Storm of Shadows Ch. 12

He was about to continue ahead when he slowed and turned back to them.

"Have you seen anything untoward?" he asked tersely. If anyone was watching, there would be no indication of who he was asking the question. All three shook their heads in the negative, recognising what he was really asking, and ensuring that no one would be any the wiser that it was to Natalia his hidden gaze was fixated.

"We will stop at the next clearing," Agony announced, keeping his voice low. "Mila, please stay close to Natalia when we do. I will need confirmation all is well with Louis. Once you are all sure, Dante and Louis will meet with Dara and I away from the main group. I will provide an update then." He didn't wait for confirmation, heading forward once more to catch up with Dara.

"He's such a charmer."

He heard Natalia's droll words and his lip twitched at her aggrieved tone. She thought he was being misogynist having Mila and her stay behind. While there was an element of wanting to protect her because she was human and frail, he also wanted her to be watching the other vampires to make sure none of them were compromised. Mila was more than capable of taking care of not only herself but also Natalia if needed. His mate should realise that the fact he was willing to leave them alone without strong male supervision was a compliment and not a detriment to them.

He had almost reached Dara when his thoughts finally registered, and for the first time in his life he actually stumbled over a section of large rocks on the trail.

His friend's head whipped around, surprise crossing her face at his clumsiness. She stared at him for a fraction of a second, and then her lips twitched in a small smile, and she arched a perfect brow. "Agony? Is everything okay?"

It was as if she could read his mind and knew exactly what was going on inside his head. He was aware that wasn't the case, but it didn't stop him feeling annoyed. "Fine," he bit out, ensuring that he kept his expression as neutral as possible even though internally his thoughts were reeling. He didn't have time to deal with this latest development, but his mind refused to let go of the revelation.

He had called Natalia his mate. Not Kothari, not the panther, but him, Agony.

When had this happened? How had he allowed it to happen? He couldn't believe that he was acknowledging the unthinkable, that he was agreeing with Kothari's claim that the girl was their mate. She couldn't be...she just couldn't. And yet, he was as protective of the girl as he was of his parents and pack members. He allowed her to speak to him in ways he allowed no others. More importantly, he listened to her when she spoke, really listened, not just tolerated what was being said as he usually did with others. Somewhere along the way he had allowed Natalia to get under his skin but it was something he couldn't deal with now.

"I was able to talk with my parents. They are unharmed but being held captive in a cave. They have been drugged but their immune systems are combatting the drugs. They reckon the potency of the toxin is diminishing, but they're pretending to be unconscious."

"That's fantastic news," Dara smiled, relief crossing her face. "Can they get away? If they can make their way towards us we may not have to get into a fight with their captors."

He shook his head and then let his gaze travel back to where Natalia was talking to Mila. "I've asked them to stay there for now. While we were talking, a wolf from Natalia's pack was brought into their cave. He's been badly injured and is not fit to travel. Father wasn't happy about leaving him behind and once I found out that he may be from Natalia's pack I asked my parents to try to him help."

He paused when Dara arched another eyebrow at him. She had started doing that a lot on the mission and it was starting to get a bit irritating. He considered passing a comment about it but then gritted his teeth. His friend knew exactly what she was doing when she gave him those looks. She was trying to get a rise out of him, to make him admit to things he didn't want to admit to.

Letting out a long sigh, he threw a glare in her direction. "Fine," he admitted. "I didn't want Natalia to have to go through any more loss if it could be helped. She's been through enough already. With the drugs no longer being an issue, my parents are no longer helpless either so they can take care of themselves should their captors try anything when we attack. Happy now?"

He waited for Dara to gloat or come out with some half-assed comment to piss him off more. Instead she smiled softly before turning to look back up the mountain. "Sounds like a good plan," she said. "We can attack on two fronts. They won't see Gard and Rayne coming from behind. I need to find some decent reception to give Rafe a call and let him know we've managed to contact them. I'll do that now."

"Agreed," he replied, pleasantly surprised that he wasn't going to have to butt heads with her. "We're going to take a break at the next clearing. Natalia has confirmed that there are no further mental incursions so far, so I've asked Dante and Louis to meet with you and I away from the group when we stop. It seems only fair to let them know where we stand. I haven't asked Mila or Natalia to join us. For one, I don't want the other vampires to think they're as important to the mission as they are, and two, if the wolf can't be saved then I don't want to get Natalia's hopes up that one of her pack is near."

His words did bring a stern look from his friend, but he kept his expression fixed, not willing to counter any arguments.

"She's much stronger than you give her credit for, Agony." Dara sighed. "How many other people do you know who could cope with losing most of her pack, her father...hell, even her mother at this point. Yet, here she is climbing through the Carpathian Mountains with a group of dangerous strangers helping to rescue your parents and alerting the rest of us to the dangers of being mentally compromised. That young woman has more backbone than half of the youngsters in our pack, and she has no physical strength or stamina to keep her going. She can handle knowing the truth of the situation."

She turned to head off to the right, to find a clearing among the trees to phone Rafe. "It's your call on what you tell her, but if you have any respect for Natalia, I would strongly suggest you tell her everything."

As she disappeared among the trees Agony considered being annoyed at her slap down, but decided it wasn't worth the effort. There was nothing Dara had said that wasn't true, and it was pointless to be annoyed just because you didn't like hearing the truth. Perhaps she was right, and he shouldn't be so overprotective. He would consider telling Natalia about the wolf once he'd briefed Dante and Louis. He would wait and see how the briefing went first.

Natalia watched the others disappear from the clearing and smothered down an irritated sigh. Agony's excluding her from whatever was being discussed annoyed her, and she was confused about the level of irritation she was experiencing. It shouldn't matter to her one way or the other being left out of the loop, but for some reason it did. Pulling a bottle of water out of her backpack she took a long drink and then nibbled on a packet of chips. She was hungry and there wasn't much to eat. She guessed she should have been thankful that someone had at least thought to pick up water and snacks for her, but it wasn't exactly proper food.

"You're not happy," Mila commented, her ebony hair swaying as her head turned towards her.

Her silver gaze should have been disconcerting, however Natalia found it comforting. Her eyes reminded her of Agony's, without the red band around the irises. "How do you put up with Alpha males' overprotectiveness?"

Mila laughed, a sweet tinkling sound that soothed the younger woman. "By allowing them to think they are actually protecting me," her friend answered with a smile. "Understanding Alpha males is a skill that you need to hone over time. The more you fight with them the more protective they become. Dante used to be a complete nightmare when we first met. It took years for him to realise that the more he took away my independence, the more he was causing me hurt. Once he realised that, he became less of a nightmare. Don't get me wrong, he still has his moments, but for the most part he behaves."

"Then why did you allow them to leave you behind from this meeting?" Natalia asked, confusion crossing her face.

Mila laughed again. "Dante and I often split our resources, Tali. We don't always do everything together." She reached out and gently touched her hand to take away any possible sting from her words. "Dante is currently gathering intel which he will share with me when he returns, and I am here with you, making sure that none of the vampires around us become compromised, and helping you develop your skills. I am also your protection detail."

Protection detail? The thought hadn't occurred to Natalia, but now that her friend mentioned it, she suddenly realised that the strongest members of their group had left them alone with the remaining vampires of Louis' coven.

"Do you think Agony would leave your protection to just anyone?" Mila continued. "The mere fact that he is content to leave you here with me is testament to the level of trust he is placing in me. Is that the actions of an overprotective Alpha male or is it an Alpha male who sees the strength and worth of a member of his team?"

"I hadn't thought of it that way," Natalia conceded, blowing out a slow breath. "I felt like we weren't good enough to be part of their meeting, not that we were performing an alternative role as part of the team."

It was a bit of an eye-opener to realise that not only her skills, but Mila's too were valued on the mission. Maybe she was giving Agony a hard time when he didn't deserve it. Sighing, she let go of the irritation she'd been feeling, and let her thoughts focus on a question she'd been dying to ask but had been biting her tongue to keep quiet. Her mother had often told her that she should engage her brain before she spoke, but sometimes she couldn't contain herself. Natalia let her curiosity have full reign and dived in headfirst.

"You and Dante are together but not together," she commented, wondering if she was trespassing into unwanted territory. "It's obvious to everyone around you that you're both crazy about each other. Why aren't you a couple? If you don't mind me asking."

For a moment she thought she had overstepped Mila's personal boundaries, but then the vampire sighed softly and stared off in the direction the male in question had vanished.

"The life of vampires can be pretty tumultuous, Tali, especially for Elder vampires. A lot of their early lives involve behaviour and actions for which they often struggle to grant themselves forgiveness. Until they can, they cannot move on and find happiness."

Natalia didn't need to ask what she meant, she had been around wolves and vampires long enough to know that their pasts were often littered with regrets. "Dante can't forgive himself his vampiric past?"

Her friend sighed again, turning back to her. "If only it was that simple," she said quietly, sadness marring her exquisite features. "Dante can't forgive himself for his human actions."

At Natalia's confused expression, she smiled sadly. "He was part of an order than hunted vampires. Only the fastest, strongest humans were allowed into the order, so he was formidable even then. Even with that, the order had to hunt vampires from a distance. The Amort poison was their creation, it was how they destroyed the vampires."

"Oh my God!" Natalia whispered, horrified at the picture the other woman was painting. From all the histories and tales she'd heard over the years there had been no mention of some secret order of humans who had hunted supernatural beings, and she had thought wolves had created the Amort poison. To discover it was humans and so long ago was astounding. Add to that fact that Dante had been part of that order...it was just mind-blowing.

For a long moment she didn't know what to say, but then she blurted out the one thought that kept rolling through her stunned mind. "But he's a vampire now." She didn't think Mila's sadness could deepen any further, but it did.

"And therein lies the dilemma," she whispered sadly. "One of his missions went awry and he was turned to the life of a vampire. Since that day he has tried to reconcile his human past with his vampiric nature. He has spent his life searching for ways to protect vampires from any dangers lurking, to track down any threats and neutralise them. He wanders the world trying to atone for every vampire life he and the order were responsible for taking. And I travel with him, waiting for the day when he is finally able to admit that he has done enough to assuage the guilt he cannot overcome."

Natalia didn't realise she was crying until a tear dropped onto their joined hands. The pain in Mila's words was overwhelming, not to mention the pain that Dante carried in his soul and had carried for centuries. She couldn't imagine how much the stoic vampire hurt inside; how hard it must be for him to come to terms with his early life. Dante was living a penance that he may never be able to overcome, and if he couldn't, then Mila and Dante would never be happy.

"That's not fair," she said, choking back a sob and struggling to contain her emotions. "You can't be apart because of something that can't be changed, Mila. And who's to say that what Dante did as a human was wrong anyway? He was protecting his people in the only way he knew how. You said Elder vampires feel guilt for the things they did in their early past. Those things were killing humans by bleeding them dry to feed. How many humans died in those times from vampires? Was the order so wrong in trying to protect humanity?"

"I know that," Mila sighed. "You know that. The issue isn't what we know but in what Dante will concede. Both Abraham and I tried to get him to see sense. He refused to listen, especially after he revealed the second part of the reason he feels so guilty."

"There's more?" Natalia didn't think Dante's story could be any more tragic.

Her friend nodded; her expression solemn. "When he was first turned, when the guilt was most raw, Dante destroyed the order he used to be a part of. He killed every single member of the order and destroyed the Amort poison...or so we thought until we found out that it had been discovered again recently. He carries guilt over that too. These were men and a handful of women who he'd fought beside for years. They hadn't realised he'd been turned until it was too late. He used the trust they had in him as a weapon and ended the order forever. Sometimes something happens and it reminds him of one of his former friends and a shadow passes over him. It can take days for the guilt to recede enough for him to get back to normal. It's heart-breaking to watch."

It was too much for Natalia and she wrapped her arms around the petite vampire, giving her the tightest hug she could. No one should feel such pain, should sound so hopeless, especially not the vampire who had quickly become one of her closest friends. "We'll find a way to make this right, Mila. I will do everything I can to help, even though I don't exactly know what I can do right now. I'll think of something though, I promise. We'll make Dante see sense, one way or another."

Her friend hugged her back, bathing in the comfort the younger woman was providing. "You are a special young woman, Natalia, more special than you will ever realise. I am honoured to have your friendship, little one, so very, very honoured."

She stopped talking, her body stiffening slightly as she drew back, her sightless eyes locking onto Natalia's face. "The wolf who is not a wolf is in need, child. His soul belongs to another though is loyalty is to you. Bring the wolf home and he will save two packs. Convince the Justice Seeker, child, when he seeks to protect his home. He is not wrong to want to protect, but he doesn't understand what is needed. Only you can convince him...only you can make him hear."

When Mila started talking it had been confusing for a second and then Natalia had realised that her friend was having a Vision. She held still, listening to every word the other woman said, trying to commit them all to memory so it could be relayed to the others later. The wolf who wasn't a wolf? That part didn't make sense. Neither did the Justice Seeker comment. Who was Mila talking about? It was clear they were two separate people, but she had no idea who they were.

"Mila?" Is the Vision finished?"

The vampire let out a slow breath and nodded. "That was unexpected," she replied, a rueful smile crossing her face. "One moment we were hugging and then next, the Vision came. It was as if touching you so personally kicked it off."

That sort of made sense in a strange way. Both their emotions had been heightened with the discussion about Dante so that could have allowed the Vision room to manifest, and as Natalia was learning, emotions played a large part in Seer type abilities.

"Do you remember what you said?" she asked.

Mila nodded again. "It wasn't a full-blown Vision, as in visual images. They are the kind of Visions that need to be examined in detail so I can recall everything. This was more like a Knowing, just words that I remember speaking."

It was relief that Mila could remember what was said and remembering was placed fully on her shoulders. It meant she could quiz her friend about what was said. Taking another drink of water, Natalia quickly scanned her gaze over the vampires at the other end of the clearing, checking that their shadows all remained unchanged. When she was satisfied, she turned back to the vampire at her side.

"Who is the Justice Seeker?"

Mila smiled and shot her a sardonic look.

That look brought a resigned sigh from Natalia. "It's Agony isn't it? He's the one I need to convince to bring the wolf home, isn't he?"

"Yes Tali, you need to convince him it's the right thing to do."

Why wasn't she surprised to hear that? It appeared that any time on this crazy mission that someone needed to talk to Agony, the responsibility fell to her. Even Dara looked to her at times and she was part of Agony's pack and someone he was particularly close too. This reliance on her to convince him didn't make sense. "Why me?" she muttered under her breath, forgetting for a moment that vampiric hearing was so keen.

"You haven't worked that out already?" Mila asked, her expression thoughtful. "Haven't you wondered why I was there to protect you when your pack was attacked, Tali? Haven't you wondered why I was so insistent that you be part of this mission? It surely must have crossed your mind that there was a reason for these things. You're an intelligent young lady."

Of course it had crossed her mind. She knew something had been going on, she just couldn't figure out what it was. Now she stared intently at Mila, the pieces starting to fall into place. "You had a Vision about me and Agony."

"I did," her friend agreed. "I saw Europe bathed in blood at the hands of a young man who was grieving the loss of his parents. At the head of the rivers of blood stood a young human girl, single-handedly holding back the river. I knew that we had to find that girl, that if we didn't, death would sweep across Europe. I went looking for you and looking for the Justice Seeker. I had to find a way to bring you together."

She sighed, and her expression turned sad again. "I had no idea that vampires would attack your pack, or that Agony would rescue a wolf pup and bring her to you for safety. I just had to work with what fate had in store, I had to protect you until Agony returned to eventually save us all."