by Str8NotSoMuch
This is similar to what I went through with my wife 3 years ago, except that she never realized that I'm gay. I couldn't get hard in bed with her unless I was thinking of men and the hot steamy gay porn I was watching regularly. One excerpt from your story which was true with me is:
"I looked at straight porn and it had no effect on me. I hesitantly switched to gay porn and I got an instant rush. Watching those men get cream-pies and guzzle cum gave me an instant hard-on." Yes, that's been me for over 3 years now.
I'm looking forward to the next chapters to see where this is going -- will you finally give in to your true desires and suck a real cock? will you do what you dream about and let a real man fuck your sissy man-pussy? will you admit to your wife that you are gay?
Please continue.