprised when Antonio caught his hand sweetly and just looked into his face. "Tell me you didn't feel anything from that kiss? Tell me you didn't feel my love from it because I felt love from yours."

Travis withdrew his hand and got away from the guy. "Get out of here! Get out or I'll have you arrested."

Antonio was really hurt. "You have changed in so many ways, Praveen. What's happened to you? Now you're this... this cold hearted Travis?" He said, a tear rolling down his cheek. "What do I have to do to earn your forgiveness? I know that my Praveen is still inside there. I can tell from your embrace, from the way you kissed me."

Travis got even weaker and he furiously rubbed his tears. The more Antonio got closer the more Travis got weak. His heart was racing so much and he felt like the guy was torturing him. It was too painful and he knew he needed to get out of there.

"You're still my Praveen."

"Why?" Travis shook his head as another series of tears made their way down his cheeks. "What is your proof that I want you? You got that from a stolen kiss? You abandoned me and you think you're just gonna come here, kiss me and everything's gonna go back to normal. You're so pathetic and annoying. I don't love you and I don't want to do anything with you. I don't even want to have any connection with you. Get out of here before I order my guards to hurt you."

With those words, Travis started and started rushing back in the house.

"What about my son?"

Travis felt like something had just entered inside of him, taking his entire strength away. His eyes widened as he was suddenly struck by chills. He got really scared and his heart started pounding in his chest, threatening to rip out. His hands trembled and he felt out of breath.

He furiously turned and looked at Antonio, wondering how the guy had found out. But he wasn't gonna give him the pleasure of making him weak. "What son?" He gasped, acting like a deer caught in headlight. "What are you talking about?"

"Sean?" Antonio said softly. "He's my son, isn't he?"

Travis laughed bitterly, raising an eyebrow. "You are even more pathetic and crazier than I thought. Sean is my son and not yours? Are you stupid? You're only wasting your time here so I suggest..."

"I know exactly what I am talking about?" Antonio snapped, getting closer to the boy. "That boy in there is my son because granny told me everything."

Travis felt like dying right there. Shit! He could feel sweat forming on his skin and he gulped as he tried to come to terms with what he had heard.

"She told me that you were pregnant when you left that house." Antonio said with tears forming. "I don't know how you got pregnant but I believe that Sean is my son. My grandmother cannot lie to me."

Travis was getting weaker. "You're so pathetic. Where did you see a man getting pregnant and giving birth? You're just really desperate and..."

"I will not listen to anything you say right now. As much as it sounds crazy, I believe granny because I don't know what I felt the first time I saw Sean. Take off your shirt!" Antonio demanded, getting closer. But Travis got away from him. "Show me your belly."

"What?"

"Or better still, let me go in there and see Sean." He added, making Travis so scared that he started panting. "I will take him for a paternity test."

Travis's felt warm tears running down his cheeks. "If you think I will let you take my son with you then you're dead wrong, Antonio Gonzalez. I will fight you till the last drop of my blood if you dare touch him!" He yelled, looking at him in disgust. "Get out of here!"

"What are you so afraid of?" Antonio got closer. "If Sean is not my son then why should you worry? It won't take long. Sean!" Antonio yelled at the top of his voice. "Sean! It's your father."

"No! Please, don't call him." Travis cried, getting closer to Antonio. "Please!"

"Sean, come out. It's..."

"He's your son!" Travis said abruptly.

When Antonio heard that, he felt his entire body go cold. He looked at Travis and saw him crying, looking really vulnerable. Antonio's face got flooded with tears as he got emotional.

'He's your son!' Those words rang through his mind.

Antonio's heart started racing and honestly, he got really scared. "I... I have a son?" He gasped, his eyes widening as he got closer to Travis. "We have a son? How's this possible? How..."

But Travis shrugged off his hand and moved away. "Don't ever touch me, Antonio. What do you think, huh? That by coming back to me, I am gonna just welcome you with open arms?"

Antonio remained standing there like a statue with tears on his face. He had so much joy inside of him yet he couldn't even embrace the boy that he loved so much. He was a father now and he got really emotional. All that he wanted to do so bad was to hold Travis in his arms, kiss his lips tenderly and just be the way they were before everything went sour.

He got closer. "Please forgive me!" He muttered. "I can't even imagine the pain that you went through, being pregnant and giving birth to our son. You raised him all alone and... and I wasn't there to help you through the entire process. Please," He put his hands together. "Forgive me."

Travis sobbed. "Why? And... for how many mistakes should I forgive you?"

Antonio shook his head. "I don't even know how to answer that question. I had promised that I would protect you and would cause you no pain. I promised to stand by your side and never leave you alone. That night...." He paused and cried like a little baby. "...that night I broke all the promises that I made to you. I never stood by your side through thick and thin. I am sorry."

Travis frowned, his mouth shaking uncontrollably. "Why?"

"Because I can't live without you!" Antonio said softly. "Because I love you. Because I want us to raise our son together as a family. I wanna know my son. I wanna hold you in my arms when I sleep and wake up with you each morning."

Travis tried to fight his tears but he couldn't. With each word that he heard from Antonio, his pain got out of hand. "So Antonio..." He furiously rubbed his tears. "...now that you've found out the truth about what really happened to you, I am worthy of you?" His voice was rising. "That's why you are apologizing to me?"

Antonio shook his head slowly. He didn't even know what to say to the boy he loved.

"Why, Antonio?" He cried. "Why should I forgive you?"

Antonio got closer. "Because whether we want it or not, whether we accept it or not, our destiny has tied us together. Remember when we got married six years ago, the priest said that our hearts are destined to be together."

Travis just looked at Antonio and continued crying. His heart was weeping and it was hurting so terribly. It was like something sharp had pierced it.

"Because you were right, Praveen." He added. "I am not perfect, I am a fool. Our destinies are tied together and we were already late. I wanna be with you." He moved his hand and caressed the boy's cheek, making him slightly close his eyes as he wept. "I am sorry. I am so sorry."

Travis could feel Antonio's hot breaths on his face.... he could feel him getting closer.... He could feel the passion in his breaths and the way he breathed that he wanted him. But when he felt Antonio's lips brush on his, he furiously opened his eyes and pushed him away from him.

"Don't touch me, Antonio!" He warned. "Don't even think of coming near me. Why should I forgive you? After all that you made me go through in your hands. You hated me, Antonio. You literally tortured me in that house. Not only did you physically torture me but you also did it emotionally and mentally. You have found out about Sean and so what?" He snapped.

Antonio remained standing there with nothing but tears, feeling the weakness preying on him.

"You promised you were gonna stand by side but you broke your promise that same night. People brought some pictures and you didn't even think twice to throw me out like some whore!" He cried, yelling at the man. "You didn't even care about what was gonna happen to me. You sent me out there in the middle of the night. I almost... almost got raped, Antonio!" He cried, breathing like he was in labor.

"If not for Santiago, the same man whose life you destroyed, would you still be here asking for forgiveness?" Antonio shook his head, crying softly. "No! You destroyed my life, Antonio and along with that you got me pregnant. You shattered my soul with your rejection and your words. I became a shadow of myself. I couldn't face anyone. Do you know that I died, Antonio?" He asked harshly.

Antonio couldn't even utter a word. It was like someone was crushing his heart from the inside. He could see the pain on his lover's face and it hurt him so much.

"I committed suicide at the holy river."

"Oh my God, baby..." Antonio tried to get closer but Travis gestured for him not to even move. "...I am so sorry."

"I survived by a miracle and it was because of Santiago." He yelled. "But still the almighty gave me two reasons to live that day because I found out I was pregnant and I also found out that... that..." He paused and just cried uncontrollably, feeling weak and cold. "...I found out about a father I never even knew of. He did his best to try and bring me out of my misery. But through all this drama, I lost him all because he sacrificed his life for me.

My father donated his blood after Sean's birth because I had difficulties during my caesarian section and lost a lot of blood. He never cared about his heart problem. All he wanted was to see both his son and grandson live. He died right in my arms. Do you know the pain of losing a father even before you knew who he was? Where were you?"

Antonio put his hands together, getting closer. He took Travis' hands but Travis furiously pushed him once again, leaving him vulnerable. "Please, I am sorry. I was also a victim in this. Please... forgive me for the sake of..."

"Don't you dare say it!" Travis warned. "You were supposed to be there for me, for Sean. But you were busy having fun with your lover throughout town."

Antonio shook his head abruptly. "I am sorry." His voice was barely above a whisper.

"I almost lost Sean. I almost had a miscarriage and I was so scared." He said softly, rubbing his tears. But they came right back. "I had difficulties my entire pregnancy because my handle couldn't handle the stress you gave me, Antonio. And now you think that you can just come back and everything will be alright? No!"

"I know I messed up, Praveen." Antonio cried, dropping to his knees. "But I have suffered a lot too. For the last six years, I have lived in pain, the pain of loving you. I was living in self-denial. I still loved you."

Travis chuckled bitterly, getting closer. "You still loved me, really?" His face then got stern. "If you still loved me then why did you marry someone else? Why?"

Antonio was quiet. He didn't even know what had happened to him.

"I will answer that question for you." Travis furiously rubbed his tears. "It is because the fucking dirty, village boy that was ruining your life was no longer there. You wanted to live your life now with the one you truly loved."

Why did it hurt so much by saying that?

"That's not true, my love..." Antonio shook his head abruptly. "...I accept that I was a fool. I was just in pain and I thought that I was gonna be happy. But the love that I had for you was actually stronger than I thought because forget about you. Please, I am begging you. Forgive me. Don't deny me the chance of being a husband to you, of being a father to Sean. I promise that I will make it up to you in whichever way you want. Let's go back to the way we were, please."

Travis felt his heart stop for a second and when it eventually started beating again, he felt really terrible pain.

"What's there to fix, Antonio?" He said in a painful tone. "There was nothing between us in the first place. What happened that night was a mistake that..."