The Roommate Pt. 59

LIX: Why Do You Need Things That Way?

Marie and Lexi

Marie

Marie struggled to walk normally as she entered her room, the dishes either drying on the rack or in the dishwasher. Doing that with a plug in her ass and the low hum of the vibrator between her legs making her feel all fuzzy had been a weird experience, but not entirely unenjoyable.

Of course, that could have been because with all of Lexi's teasing, Marie was pretty sure she was closing in on a point where she might die if she didn't get sex soon.

The sight of Lexi on her bed, the room's dim lighting emphasizing her curves and toned muscles, made that even worse. The glint of a body chain caught the light across Lexi's bare midriff, calling even more attention to her abs.

Marie looked to Lexi's face and found her domme grinning. She realized she'd stopped only a few steps into the room, biting her lip as she gazed at Lexi.

After closing her door behind her, Marie started to close the distance, but stopped again as Lexi rose from the bed and met Marie halfway.

She took Marie's face in her hands, brushing her lips against Marie's in a way that sent shivers through her body, raising goosebumps all over. The kiss was slow and tender. Marie's head grew foggy as Lexi deepened it, brushing her thumb across Marie's cheek as her other hand found the small of Marie's back and pulled her closer.

A bulge against her hip nearly made Marie moan. When Lexi broke the kiss, Marie whimpered, finding herself dazed.

Lexi smirked, then ran the pad of her thumb over Marie's lips.

"Needy tonight, slut?"

Marie shivered, biting her lip, and nodded.

Lexi smiled, "Undress me. No kissing, not too much touching."

Marie hesitated, but did as she was told.

Her hands found the hem of Lexi's top, and Marie shivered at the warmth and hard muscle there.

"You're still wondering why I've been 'torturing' you all night, aren't you?" Lexi asked, raising her hands as Marie raised the knit crop top up and over her head, trying her best not to mess up Lexi's hair or makeup. That grew a bit more difficult when Marie realized Lexi hadn't worn a bra, and her head fogged up even more.

"Yes, Lexi," she said belatedly, realizing Lexi would want an answer.

"Did you think this was all going to be me telling you how to get off or how I want to fuck you, slut?"

Marie shivered, keeping silent as she unbuttoned Lexi's jeans, then worked them down her legs. It took all her effort not to stare at the bulge in Lexi's boyshorts as she worked the tight jeans down Lexi's smooth, muscular legs.

"I asked you a question, slut."

The command in Lexi's voice made Marie's pussy clench around the vibrator. Her head fogged up even more, and it took her a moment to clear her head.

"I guess I did," she admitted, cheeks burning as she peeled off Lexi's socks.

Marie waited silently, shifting on her heels as she waited for Lexi's answer. She blinked when Lexi reached down, pulling her upright, then took her chin gently with her fingers. They gazed into each other's eyes as Lexi moved her fingers up Marie's face, caressing her cheek.

"That's okay, pet," Lexi said, "You were wrong, but I don't blame you for thinking that way."

Marie smiled, "You don't?"

Lexi smirked, "Of course not."

Then she kissed her.

Something about the kiss made Marie's toes curl. Lexi's lips sent a shot of arousal straight to her core, which made her clench around the humming vibrator and the plug in her ass, which sent even more arousal and pleasure coursing through her, creating a feedback loop that sparked with sexual energy. Marie whimpered again when Lexi broke the kiss, feeling a sudden emptiness. Or maybe it was something else. Lexi was making it hard to think straight.

"You're not done just yet, slut," Lexi said, making her shiver as she pointedly looked down between them.

Marie followed her domme's gaze and swallowed hard.

Lexi's cock strained against the thin, soft fabric of her boyshorts. The head and the first inch or so of her cock stuck peeked out of the waistband. Just the sight of it made Marie even wetter. Biting her lip, she looked back to Lexi.

Her domme smirked, eyes alight with amusement even as they burned with desire.

That look made Marie feel warm even as it gave her a heady feeling.

That's for me. I did that.

She forgot that sometimes, that she could make Lexi look at her in a way that made her feel so special and safe.

Smiling, Marie sank down to her heels, then hooked her fingers over the waistband of Lexi's boyshorts. She peeled them off, drawing in a deep, shuddering breath as Lexi's cock flopped out in front of her face, bouncing and pulsing a bit as she gazed at it.

Lexi stepped out of her underwear, and Marie gasped as Lexi threaded her fingers through her hair and pulled her against her hip. The thick shaft of Lexi's cock almost touched Marie's nose. It filled Marie's senses with nothing but Lexi.

"You want this, don't you, slut?" Lexi asked, voice like velvet.

Marie swallowed, "Yes. Please."

She moaned as Lexi reached down and grasped her cock, giving it a few strokes.

Marie looked up to meet Lexi's eyes, then gasped as Lexi tapped her cheek with her cock, smirking.

"I don't think you've earned this just yet, slut," Lexi said, walking toward the bed.

Marie rose as her domme climbed onto the bed, then laid down on her stomach, toned back and round, firm ass making Marie's mouth water.

"You need to give me a massage before you get to touch my cock. Undress and start on my back." Marie swallowed. As horny and pent up as she was, as badly as she just wanted to cum with Lexi's huge cock inside her, the thought of finally getting to touch Lexi's wonderful body after so long set her blood pumping.

Marie threw off her clothes, then climbed on the bed, straddling the arch of Lexi's back. She let her hips relax, then tensed, remembering something.

"Should I take them out?"

Lexi cackled, "No. It feels nice. That wet little pussy of yours is nice and warm on my back, and the vibrator makes it feel like a little mini-massage. Keep them in, slut."

Marie shivered, "Yes Lexi."

Marie started on her domme's shoulders, first just feeling at Lexi's muscles. She traced their shapes, the lines that moved when she shifted or flexed, and the outlines where one muscle flowed to the next, then started working with her fingers. Lexi seemed tight, though Marie didn't have much frame of reference to go off of.

She liked the noises Lexi made, though. Those made Marie shiver, made her even wetter, knowing she was the one coaxing such wonderful noises from Lexi's throat. She worked in from Lexi's shoulders, toward her neck, spending some time there before moving down her spine and out to her shoulder blades. As she worked, though, reveling in Lexi's hard muscles and smooth skin under her hands, she thought of something.

"Lexi?"

"Mmm?"

"You never answered my question."

Marie could hear Lexi's grin as she spoke, "I was getting there. You just...distracted me."

That made Marie smile.

"While I like sex," Lexi said after a bit, voice thick, almost lazy, "Especially sex with you, it's not just about that. The control is what I need. I'll make sure you get all the pleasure you want--sometimes more than you think you want, but submission is more than sex. It's trust. It's me guiding you in and out of the bedroom, and you trusting my guidance and listening when I tell you to do something."

Marie blinked, "Oh."

She didn't stop her massage, but she did think for a bit on Lexi's words.

"I hadn't really thought about that," she admitted after a while, "I mean--I did, but--"

"Sex took the reins and overshadowed everything else?"

Marie nodded, "Yes, Lexi."

Lexi let out a deep, satisfied moan as Marie dug her thumbs into her middle back.

"I thought that might happen," Lexi said, "That's why your collar is something you can take off that only we know about."

Marie tensed for a moment, then relaxed as Lexi reached back and took her hand, squeezing it, "I want this, Marie. I want you. I just want to make sure you're ready. That you really know what you're getting into. If this isn't for you, it will suck, but your collar is just a necklace. Not a tattoo or collar that no one would mistake. I just need things to be this way."

Lexi released her hand, letting her arm fall back to her side, and Marie bit her lip, continuing the massage.

The causal finality in Lexi's voice as she spoke made Marie's stomach clench, but she didn't think her domme had meant it that way. Marie knew she hadn't started things out on the best foot with Lexi, but...

Can I really do this?

She wanted Lexi. The girl made her feel safe and wonderful and confident, and Marie felt so wonderful whenever she saw Lexi, so...

"Why do you need things that way?" Marie asked, voice small.

Lexi tensed under her, almost imperceptible, but Marie had felt it.

Marie's domme was silent, so she waited.

***

Lexi

Lexi bit her lip as she thought. While she enjoyed that Marie was waiting for her to speak, she didn't want to scare the blonde, and tried to find the right words.

She found them, but didn't speak immediately. Saying them was...frightening.

Marie has trusted me with enough to deserve this, though, hasn't she? She could have kept the stuff about the other girl to herself, but when she wanted to be serious, she told me immediately, even though she knew it could ruin things.

Lexi swallowed, taking a deep breath.

"I've been hurt in the past," she said, forcing out the words, "A lot."

Marie tensed above her.

Keep going.

"I wanted to find someone that would want to be with me so badly, that I let myself get taken advantage of a few times, and things went poorly. I tried just not being with anyone for a while, but that gets lonely."

Marie clutched at her shoulder, and Lexi smiled.

"I wanted some measure of control in the relationship. Something where I could call the shots without seeming like a bitch."

Lexi paused for a moment, then turned over and sat up, Marie backing up a bit.

Lexi took her girlfriend's hands in her own, meeting her gaze.

"I don't know how long I'll need this," Lexi said, "But just know it isn't a reflection on you or how I feel about you. It's just..."

She sighed, looking down for a moment, "It's something I need to work out for myself."

Lexi met Marie's green gaze again, "If you want me, that's just something that comes with it. Does that sound crazy, or--?"

Lexi's heart swelled as Marie shook her head, "Not at all. I don't fully understand it, but I think I get it, at least."

Lexi smiled, and Marie smiled back.

"Thank you."

Marie blushed, then bit her lip, sending a shot of arousal through Lexi.

She leaned forward, cupping Marie's face in her hands, and gave her a gentle kiss that made the blonde shiver.

Marie started to respond, but then Lexi pulled back, thinking of something.

Marie frowned, "Did I do something wrong?"

Lexi smiled, raising an eyebrow, and Marie blushed.

"Not at all," she said, "I just wanted to ask you a question."

Marie cocked her head, "What did you want to ask?"

"Why do you like submitting?" Lexi asked, "I know it can be fun, but why do you like it? I want to know why you find me or someone else taking control so appealing that you're okay being in a relationship like this instead of just doing that on the occasional hook up."

***

Marie

Marie bit her lip as she thought about Lexi's question--it wasn't the easiest thing to do with a plug and vibrator still inside her--then gasped as her domme wrapped an arm around her, pulling them together with a hand at the small of her back. Marie shivered as Lexi kissed her neck and brought her fingers down between her legs, teasing.

"Does this help?" Lexi asked, "Or make it harder?"

"Yes," Marie forced out.

Lexi giggled and kept teasing her.

"Try not to think," Lexi said, breath hot on Marie's skin, sending little spider webs of pleasure over her skin, "That's usually when you're most honest."

Marie blinked at that, then closed her eyes and leaned into Lexi.

"I think that's part of it," she said, clutching at her girlfriend's hard, lithe body, "I'm always thinking so much, but you know how to make that stop and just let me be for a while, not worrying or thinking about anything."

"Is that all?" Lexi asked, slipping a finger between Marie's soaked lower lips.

Fuuuck.

Marie stifled a gasp, swallowing hard, and shook her head.

"I'm always studying so hard for school and having to think about every little thing in my life, figuring everything out and finding my own way and worrying about the future. And then I have to make sure I follow through on that. I tried just 'going with the flow' for a while, and that ended in me alienating friends and fucking up a relationship. When I submit, I don't have to be worrying about any of that. I'm not the one making the decisions. I can just give up control and do what I'm told without worrying that I'm going to fuck everything up."

Marie nearly gasped at the raw emotion in her voice at that last part. She wanted to apologize for dumping all that on Lexi, but Marie's girlfriend kissed her before she could say anything.

It wasn't a deep, domineering kiss, or the chaste brush of Lexi's lips like earlier. It was sweet, comforting. It made Marie melt into Lexi's embrace.

"I'm sorry for--" Marie started, but Lexi placed a finger over her lips.

Marie looked up, meeting her domme's gaze.

"Don't apologize," she said, "I asked. And I could kind of tell that was your reasoning."

"Really?"

Lexi nodded, then hugged Marie to her and started stroking her hair. Lexi's touch sent shivers down Marie's spine even as she melted into the taller girl's embrace.

"I'm glad you feel safe enough with me and trust me enough to submit like this."

Marie smiled, "Of course, I do."

Lexi pulled just enough to meet her gaze. Marie shuddered at the way Lexi's eyes smoldered with desire.

"Do you need me to hold you and kiss you?" Lexi asked, "Or do you need me to fuck you, slut?"

Marie shivered, pussy fluttering in anticipation.

"Fuck me. Please."

A/N: What do you think of Lexi's answer?