Sexual Secrets

The first few weeks of college for an incoming freshman are anything but normal. Attempting to locate all of your classes, not to mention the dining hall, student center, library and every other damn place can be a challenge for many. The task gets even more challenging if the campus sprawls throughout a town as was the case at this small, liberal arts college in central Maine.

On top of everything else, and at the heart of any freshman's adjustment to college life, is getting familiar with a roommate. It certainly is easier today than it used to be. Thanks to modern technology and social media, incoming freshmen have the unique opportunity to make contact and get to know one another before ever meeting in person. Yet, there is usually a period of awkwardness when two people, unfamiliar with each other in any real way, are thrown into a tiny room together -- not much larger than a jail cell -- and attempt to live ordinary lives.

Such was the case with Logan Temple and Aidan Simmons, two wide-eyed freshmen who wandered around campus in a daze for a couple weeks as they took in their new environment and adapted to a different way of living.

For all practical purposes, Logan and Aidan were a perfect match. They had similar schedules throughout the day with classes in the morning and work study assignments in the afternoon. It even happened that they shared two classes together -- the required freshman English and Math. Regarding work, Aidan was in the library sorting and shelving what few book students used anymore, and Logan managed to find a job in the Bursar's office stuffing envelopes, a rather tedious and boring exercise.

Both were early risers and walked to the dining hall together each morning with a small handful of others to eat breakfast before beginning their day. Similarly, they would trek back there in the evening for dinner and then to their small dorm room, which overlooked a large pond, to do homework.

They were also alike in their study habits, preferring to complete any reading or other assignments directly after dinner before venturing out to mingle with others in their doom before going to bed.

For the first couple of weeks neither Logan nor Aidan endeavored to go very far from their dorm room, except to attend class, or eat, or work. They weren't necessarily shy people, but they weren't the most outgoing either. To be honest, they actually preferred each other's company to that of anyone else they had met, and they came to the conclusion that whichever person in the Admissions Office who put their two names together for roommates deserved a medal.

They had heard horror stories about crazy roommate situations, but theirs was certainly not the case. They had found out quickly that they had much more in common than they could have ever imagined -- and that realization would only strengthen as the semester progressed.

Aidan was the more self-confident of the two, relaxed and casual in almost every respect. He possessed an easy sense of himself, was carefree and honest. The adage, "What you see is what you get," would aptly describe him. Maybe it helped that Aidan was from Massachusetts, so going away to college in a neighboring state didn't require much of an overall adjustment for him. Or maybe he had just experienced more things in his young life than others, from his parent's divorce and being sent away to various camps at an early age.

Standing at 5 feet 11 inches, Aidan was a nice, respectable size and had developed some definite muscles from the many athletics he played. This had included soccer in the fall and basketball in the winter, followed by baseball in the spring and swimming all summer long. Although, he wasn't involved in any athletic program at the college.

Aidan had dark brown hair and green eyes that sparkled with an element of mischief or deviousness, depending on the situation. He also possessed a great sense of humor and he found no better target than himself. He liked to laugh and have fun, never taking anything or anyone very seriously -- including himself. It was hardly any wonder that many people, including his new roommate, found Aidan easy and fun to be around.

Logan, on the other, hailed from California and looked every bit of it. He was thin, almost sinewy in shape, and measured 5 feet 7 inches in length. He looked as if a strong wind would knock him on his ass. His hair was dirty blond with a slight natural curl, especially when wet, and he always wore a pair of Keds without socks and Bahama shorts in every imaginable hue. Logan also emitted a fragrance that was like something tropical. Aidan didn't know if it was the shampoo Logan used, or his body wash or deodorant, or it was just the way people from California smelled, but he liked it a lot.

Upon first glance, Logan almost looked like some surfer dude, except smaller and with less build. Still, he fit the mental picture Aidan had about people from California. When questioned about why he had come across the entire country to attend college, Logan told his new roommate that it was because Maine was as far away from his parents as he could possibly get without going abroad. This was something Aidan could understand perfectly.

In addition, Logan was quiet and reserved. It wasn't that he was particularly withdrawn as he got along with everyone very well, he was just a bit more distant and guarded than Aidan -- more cautious in his approach to people and circumstances. Aidan suspected his new friend had been through some turmoil in his life and trusting others didn't necessarily come easy for him.

Yet, despite any differences they had, Logan and Aidan got along exceptionally well and assimilated very quickly into their new surroundings and daily routines. They also agreed on most issues and shared similar viewpoints. Under the circumstances, they felt lucky to have one another.

It was during the last week in September, just as the leaves started to turn color and the days grew noticeably shorter, that both of their lives changed forever. It began innocently enough, as things of this nature often do, but it was profound enough to last a lifetime.

Logan had a habit of showering each evening after he completed his homework. It was during this time, when he was down the hall in the bathroom, that Aidan would jerk himself off since it was one of the few times all day that he was entirely alone.

This particular night, as Aidan was tugging vigorously toward climax, Logan appeared in the doorway wrapped in a towel, his hair all wet and curled. He stepped through the door just as Aidan's dick erupted with several squirts of white juice. Logan's sudden intake of breath alerted Aidan to his presence and he turned to see his roommate staring at him.

"Um...," Aidan stammered, firmly stroking his cock with his right hand.

Logan was both shocked and embarrassed. It certainly wasn't like he didn't masturbate, he just didn't expect to see his roommate going at it. "Uh...I...sorry." He quickly came in the room, then turned around to shut and lock the door.

Grabbing some Kleenex from the small box on his desk, Aidan wiped up his goo and cleaned off his prick. "I...uh...wasn't expecting you so soon. Obviously. You took a quick shower tonight."

"Did I? I'm sorry," Logan repeated, although he didn't know why he was apologizing. He wasn't the one standing there with his dick in his hands.

"Yeah -- I usually finish way before you come back." Aidan smiled meekly at his roommate as he tucked his limp dick back in his pants.

Logan walked to his bed and took a seat. He wasn't really sure what to do or say. Thankfully, Aidan did the talking for both of them.

"Look, Logan. We need to talk about this. I mean, you know...now that it happened. I didn't mean for you to see that, and I hope you're not too embarrassed but we need to figure things out." Aidan zipped up his shorts and took a seat on the hard metal chair in front of his desk before continuing. "I need to jack off, man. I'm used to jerking it like two or three times a day, but since starting college I'm pretty much only able to do it once and that's when you're taking a shower. I've ducked into one of the bathroom stalls in the library a couple times to rub one out, when I just couldn't wait, but I'd prefer not to do that. I'd rather to do it right here."

Sitting on his thin, uncomfortable mattress, Logan nodded his head slowly. "Yeah, I know what you mean."

"Where do you do it?" Aidan asked curiously, looking over at his friend.

Gazing down at the floor, Logan tried to hide his nervousness but it was too obvious.

Not giving his roommate the chance to feel awkward, Aidan pressed on. "Dude, there's nothing to be embarrassed about here. We're both guys, we both have penises and we both jerk off. Let's just figure out what we're gonna do, okay?"

Logan looked up at Aidan and smiled shyly at him while chuckling a little. "Yeah -- I guess you're right."

"Sooo...where do you jerk off?" Aidan swiveled his chair slightly and propped one of his legs up to rest his bare foot on the desk in front of him while keeping an eye on Logan.

"Um...usually in the shower," Logan answered. Then he started giggling. "Except I didn't tonight." He looked over at Aidan and started laughing.

"I knew you were quicker!" Aidan exclaimed, pointing a finger at Logan. Then he started laughing as well. After a couple minutes, he pressed the immediate issue again. "So, what do you want to do about this situation?"

Running a hand through his still wet and curly hair, Logan took a deep breath and stared at Aidan. "I don't know. What do you want to do?"

Aidan reclined in his chair and put his hands behind his head, thinking for a minute or so before speaking up. "Well, I'd rather jerk off in the comfort of my own room, but I don't really want you getting all embarrassed and shit every time I do." He looked over at Logan before asking him a serious question. "Have you ever jerked off in front of anyone?"

Logan had been staring down at the floor again but lifted his head up to answer. "N -- no."

"I see," Aidan answered succinctly, obviously pondering things over in his brain.

Despite feeling a little strange about everything, Logan was curious to know if his roommate had ever done that. "Have you?" he asked. It was a testament to how close the two had already become and how at ease Aidan always made him feel.

Sliding down just a bit on his chair so that he could elevate both of his feet on the desk in front of him, Aidan offered up an answer and a brief explanation. "Yeah, a few times. I can't even begin to tell you how many summer camps and sports camps my parents sent me to. Jerking off was always cheap and fun entertainment and, honestly, it's pretty cool to watch other guys beat off -- just to see how they do it, you know?"

All Logan could do was stare at his friend with a blank expression on his face. He didn't know. He knew nothing about that. The few sexual encounters he did have could be counted on one hand, and every one had been with a girl.

"Ah, I see." Aidan said, wrapping his hands back behind his head as if he was inspecting something particularly interesting on his friend or evaluating some specific evidence. After about a minute he asked, "Would you?"

"Would I what?" Logan appeared to be genuinely innocent and confused as he looked at Aidan.

Unable to contain a chuckle, Aidan's smirk suggested playfulness. "Would you masturbate in front of anyone?"

Returning his gaze back to the cold, cement floor Logan shrugged his shoulders. "I...I don't know. Maybe?" After a couple more seconds he offered up a question of his own. "Like, in front of a girl or a guy?"

"Either one." Aidan answered with an air of confidence. He was a self-assured individual who was comfortable with himself and, especially, his body. He had already had a number of sexual encounters with both boys and girls and he had enjoyed each of them immensely. Aidan loved the human body. He loved being naked and looking at other naked people. It didn't much matter to him what gender they were.

Logan appeared lost in thought for a bit. "Yeah -- I guess." He swallowed hard, having never had a conversation with anyone quite like the one he was having now. "I mean...I'm not gay."

This caused Aidan to laugh out loud. "Neither am I, Logan. Just because you jerk off with someone doesn't mean you're gay, dude."

Giving this considerable thought, Logan slowly nodded his head. "Yeah, I guess not."

Having had his fill of this conversation, Aidan was eager to come to some sort of conclusion. "So, where do we stand on the whole jerking off issue? I think we should figure that out now since the semester just started, and that way we can avoid any more -- uh -- embarrassing situations."

Logan looked at his roommate and nodded his head.

"Good," continued Aidan. "Look, how about this? If I feel like jerking off I'll let you know. That way, if you want to leave the room, you can. If you want to stay, you can do that too. And if you also want to whack off, then you can. Does that sound fair?"

A puzzled look came over Logan's face. "I thought the college had blocked all the porn sites?"

"Oh, they have," Aidan told him. Then, with another wicked smirk he said, "But, there are ways around that Logan. There are always ways around that."

"Cool," was all Logan said. He was tired of looking at porn on his cell phone anyway.

"I watch porn all the time. I fucking love it." Aidan swung his legs down, scooted his chair up to the desk and opened his laptop. "I also go on Omegle and Sex Roulette and Jerkmate and Chaturbate from time to time just for variety and to look at some real people. And there are some really fucked up people out there Logan. Still, it's fun to watch others sometimes. It always gets me hard."

Aidan turned his head to look at Logan, still sitting in the same position on his bed, his hands bracing themselves next to his body, which had completely dried along with his sandy colored hair.

"You ever do that Logan? Go to those website?" Aidan talked like he was conducting an interview or taking a survey.

Logan could only shake his head. That was something else he hadn't done, although he had never really considered doing that.

"Hmmm." Aidan looked at his roommate skeptically, either doubting Logan or unsure how to proceed. Finally, he announced, "Well, you should try it Logan. In fact, I think there are a lot of things you should try. Seems like you haven't really done that much. Time to rise and shine, buddy. You're in college now!" Aidan beamed over at his friend.

Smiling in spite of himself, Logan chuckled. "Yeah -- I guess there is a lot of things I need to try."

"Yes, there is," Aidan answered definitively. "Now, come over here and watch some porn with me if you want."

After a brief initial hesitation, Logan got up and walked over to stand next to Aidan as he opened a couple tabs and accessed two different porn sites. After all, Logan was still a healthy and curious person and he definitely liked looking at porn.

"What do you like to watch?" Aidan inquired.

"Um...anything really," Logan said with a slight pause.

Clicking on one of the images, Aidan told him, "I like orgies. The more people, the better for me."

They started watching a group of naked college kids run through the halls of their dorm before congregating in one room and partying together. Naturally, this quickly led to a few of the people kissing, groping each other and messing around -- and that, in turn, led to some couples fucking.

Several minutes into the video, Logan began to sprout a boner. Seated below and to the left of him, Aidan could see Logan's towel tenting out from the side of his vision. Aidan lifted his right hand and tapped Logan's hard-on. "What's this?" he asked.

Logan jumped in surprise. "S -- sorry."

Aidan turned in his chair to look at his friend. "Don't apologize, man. It's cool." As Logan backed up a couple steps and stood there, feebly trying to cover his stiffness, Aidan continued. "Well, come on. Let's see it then."

"Wh -- what?" Logan looked aghast at his roommate and his eyes widened in surprise.

Aidan crossed his arms and leaned back in his chair. "Your dick, Logan. Let's see your dick. Whip it out, dude."

Logan had never exposed his penis to another guy before and couldn't help but feel a little insecure in front of Aidan who was muscular and lean and, from what he could tell, had a pretty nice dick himself.

"Come on Logan. You already saw mine. It's only fair, don't you think?" Aidan tried to encourage his roommate while making him feel comfortable as well as a little guilty.

Logan said the first thing that came to mind. "I really didn't see yours. I mean -- I didn't really look at it."

Aidan narrowed his eyes at Logan, pretending to be irritated. "You want to see it? I'll show you."

Logan laughed at loud. He found his roommate very entertaining and astonishingly open. "No. You don't have to do that."

"Alright. Then show me yours. I want to see it." Aidan kept his hands crossed but sat up straight in his chair as if preparing for a debate. When Logan continued to hesitate, Aidan continued. "Come on dude. It's just a penis. It's okay, I'm not gonna laugh at it. We probably should've done this on the first day anyway. It would have broken the ice." When he finished speaking Aidan chuckled heartily at his own humor, and that was enough to relax his roommate.

Grabbing the top of his towel, Logan pulled it outward and opened it up with both hands to expose himself. By this time, his dick was returning to its normal size but Aidan stared intently at it. Logan's penis hung down a few inches and had a big, rounded head at the tip. Most of the penises Aidan had ever seen came to a nice point at the tip, like a missile, but Logan's dick looked like he had a tiny apple on the tip. His balls were somewhat small, almost hidden behind his cock, and his pubic hair was the same sandy color as on his head, which Aidan had not expected.

Jutting his head back and forth as if in rhythm to some silent melody only he could hear, Aidan finally commented. "You've got a really nice package Logan."

"Thanks," he said demurely before wrapping the towel back around his waist.

Without much thought, Aidan concluded, "You're really good looking Logan. A very attractive guy."

Nobody had ever told Logan that he was attractive. A couple times he had been described as cute, but no one ever said he was attractive and it surprised him. It also meant quite a lot to him. "Thanks. That -- that's very nice of you to say."

"Well, it's true and I mean it," Aidan told him in a matter-of-fact manner. Standing up abruptly, he asked, "Wanna see mine?" He began unzipping his shorts before Logan could even reply. With one swift move, Aidan dropped his shorts and briefs to expose his dick. His also hung down a few inches but was slightly thicker, with the head of his penis narrower at the tip and surrounded by coarse, black pubic hair that ran in a straight line up to his belly button. Aidan's balls were bigger than Logan's and hung down below his limp dick.

This was the first penis Logan had ever seen in person -- other than his own, of course -- and he wasn't exactly sure what to say, although he had to admit he liked looking at it. He thought it was probably good to finally see someone else's dick. "You've got a great package too, Aidan."

Patting his crotch seductively, Aidan said, "Thanks. Me and this little guy have had a lot of fun together." Then he started laughing all over again and this time Logan joined in heartily.

The next night found the two roommates in their usual spot doing homework when Aidan spoke up and broke the silence. "Hey, I'm gonna look at some porn, is that alright?"